The curtain falls. LONG post.
���So. I bet you’re wondering why I called you all here… heh.
I HAVE A PROBLEM. AND I NEED TO FIX IT.
I’ll cut right to it, then, because I had other stuff going on all morning/day and have only just gotten settled in front of my computer, and now it’s a whole day after I’d originally planned to do this, and so I think the time has finally come to stop putting it off and just “say my thing.”
I’m here to announce that I will no longer be updating this blog, at least until further notice but obviously it could be longer. I hope that makes sense… sheez… anyway.
This was not an easy decision to make, darlings. I wanted to love this blog. I wanted to love blogging in general. And fandom. And shipping. I wanted to fill this blog with that crabby ginger tabby, Millicent, hence the name, and Kylux in particular, and all manner of Star Wars and Night Vale and Carry On and my favorite actors, and above all, I just wanted to have a good time.
Those very things have gotten me and my best friend in a rut, and we recognize that there is an issue. Not so very long ago, she and I became deeply invested in one particular actor, who I will not name but you are all smart enough to figure it out… and, quite honestly, the whole thing got extremely out of hand. She and I are in no danger of breaking our friendship; I simply mean that this actor has been seen living his life and making personal life choices that were in no way wrong but still left us feeling… well… left out. I’ll explain in the next paragraph. The main thing you must understand is this: We are taking a step back from having anything to do with this actor or his work, and that in itself may very well be temporary OR it may be permanent, the jury’s still out on that. More to the point, the depth of our emotional investment has truly gotten bad enough that we can no longer feel comfortable staying on Tumblr where the issue is perpetuated and exacerbates our negative feelings.
Now… to be frank, this whole thing that I’m doing started as an act of solidarity and loyalty to her, it wasn’t originally my pain or my issue, but the more I thought about it, the more I understood what I was dealing with and putting myself through. And I realized that in other ways, it WAS my pain and it WAS my issue, just not in the exact same way.
At this point, I’m not too prideful to admit I did something very irresponsible. A few things, actually. I can’t speak for her, but as I brought up to her the other night, I am starting to really blur the lines between fiction and reality. I was real-people-shipping, seeing no other pairing and preferring no other pairing except for my best friend and this actor, and it was causing terrible pain for both of us even though this actor had done nothing to us directly.
That isn’t all. I wasn’t much better in that regard. I’m protecting my best friend’s privacy a bit by not mentioning the name of the actor that she and I fell for… but I will mention a name that connects to my own situation.
That name is Carrie. When I started this blog, back in July of last year (hey, at least I made it past the first “birthday!”), I had only wanted to throw fandom stuff at it and see what looked good. And then, that December, when Carrie Fisher had her heart attack and passed away, the entire mood of the blog shifted and changed and never really went back to the way it originally was. I didn’t actually realize it had gotten that bad until many months into the vicious loop, when I only had to see a pic of Carrie or Leia to just feel so sad and heartbroken at her death all over again, even after I thought I had recovered. Before I knew it, I started to only go on Tumblr whenever I was feeling sad or anxious, not for the purpose of cheering myself up, but to stay sad instead. And that’s where I am now. This obsession with mourning Carrie, on top of the anxiety of blurred lines and worrying about sad friends has led me to feel very suffocated, anxious, and depressed on an almost constant basis, and I really don’t think it started being this bad until I got back into Tumblr. (This was my second account in over three years at the time I started it up.) To clarify: I am not blaming Carrie Fisher or any bloggers for my spiral. I’m saying I was starting to become as addicted to her as I was to this other actor.
I need to say something else that’s very important, and by not saying it sooner I hope I haven’t caused anyone to worry or feel bad. My best friend and I are safe. We are safe, our lives are not in danger, we are going to be okay. It is nobody’s fault on here. Nobody here did anything wrong. We (as in she and I) tend to dislike the general atmosphere, but this particular hardship is not related to anything that anyone here did specifically. By getting the heck out of here when we did, we prevented the problems we were both having from getting any worse.
I honestly think that does it for the main body. Onward now to the shout-outs and thank-yous. If I’m forgetting anyone, I am truly sorry! I love you ALL.
