#'don't rely on all I said I saw 👍☺ ...it's just that I have not been wrong before 🤷‍♂️😬' '...GO GO GO JOSEPH YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SAY🎶🎵'

[partywithponies]

Joseph and the Amazing Technicolour Dreamcoat is like the panto of musical theatre, in that a huge part of the appeal of it comes from how much fun the entire cast is clearly having, deliberately hamming it up and chewing the scenery as much as humanly possible the entire time.

[sweet-xoxo-thatcares]

Thank God for Ms. Andrea.

She picked me up and dropped me off and we even talked about our relationship pasts after watching hoe dark and grey the clouds looked with the moon coming out, with the auburn reddish brown trees that had freckles of orange in it.

I said it reminded me of a scene from Twilight and I ended up asking her do you think if Bella knew her relationship was so codependent on Edward, do you think she would have just kept staying in love or would she have just walked away?

She said idk lol. Love... it's hard to stay away. She said she even took this 3rd shift just to get away from a guy she knew was bad for her, but she said for some reason she just couldn't stay away. There was something about him. And they were going on for about 5yrs she said. I was surprised that she said it, all flustered to even smoke a cigarette right after I told her about my person that I ended staying away from.

I said it's been about a year, but I still think about them each and every day since. And thats when I saw her reaching for that lighter in her purse.

And I had no idea she took asthma medicine too lol.

I told her my perception of love changed after I met this one. She said hers did too.

It seemed like for me, Jay made me runaway from love, cause I hate staying away and I don't like that he chose another woman who I could top myself cause I'm stronger, less stressed and more capable to be on my own instead of relying on them....an inconsistent and not the most easiest to get to know or to love.

I even started being pushy and judgemental toward my options more. Because really what I wanted was for Jay to grow up, without having to rely on Ayunna. And yea, I mean leave her, because she's the main focus, not our relationship with just me and Jay. No Ayunna. She's way too controlling and Jay let's her get away with having that power over them and so do they. They both do it to each other and they like these restrictions, it's gross.

Ms. Andrea said she had used to be like the more independent, aloof woman, very distant in love, but now with this guy it was making her draw closer to him. But seeing and hear her say that and seeing how strong and less stressed about love at work.

It made sense. The people we chose, are a reflection of who we are and who we don't think we are.

I'm proud to say, I got my 6hrs of sleep in on a work day yessssss 😁 and I ordered me and Ms. Andrea some tacos and Mexican food. I had The El Diabla from Sorianos. That shit is so spicy and so good 👍

Muy caliente.

And I didn't take my St.Johns Wort and Ashwaganda herbs for my anxiety and I feel way more in touch with myself at work today. I bought a green smoothie powder mix for more vegetables and green protein for my energy levels too. Mixed it with Orange V8 and Orange Juice it tastes soooo much better.

The 1st time I had it was with lemonade and tasted like dirty lemonade and I could taste the Almond protein part more strongly. Lol 😅

I feel much happier today. It was so weird that as I was falling asleep before my shift, my brain kept waking up, "like hey are we supposed to be sleep?" And "are you sure? How many hours we got left?" You sure you not gonna miss the bus?'

Ms. Andrea, thank you. You really helped my day feel much better ☺ and I'm not falling asleep on the toilet today. Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa