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#( of course. he isn’t affectionate. if anything. he detests it. he hates physical contact of any kind. you���ve noticed. )
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And then I finally end it off with some doodles of them… they make me feel things.
#ringmaster doodles
#sona art
#( they’re very much the theme of. love in the face of the neverending march of time. )
#( being immortal and knowing you will outlive the man you love because someone else deemed he unworthy of eternal life. )
#( he may still have tens of thousands of years left. sure. but you know that those will go by and he’ll disappear in the blink of an eye. )
#( and you’ll sit there on his death bed. wondering why did things end up like this? )
#( wondering what you did wrong. and if you could have done something different. you’ll always ask yourself. )
#( if he lives a life of happiness and comfort or did he live a life as gruesome and miserable as the wars on earth? but you won’t know. )
#( and the more you think about it. the more you realize it. how nihilistic he was. and how he never seemed to smile even in the good times.
#he always seemed to have a frown or a scowl on his face. he always seems bothered and unhappy. )
#( so you wonder if it was something you did. because you know you aren’t perfect. you’re hardly good. )
#( you wonder if he’s mad at you. maybe he was. but he doesn’t have the heart to stay mad. )
#( and that’s love in the face of adversity. knowing that no matter how bad it gets. he loves you as you love him. )
#( and you wonder why he never smiles. because he truly never does. and so you ask him. honest and true. )
#( and he tells you there isn’t anything worth smiling for. nothing in this whole world. )
#( but he smiles at you. it’s always small. and it’s always brief. )
#( but that smile. that smile means love. )
#( that hug. as flimsy as it may be. that hug means love. )
#( of course. he isn’t affectionate. if anything. he detests it. he hates physical contact of any kind. you’ve noticed. )
#( which is a shame. you love your hugs and your kisses and your hand holding. )
#( but even if he doesn’t like it. he lets you do it. because it makes you happy. )
#( and you learn that when you’re happy. he’s a little less miserable. )
#( of course. not all love is equal. and not all love is fair. )
#( the love from a lover and the love from the father can never equate to one another. )
#( no one will love you in the same way a father or mother loves you. in the same manner. no one will ever love you the way I do. )
#( because my love will remain with you. long after I disappear. )
#( and as bitter as the idea of my own existence coming to an end is. knowing I did all of this for. essentially nothing. )
#( that I’ve gone through all this pain and suffering and hardship just for it to all amount to nothing. for it to be fucking useless to try.
#I get to die knowing that you’ll always love and be loved. and that’s enough for me… )
#( … maybe there is something worth smiling for after all. )
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