@skarsjoy: Oh, my dear friend. You are one of my favorite people, and even though I honestly didn’t reblog that much Alex while I was here, I know you understand that I’ve always appreciated everything you’ve done for me and for the Alex fandom. I’m on Twitter still, so we can still talk. Thank you for being such a wonderful friend. You’re so sweet, giving, and patient, and I love you dearly. I truly admire your willingness to post my reviews back in the day, and I just want you to know they’ll always be my favorite posts you’ve ever done. Keep on keepin’ on, and I’ll see you on the Twitt side.
@mixtapemasterjipc: Heyyyy, Jude. This is honestly one of the hardest parts of leaving this place. I have so many other people to thank, but you’re way way WAY up here because I just have so much to thank you for. In particular, what stands out to me is that time we watched Hungry Hearts together, and the time you came “running” to take care of me after that humongous sad post I wrote, and our first real life phone call together. “Girls” is still my favorite, and I’m so grateful you sent me season 3 for my birthday last year. I enjoy your wit, your big heart, and your knowledge. Thank you for coming to find me, and thank you for letting me in. I’m sorry for the tough stuff in the past. Let’s keep trying. Together. I ain’t goin’ anywhere for real, dude, like, seriously. Between Twitter and texting (and by the way, thank you for sending me your number!) you won’t exactly be able to get rid of me, so do. not. worry. I Love You.
@dxmi-illustrates: Hey you, thank you for talking with me when I first started hanging around this place. You’re a fantastic artist, and I hope that’ll continue to go well for you–I loved For Rent, especially. Good luck with all that, doll. Also, good luck with school!
@pidgy-draws: Sweetie, thank you for the chats. I’m happy I got to know you. You draw such cute art and I’m very proud of you! ^w^
@rebelwerewolf: I have a lot of respect for you. As a blogger, you have paid such loving respect to the Star Wars and Kylux fandoms, and as much good as you’ve done for this community, I hope that something wonderful happens to you too someday. Thank you.
@kyluxtrashbin: THANK YOU for my Christmas card! You’re so sweet and smart, and I’m happy to have known you for the short time I was here. I’ll write to you, sweetheart. Thank you.
@thegoodlannister: You just have such a sweet personality and I’m happy we’ve had the chats we did. You may not have ever known this but I started as a Stark and now I identify as a Lannister. You’ll hear my roar on some other distant shore, dude, I promise. Thank you.
@mintmintdoodles: You’re adorable and a darling, I love your freaking art, and I just really wanted to thank you for letting me use your Kylux + Millie chibi pic as my profile pic.
@elviscl: You’re incredibly awesome. You are an insanely talented artist, and I’m so happy the Kylux fandom has you. Keep on truckin, you. Thank you so much for letting me use that Kylux + Millie pic as my banner.
@deluxekyluxtrashcan: You’re a very talented writer, mah dude. Never give up. I love you. Thank you for the chats.
@flukeoffate: HEY LAYDEE. Thank you for the artwork you’ve done for me over the time I’ve been here. I’ll talk to you on FB still!!! Hope everything is going okay for ya. Love love!
@helliskylux: Where do I even start with you, my love? You have such a good heart, and gods I just hope wonderful things happen to you. Thank you for your friendship, and for all the love.
@minzimpression: I just think you are so talented and funny. Hotline Bling is such an amazing story, one of my most favorites. Thank you for your hard work and for talking to me. I fucking love you.
@teatimeinspace: You’re lovely! Thank you for your contributions to the Kylux fandom, and I wish you love and light and all good things.
@han-sulus: I really hope you’re doing okay. Thank you for your friendship. I love you so much.
@kylux-fic-hell: You’re awesome, and I love your fics! Never let your light die. Thank you for your work.
@hux-you-up: Your blog is epic, and I enjoyed following you! ^_^ Thank you.
@kyleauxwren: UGH YOU ARE AMAZING. I wish you all the best! Thank you for your contributions to the fandom and the art world!! My favorite thing was the Millie pins, but I’m absolutely floored by your other art! Congratulations on all your successes, and good luck with future ones!
@drxgonstone: It’s been a pleasure knowing you. I’ll never forget that one of the first things we talked about was how beautiful your account is (back when it was ohkylorens). And I honestly hate that I’m having to leave now, just when it’s all decked up in some of my new favorite things, Game of Thrones and JONAERYS. Dearly love ya, friend. Thank you.
