wish i could go back to when i could show my mom my art without her talking about how i could make money off it. like shes right but pls this is the only thing keeping me sane rn
yk you read kith & kin and you read vm origins and you're like yeah I think I know a good chunk of twins backstory angst, but I've since recovered! AND THEN CR KEEPS THROWING MORE SADNESS EVERY SINGLE SECOND I BREATH
someone messaged me a few months ago, “you think you’re so pretty n you’re acc not its so embarrassing, acc makes me so annoyed” - i’d been really struggling with my self image when they messaged me that, which is funny really because nothing anyone had said to me on the internet had affected me since i was 15 and going through a rough time, but at 21 when i thought i was finally happy with the way i look, and who i am as an adult, this one message from some random girl i’d never spoken to ruined the self confidence i worked so desperately hard to have,
Now I struggle to look at myself in a mirror, or take pictures of myself. I can’t stop looking back at when i was younger and wishing I looked the way i did back then, i’m constantly struggling with my mental health and medication, trying to balance being a uni student and working, trying to desperately pretend that i’m okay because i’m tired of people asking me how i am, or if i’m lonely, i’m tired of making excuses as to why i don’t want to see people or why i don’t wear what i used to or why i barely leave the house.
mean people don’t stop being mean because they’re no longer in high school, and thats something i’ve had to come to terms with.
i deadass only use tumblr to repost stuff but i’m really bringing back the “i’m 15 and sad” tumblr days🥶 let me rant tho i deserve this