#( pam x ferg )

[nikofrpstheremix]

ferg. 🍀

[theworldofotps]

Night Terrors

~Trigger Warning Included~

Pairing: Fergal Devitt x Reader Word Count: 2,046 Description: Memories of an abusive relationship cause the reader to have horrible night terrors. The first time Fergal stays over he offers comfort the best he can.

Requested by: @writtingrose  Here you go baby, I really hope this meets your request I did the absolute best that I could. Thank you for asking me to write this one I hope I did it justice.❤️️ 

Warning: Angst, mentions/description of abuse ~~~~~~~~~ This is one that I wanted to be just right as it does contain a topic that is very serious and sensitive to some people. If you or someone you know is dealing with an abusive situation please please seek help from someone if you can.❤️️❤️️

~~~~~~~ Trigger Warning: Mentions of physical and verbal abuse. Please, I am begging you and telling you right now.  Do Not Read This If You Could Be Triggered By Any Of It.  I have plenty of other Finn/Fergal One Shots in my Masterlist in my bio. ~~~~~~~~~ ___________ If you want yourself removed from this specific one just send me a message and I’ll take it off I don’t want anyone to be triggered or upset. Tag list:  @writtingrose​ @biforbecky2belts @sjwrites22 @detectiveramen @sassymox @demonkingsangel @the-beastslayers-queen @thewrestlingwarehouse @new-zealand-chic @reigns420 @sassyspacedust

If you wanna be added to my tag list lemme know! _________  Fixing the bedspread you adjust the pillows making sure they were fluffed not noticing the amused look on your friend's face.

"Calm down y/n it's not like Fergal is coming to judge the comfy feeling of your pillows."

"I know but this is the first time he's staying over since we got together I want everything to be perfect."

"Trust me he's going to be happy."

Pam smiles watching you continue to fix up your room trying to be sure it was good letting out a dramatic sigh grabbing your hand. Pulling you from the room she leads you from your room down to the dining room.

"Sit."

She demands softly going into the kitchen plopping in the chair you rub a hand over your face. After a few minutes, Pam comes back with two cups of your favorite drink setting the glass in front of you she grabs the chair beside you.

"What has you so worried about Fergal?"

"It's not so much Fergal himself I just don't want him to be bored or disappointed in having me for a girlfriend. Pam, I can't go through hearing that thrown at me not again and especially not by Fergal."

"He isn't like that y/n I promise Fergal is a sweetheart and would never hurt you like that. He adores you so much and wouldn't ever do what y/ex/n did to you."

"Oh Pam, he's been so great and patient but I can't help the part of me that's waiting for him to become horrible. Or I mess it all up I just I'm trying to work through it so I can be really happy."

"Y/n what you went through was awful and it could take a long time for you to move forward. But every day is a new step towards progress and trust me Fergal is going to be the best person to come into your life."

She smiles giving your hand a squeeze giving her a nod you finish the rest of your drink. When she has to leave you bid her a farewell washing what few dishes there are deciding to sit and watch something until Fergal showed up. Spending twenty minutes watching a random show a knock at the door causes your heart to jump to your throat. Partly in fear but mainly in excitement when you met Fergal two years ago you never thought you'd end up dating especially after your last disastrous relationship yet here you were coming up on three months together. With him traveling so much for work it's the first time he's stayed the night with you and not have to leave early in the morning for a flight. Walking to the front door you pull it open smiling at the charming Irishman clutching flowers in his hands.

"Hello, Fergal."

"Hello, darlin thanks for having me over."

He grins pressing a soft kiss your lips holding the flowers out when he pulls away from you.

"I got these for ya though you might like em I know they're your favorite."

"They're beautiful babe thank you come on in and make yourself at home while I put these in a vase."

Waving him off to the living room you walk into the kitchen grabbing a vase filling it up with water and placing the flowers inside. smiling as you gently touch a pedal you take a deep breath before turning and walking back to join Fergal.

"I don't bite."

He chuckles when you stand in the doorway your cheeks heating up as you walk over sitting next to him. Pressing a kissed your temple Fergal wraps his arm around you gently pulling you into his side. Telling yourself to relax you rest your head on his chest letting out a soft sigh. Despite being so muscular Fergal was so comfortable to rest on his hand rubbing your back had you relaxing into him even more.

"So my darling what is the plan for tonight?"

"I was thinking maybe we could get takeout and watch a movie there is a healthy menu for my favorite restaurant I know how you like to eat healthily."

"That sounds great and thank you for taking my likes into consideration."

Fergal chuckles kissing the top of your head letting you up so you can go and get the menu to order from. Grabbing your phone you both search then menu together settling on chicken curry and breadsticks. Ordering the food you sit back into his arm handing the remote to Fergal with a smile.

“You can pick whatever you’d like I have plenty of movies to pick from.”

“How about a sort of comedy or action?”

Searching through the movies he comes to The Mummy turning to look at you with a smile.

“This one okay?”

“I love this movie yeah go ahead and click it.”

Pressing play Fergal sets the remote down wrapping his arm around you pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head. Curling into his side your eyes go to the screen as you slowly allow yourself to relax. Pausing the movie only long enough to pay for the food when it arrives the two of you sit enjoying the first and second movie of the series.

“You sit here enjoying this I’m going to go wash the few dishes there are.”