@nightsofllyn! Words can’t express the level of respect and gratitude I feel for you. I absolutely adore Blue Milkshake, like you have no friggin idea, and I wish you all the best in continuing it. To be fair, I wish you the best in everything. You deserve it. Thank you for putting up with the ridiculous level of my fangirling. Love ya!
@wishfulfanficing and @missaliarman: First off, you’re so lovely to me, and I love that you’re a Leia fan. Second, my dear, I’m going to send you the Carrie mall fanfic when I’m done with it. Thank you so much for your email address; I look forward to keeping in contact off of this haunted hill. I LOVE YOU dearly.
@lenina-phasma: You’ll be hearing from me very soon, friendly friend. We did exchange emails. I’m not going to disappear. THANK YOU for your support. I’ll help you with Come Blow Your Horn anytime you need a nudge. I’m looking forward to The Sorceress and the Skeptic, too, cher. Mucho love.
@pinkyhuxy: SO MUCH PINK. Thank you for your contributions to the Kylux and Pink!Hux fandom. You’re a gem!
@chacharger: Like I don’t even know. I feel like such a complete creep for walking away from this place after you gave me the Carry On confession blog. I’m sorry for that, and I just wanted to say thank you again for giving me the opportunity to try to work on it. I hope everything goes well for you. <3
@darthastris: You’ve been so good to me in my time on this site, as well as on Twitter. I’m sorry that everything happened so suddenly. It’s going to take some time but I’m going to get back up on my feet eventually and move forward. I’m so grateful for your presence in my life, and I’m glad that I’ll still be able to communicate with you once I take my leave of this little corner of the “world.”
@bpdhux and @endoglenic: I have no words for the gratitude I feel toward both of you, for sticking by me as I go through a lot of changes all at once. I’m happy we get to continue talking over email; I think that makes this a lot easier.
@solohux: Little Lottie, darling, I’ve truly adored every interaction we have had since we became friends here. I will deeply, utterly miss you. We have had a lovely few months together, haven’t we? I’ll email back and forth with you if you want, just check out my addy in the bottom of this post! I will always think of you whenever I see foxes. I love you, friend. Hang in there. You can do this.
@imperatrixxx: I want to let you know I have a GREAT deal of respect for your mission of helping kitties. I’ll never forget our journey together to help rescue Millicent and get her adopted. Thank you for reaching out after I had to let go of baby Asus back several months ago. May your streets be paved with scratching posts and your home filled with as many kitties as your heart can handle.
@strawhat-giraffe: AAAAHHHH! Hey, so I know we didn’t get to know each other very long before I freaked and ditched this joint, but I wanted to say I LOVE that you’re a voice actor too, and if you’ll email me (bottom of the post) I’ll send you my voiceover work in an audio file! OODLES of love and light to ya, friend!
@fanbows: You’re truly my favorite Rainbow Rowell blogger! Thank you for your contribution to the RR fanbase! You deserve so much good in return for the good you do. I think everyone deserves a pot of gold like you at the end of their rainbow. (I am a cheese, so what? Ha! Sorry not sorry ^^)
@yofriesenburg: Now, one of the reasons I joined Tumblr again was because of Snowbaz. You, friend, are probably my favorite EVER Snowbaz artist. I hope everyone everywhere gets to see your art, CO or otherwise! Thank you.
@ottenebrare: I don’t know if I mentioned this to you on that night when I asked you about your name, but I truly admire you. You have contributed so much to the Kylux fandom, and you have a beautiful soul on top of that, and I don’t know I just really love you. I did get more sleep after I sent that message to you, and all I can tell you is I’m trying as hard as I can in life.
And lastly, @missmendelsohn. I’m sorry. I tried. I tried but I just couldn’t fight anymore and I have to step back and just try to be brave through whatever this nastiness is. Please. Keep “it” safe, and please don’t tell anyone. Thank you for your contribution to Tumblr and to the fam. You’re a good girl. You did nothing wrong. I love you.
Special mentions to other deeply loved and respected favorites that I didn’t necessarily have a whole lot of contact with: @sigalawin @eglantineprice @reylooo @confessuponatime @dearmyblank @thelastmessagereceived @ryanreynoldssource @fuckyeahreynolds @arrivedmad and @ben-mendelsohn-trash.
My email, should any of you wish to remain in contact with me off of here, is
[email protected]. Thank you all. May the Force be with you.
