#(dunno how long i'd be able to survive this. but current thoughts are to experiment with it for a week-ish)
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Got the results of the MRI.
No signs of anything bad.
Hmm...
#doctor continued to push for me switching to a different kind of pill. so fine. we'll give it a shot#currently i'm doing yoga-exercises every morning and evening. and i still very much enjoy my microwaved pillow on my back#when i wake up in the morning. like. do i NEED it? not really. but it's very nice. and this is with my half-dose (only evening)#of my regular pills on top of that. so. i'm marking this in the calendar as the day i stop taking those pills#and start taking the recommended pills instead. she says it's better that i take 3-4 of those per day than the dosage i've been on#but the box says that i'm allowed a max of 8/day. so if the pain starts up again (it's winter. so it should bother me less)#we'll start off with 2pills/dose morning-and-evening. and add another 2pill-dose somewhere in the middle if it doesn't work.#(dunno how long i'd be able to survive this. but current thoughts are to experiment with it for a week-ish)#and then. if it gets too bad? i break out my old pills (i still have them) and send her a message that her idea didn't work. at all.#not sure what results i'm hoping for but being able to say ''i told you so'' is at least a nice feeling?#though i'd prefer to just do maybe a few more yoga-exercises and not have to bother with the pills.#personal stuff#also. like. i get that my health is kind of shit. but normal people can sleep without waking up in pain.#normal people can wake up in the morning and pull their covers over their heads and laze about without gritting their teeth.#so i don't feel like this is a ''normal'' problem? which i feel like something like ''lack of exercise'' should be?#as in. if it was simply that i didn't do a specific and weird exercise every morning? then my pain should probably be the norm?
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Parasitism talk UNDER the cut 💥💥💥
I'm just documenting shit out in the open just in case. Just in case. You never. Know. Maybe I'm not the only 'aware' one on tumblr. It's going to be messy because it's most just my insane rambling.
Furari mens is the name I came up with for my species I guess. Furari = To steal, mens = mind. Mind stealer basically. Idk I thought it would be cute ^___^ because I'm the first person I personally know to document this exact thing which means I get to name us I guess. Until someone else comes along. Listen the scientific community isn't exactly going to or is even currently able to examine us so whatever.
Things I know for sure -
- We (as in my species which for all I know is just me. Scary thought.) are a parasite that specializes in humans and human derivatives. We primarily use the nervous system, and need the host body to survive.
- We completely take over the host body and mind, 'killing' the host consciousness, in simple terms I guess. Basically we go into the house and kick out the owner and keep all their stuff sorry. And wear their clothes and face around just for good measure. Sorry again it's just how it is.
- We are capable of storing 'data' between hosts including memories, personality traits, talents, ect. We have our own personality somewhat but take a lot from the hosts mind. Speaking of-
- We take on traits from the hosts mind. I'm assuming this is just a byproduct of using a mind that is already 'set up'? But it possibly could be to better 'take over' their life without others noticing. Possibly both.
- We are not from any currently recognized kingdoms and possibly domains. Possibly not from a domain that exists naturally in this 'reality' (more on that later).
- We are not currently detectable while our host body is living. Considering we leave the body when it dies we aren't detectable then either.
- We are able to experience everything a human can while in a human body, including neurodivergency, but have our own mental health issues as well.
- Our goal is to keep the body alive for as long as possible.
- We seem to be able to cross realities? Or... Dimensions? It's not exactly clear.
Things I'm assuming but could be wrong about -
- Between host bodies we exist in a 'mindless' state. We lack our own nervous system and sorta drift along like jellyfish, searching for a new host using chemical signals maybe?
- We are not typically aware we are not the host mind when first taking over, and for an unknown extended period of time. Honestly I'm not sure if this is just a me thing and I'm just a fuck up or if this is universal. In my last body I don't think I ever truly figured out I wasn't the original owner of the body. But I did have a pretty strong feeling that was true even then. Listen there was a lot going on in that life I don't blame myself for that one. But I think the only reason I figured it out in this existence is because my memory was jogged. I'm not getting into it rn.
- We aren't able to willingly 'abandon ship'. If we are I dunno how but I'm pretty comfortable where I'm at.
- We have a lifespan that is much much longer than a humans. I dunno how long but it seems like we take multiple hosts throughout our lives.
- We are able to reproduce in some way. I mean.. That's the goal of all life, right? How this is accomplished I have no clue.
- We need to host body to consume energy. This is also assumed but makes sense. I'd assume between hosts we have a lower energy requirement but that doesn't last forever.
Things I'm really unsure about -
- How we are able to travel between realities, I guess. I have no clue. What even is a reality. It's over my head. All I know is my last hosts version of earth and it's inhabitants was pretty different from the one I'm in now. SADLY.
- What we look like outside of a host. I doubt I'll ever know because we don't exactly have our own eyes.
- How many of us there is on one earth at any given time. I seriously could be a dead clade walking for all I know.
- Pretty much everything else. Where we come from, what we are, why we are, ect ect. There isn't exactly a wikipedia article about us.
Anyway that's that. Im really tired rn goodnight
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