“Oh, Ferg you don’t have to do that.”

“I want to just stay here and relax.”

Walking to the kitchen Fergal starts whistling leaving you to sit on the couch and continue watching the movie. Sliding under the blanket you pulled from the back of the couch you wrap yourself up resting your head on one of the cushions.

~Dream where abuse is mentioned read with caution~ “Seriously Y/n can’t you do anything fucking right can you?!”

“I’m I’m sorry I didn’t mean to spill it.”

“You just love to piss me off don’t you?”

He spits in anger watching as you crouch on the floor next to the broken glass shattered across the floor. The liquid now staining the cream-colored rug an ugly yellow-brown color which would be hard as hell to remove. Biting your lip and keeping your eyes low to the ground although you knew it was inevitable the backhand still startled you. A silent yelp and flinch as you hold your now stinging cheek trying your best to keep from tearing up. Keeping your head bowed you try to keep from letting the gruff sound of your throat show.

“I’m sorry for spilling it I promise it was an accident.”

Letting out a sigh he kneels beside you resting a hand on your shoulder you hated how you had to fight the urge to keep from flinching.

“You know I hate having to do that to you?”

Simply nodding you keep your gaze on the floor as he presses a kiss to your temple then standing again.

“Clean this mess up.”

Grabbing the broom you start sweeping up the glass carefully stepping around him to dump it in the trash. His figure soon shifting from standing in your kitchen to a completely different scene you were standing off in the bedroom. The lamp knocked over the bed a mess as he paces back and forth anger darkening his expression.

“I don’t know why I even put up with you and your bullshit I swear you fuckin love to do anything to make me mad. Is that it Y/n you like being hit? You like being shoved around because you sure piss me off enough to get that reaction.”

Backing away when he walks closer you shake your head begging him to just leave you alone you hated the anger in his eyes. Hated how just one look from him could send your ice cold and fear running through your veins.

“I just thought.”

“There is no need for you to think I do enough thinking for both of us.”

“You don’t have to be so angry.”

You mutter under your breath hoping he won’t hear it but luck isn’t on your side as he stops glaring at you.”

“Wanna repeat that again?”

“Not really.”

“Repeat it.”

Taking a deep breath you open your mouth to speak head reeling back at the backhand that connects you could hear your teeth snap together. Tears filling your eyes as you slide down to the floor. You feel hands grab your arms shaking you as you beg him to stop begging for him just to leave you alone. ~Dream fades out~ “Y/n!”

Shooting up off the cushion heart racing you look around the darkened room tears dripping down your face. Flinching when you feel a hand on your face your gaze meets Fergal’s concerned blue one his hand hovering gently above your shoulder.

“What happened?”

“You were crying out in your sleep jerking around so I woke you up.”

Tryin to catch your breath you wipe your cheeks flinching when Fergal goes to push the hair back from your face.

“What the hell were you dreamin about love?”

“Awful stuff.”

You sniffle wiping your face pushing the blanket off your lap Fergal goes into the kitchen soon coming back with a glass of water.

“Do you wanna go up to bed?”

He asks you nod slipping off the couch leading the way up to your room as you try shaking the terrors from your mind. Changing into a pair of shorts and tee-shirt you clean yourself up washing your face then brushing your teeth.

“The bathroom is free.”

You tell Fergal who’s standing looking out your window getting under the blankets you let out a sigh of relief at the cool feeling of the sheets against your heated skin.

“If you would rather be alone sweetheart I would understand.”

Fergal says softly coming back from the bathroom you look at him the worry evident on his face.

“You don’t have to leave please.”

“Do you want to talk about your dream you might feel better?”

Thinking for a moment you nod your head pulling back the blankets for him to crawl in next to you.

“Can I hold you?”

“Please?”

You ask softly Fergal holds his arms out so you can move at your own pace a kiss pressed to your cheek as you crawl onto his lap his arms secure around you. Resting your head on his chest you play with his fingers as you sort through your thoughts.

“Before you, I had gotten out of a horrible relationship he was awful so rude always angry and abusive.”

You feel Fergal tense under you gently turning your gaze to meet his as he looks confused.

“He what? What kinda person could ever think it was okay or justified to do that to another being?”

Shrugging you sighed you had no clue why taking a few moments more you start telling him about your dreams. As you speak you feel Fergal’s hands rub your side and hip trying to comfort you the best he could. His arms holding you slightly tighter but not in a way that scared you but in a way that made you feel safer than you had in a long time.

“What a complete prick nobody should be forced to go through that.”

“For the longest time, I thought it was my fault that I was weak.”

“Oh Y/n I hope you don’t still feel that way it was not your fault that happened to you and you aren’t weak for it happening. Someone who was supposed to keep ya safe to love ya went and broke your trust. He stepped over a boundary that never should have been crossed that’s awful and I’m so sorry you went through that.”

“I’m just happy he’s outta my life for good and locked away for good.”

Cupping your cheek and gently stroking it Fergal presses a kiss to your lips gently to keep from spooking you.

“Please just know I will never ever hurt you like that I promise on my life I want to keep you safe.”

Laying you back down Fergal wraps his arm securely around your waste watching you.

“If you need me I’m right here okay I’ll always be here.” _______ Well, this one hit a bit differently, thanks for reading. ❤️️