R.I.P. Mewlicent’s Domain: July 29, 2016 - August 22, 2017.
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Finally, The ET Video Game That You’ve Been Waiting For
Since there was no proper game culture wrap-up last week (again, sorry about that), along with how I’m filing this at the end of the week instead of the beginning (there’s… stuff happening, so consider this one of the more minor examples), there’s a lot to cover this time around. Including a bunch of happenings from the word of art.
So kicking things off is the latest from Amanda Visel X Michelle Valigura. Much like their Star Wars, Beetlejuice, and Heathers cabinets, here we their ideas of what arcade games based upon ET and Aliens could and should look like. And yeah, playing as Gertie is an approach that could salvage its reputation in the video game sphere, plus I totally want an Alien/Aliens video game starring Newt.
Actually, hasn’t something similar already happened? Sorry, haven’t kept up with the video adaptations; last one I played was for the Jaguar. Anyhow, and unfortunately, both pieces are sold out online. Though… and I’m not 100% certain, but… they’re both at the Thailand Toy Expo, so maybe they brought a few extras with them?
Elsewhere in Asia, Japan to be exact, are not just one but two other notable shows, and both focused on electronic entertainment. First is something you’re probably familiar with, the My Famicase Exhibition, and not just because it’s been around for 13 years. As of this writing, the entire assortment has yet to be shared officially, so you’ll have to turn to Twitter to see the participants boasting their own handiwork.
[UPDATE: 5/7/17] Actually, all the pieces are finally viewable on the Famicase homepage proper. Here are my faves…
… I particularly love Saturdays’s flavor text: “The gateway opens once a week. Tomorrow I’m going in.”
… You kinda need to see the actual cart in the wild to understand; here’s a pic courtesy of @mandimappy…
And finally...
… It’s maybe pointing out that the artist responsible for the concept above also did a piece for last year’s event as well, which ended up becoming something that’s actually playable! Hope history repeats itself cuz I really want a game about an all cat band with gross lyrics.
Now, the other show is something you may know nothing about, cuz a. the 16 Bit Models Exhibition has only been around for two years and b, was only open for just one day, hence why it’s fallen under many radars.
Admittedly, I found last year’s assortment a bit more up my alley, most due to my affinity for the obscure. Yet I can still appreciate this very realistic take on the Super Mario Bros (btw, am also sorry that I don’t know who’s responsible for what)…
Along with this realistic take on Pauline and Donkey Kong…
Yet the exhibition was a reminder that not every Nintendo game out there has been paid tribute to death, specifically Urban Champion…
The dioramas are easily the best parts of the 16 Bit Models Exhibition. Here’s an equally impressive one, featuring Castlevania…
Though once again, the obscurer the better, so this tribute to Bio Miracle Bokutte Upa gets a thumbs up from me…
Which is the lesser known game: Bio Miracle Bokutte Upa or City Connection? The latter at least was released on the NES at the time. Then again…
Moving onto fashion, UNIQLO recently unveiled an upcoming line based upon Mario and company. As one might expect from UNIQLO, they look quite nice! Here’s the campaign movie from Japan…
The best part is that UNIQLO’s entire line is headed towards the US! Was not expecting that. Alas, certain designs are not available to everyone, and I know more than a few adults who wouldn’t mind that Kirby tee. So here comes YUMMY MART to the rescue…
Somewhat along the same lines is Namco enlisting the talents of PAYNUS, who represents some of the esoteric offerings in the Pac-Store…
The constant reference to pizza is something that’s present in both the PAYNUS designs and Namco’s own in-house efforts…
Meanwhile, back at METEOR, in addition to the latest Famicase exhibit, they’ve also been busy with a collab with THUNDERBOX (which I highlighted just a few weeks ago). And from the looks of miki800.com’s post, MOUNTAIN GRAPHICS is also involved? Talk about a holy trinity…
Whereas the previous combination makes sense, the following is… unexpected. Recently discovered that R23X has teamed up with the The Yetee of all folks to produce a line of shirts showcasing glitched VHS stills. Including one that’s game related (technically two; there’s also a crop top version as well)…
Looks neat and all, but I’m less of a Final Fantasy 7 fan and more of a Wave Race 64 aficionado, and would therefore love to see this on a tee…
I’d also love to get my hands on one of these 100 yen pins that @rgb_club posted a couple weeks back, though no word on when it might be available…
Here’s another thing that’s not for sale, mostly cuz there was only one, which is of this baseball player made to look like a Street Fighter…
Which had the better Spinning Bird Kick; Street Fighter: The Legend of Chun-Li…
Or City Hunter (yup, that’s Jackie Chan; via tenshokyaku)…
Sticking with leggy video game stars, thanks to thevideogameartarchive, we finally have an answer as to whether Link is boxers or briefs…
And sticking with Link for just a bit more, I particularly dig nozovis’s summary of the fun times him and Zelda have in Breath of the Wild…
Along those same lines is a zine that @WPR_haru made that’s filled with all the photos he took, one that I’d love to have a copy of…
Which fan art featuring a character from behind do you prefer; this Breath of the Wild piece by James Kochalka…
Or this Overwatch piece by some unknown artist (if anyone knows, plz let me know)…
Here we have @RAStyle85’s Astro City with a lots of buttons, for playing whatever game that requires that many inputs…
And here we have former Taito graphic designer Atsushi Iwata’s custom-built device, for producing pixel graphics!
Such things were used in other places, like SNK. Here we have a quote from someone who worked there, courtesy of videogamesdensetsu…
“The sprite editor used by artists for a number of SNK fighting games (Art Box) was written for the Neo-Geo, and uses the Neo-Geo as the interface. As in, you would use the joystick and the buttons to draw the sprite. He didn’t believe this when he started there, until one of the higher ups showed him by firing up one of the machines and drawing a kickass sprite of Robert Garcia in like 10 minutes”.
Does the Art Box sound familiar? Well, it should be.
The latest from The Gaming Historian, on the creation of the d-pad, answers the one question I’ve had for ages: if Nintendo was able to patent the control input, how were Sega and others able to get away with something seemingly similar?
Remember the 8bit Harmonica from last week? Well here’s another project involving the Famicom by Ugoita that’s a bit more… random?
This post has gone on for far too long without any Sega. Time to fix that with some gifs of Sonic from Sega Saturn de Hakken!! Tamagotchi Park, which as you may have guessed is a Tamagotchi title in which you can raise Sonic (and sorry, chilli dogs was Sonic’s fave food in the US, though I believe Sonic Generations would later recon that; via pr0jectneedlemouse)…
Though you can also raise other Sega personalities, like Opa Opa and Alex Kidd, plus even a Mega Drive cart (via grooveonfight)?
Super obscure Sega humor doesn’t get more obscure than this folks (note to self: on the next car trip, bring along the soundtrack to Super Hang-On cuz repeated plays of OutRun and Daytona USA tunes can get old after a while; via dnopls)…
I know the following has been shared liked crazy (hell, even NPR posted the damn thing), and for good reason. All I can say is, Pikachu #14, get your sh*t together…
Speaking of Pikachu and his pals, The Pokemon Center released a line of Ditto Gachapon figures that are supa kawaii (via retrogamerblog)…
Though the one piece of plastic I want the most is the also recently unveiled Samus from Metroid Prime figure by Good Smile Company, which looks hella cooler than the previously released Other M Figma…
Am embarrassed to admit that I have no idea where this following screenshot is from, nor the tune that accompanies it, both courtesy of radicalhelmet. If anyone would be kind enough to clue me in, would be supremely appreciated…
I wonder what the cover girl of this issue of Spoon is playing (via sixteen-bit)…
And this week’s recommended reading comes courtesy of mah boi Don Miller, and is actually something that Oliver at Minus World also picked up on, which is a book produced by the creator of LSD: Dream Emulator, among other things, and someone I’ve mentioned quite a few times around these parts. It’s called The Art of Computer Designing: A Black and White Approach and is available via archive.org…
As someone who has always planned on transforming an old iMac into a fish tank, thanks to Phazed, I know have other ideas…
And finally, and I also know that I’ve been saying the same thing over and over again, but Super Attractive Club members will be receiving another round up game culture snapshots, hopefully very soon! Until then, please enjoy this still life courtesy of peazy86…
BTW, peazy86 also does music, plus music videos…
Don’t forget: Attract Mode is now on Medium! There you can subscribe to keep up to date, as well as enjoy some “best of” content you might have missed the first time around, plus be spared of the technical issues that’s starting to overtake Tumblr.
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