#*•.¸☾ about: soojin *•.¸☾

[kawaikith]

☾ my views on true beauty.

One of my favourite k—dramas, I’ve enjoyed watching so much, half of the time, I was toppling over, and couldn’t get enough of moon kayoung, and cha eunwoo, both of them did a great job in their own roles. Something about eunwoo really suits sooho’s character. He nails it.

There were so many scenes I loved watching, some of my favourites were, when moon kayoung (excuse me, please. I don’t remember her drama name) decides to change her appearance, learns all make-up in the world, and bam! Transforms into a different girl than her old school apperance, second scene where her friends are celebrating a birthday or anniversary, and the cake gets dumped on her face. (I watched this series months ago, so i don’t know how accurate this is, forgive me).

When sooho asks her to return the comic book, she doesn’t understand, and goes to meet him with a helmet on her head, lol 😆 she’s so funny without even doing anything big, i was laughing so much, i remember, my sister came asking for her bedroom if I was okay.

Later, when sooho refuses to give the bag to her, she tells him there are sanitary pads in there, and he immediately lets go of them. She’s so intelligent, I love that.

When eunwoo kisses her under a tree, tells her that he loves her too.

When seojun’s friends mistake her for the ghost near the well, and run away.

Those moments when she first joins the school, and they all go to party and have fun, those were the scenes and friends i wanted in my life.

Jukyung had wanted to have friends for so long, and watching that made me a little happy for her.

I relate to jukyung so much, i mean, if the boy I like told me to return something, and i didn’t want him to see me, i would wear a helmet too. 😂

Oh, and I loved Hwang in yeop’s character’s style, those dangling earrings, the bad boy vibe, but a good boy on the inside, just like our maknae, jungkookie!

When soojin and jukyung meet on the bus, and jukyung thinks soojin is so cool.

At the end of the series, when jukyung finally understands where beauty lies, how sooho is such a reliable boyfriend, how she gets jealous when every other girl in the cafeteria (or the place where they both eat) start to look at sooho, for the first time, she calls him “jagiga” I was screaming at my screen, like an excited kid.

When jukyung teaches her bullies a lesson by beating them up and standing up for herself.

Jukyung’s sister and her school teacher, these two made me laugh so hard.

That scene where her sister drops her at the gate, and she looks around to see her teacher walking by, and just when they are about to meet each other, jukyung comes back to the car, telling her sister tha she forgot something, _____(sister’s name) she pushes the teacher so hard, i kept rewatching this scene because it was so funny. (너무 웃기다) as they say in business proposal. (Nomu ukyeo).

How after knowing the truth, the pain and blame sooho carried on his shoulder after his friend died, made me cry too, I was comforting sooho from behind the screen, my boy suffered so much alone.

I loved the trio friendship between sooho, seojun, and seyeon, his name, again. I can’t remember. 😅

[livingghost5]

Intro:

Hey, I’m Shae. I’m Autistic. I made this blog to have a place where I could vent about anything I want without censoring myself. To be honest, it’ll probably mostly be stuff about my kpop ults (+ other groups I stan), ED stuff/mental illness stuff, Neurodivergency, Dan and Phil and LGBTQIA+/Xenogenders stuff.

1: Gender/Pronouns:

Gender:

Agender/Gendervoid

Main Pronouns:

•English:

-Ey/Em

-Voi/Void/Voidself

-They/Them

-It/Its

-🌫/🌫s/🌫self (alt: Fog/fogs/fogself)

•French:

-Iel

-Ael

Other pronouns:

-Ix/Ixself

-Ae/Aer/Aers/Aerself

-🌌/🌌s/🌌self

-Gho/ghost/ghosts/ghostself

-Vey/Vem/Veyr/Vemself

-🌖/🌗/🌘s/🌑s/🌒self

-Space/spaces/spaceself

-Wit/witc/witch/witchs/witchself

-🌙/🌙/🌙s/🌙’s/🌙self

-Ast/aster/asters/asterself

-Vea/Vear

-Star/Stars/starself

-🌑/🌑/🌑s/🌑self

-Ve/Ver/Veirs

-Nyx/Nyx/Nyx/Nyx/Nyxself

2:MENTAL ILLNESS:

Diagnosed: Depression, Avoidant personality Disorder, ASD, Eating Disorder, Social anxiety.

I also have chronic depersonalization but it’s just a symptom of my Avpd.

3:ED stats:

Sw:106,5kg

Cw:102,8kg

Gw1:100kg

Gw2:95kg

Gw3:85kg

Gw4:75kg

Gw5:65kg

Ugw:55kg

4:SPECIAL INTERESTS #1:MUSIC:

A:Korean/Japanese music:

My Ults of ults when it comes to biases are Hongjoong from Ateez and Yoongi from Bts.

•Ult of ults:

Ateez:

•Ult bias:Hongjoong

•Ot8|bias line:Hongjoong,Mingi & Wooyoung.

Other ults:

Bts:

•Ult bias:Yoongi

•Ot7|bias line:Yoongi,Namjoon & Hoseok.

Deukae:

•Ult bias:Dami

•Ot7|bias line:Dami,Siyeon & Yoohyeon.

*Insomnias please read this:https://dreamcatcherchangeyourname.carrd.co/

The Boyz:

•Ult bias:Kevin

•Ot11|bias line:Kevin,Sunwoo,Juyeon & Eric.

•B.I

(G)I-DLE:

•Ult bias:Soyeon

•Ot6|bias line:Soyeon,Shuhua & Soojin.

Enhypen:

•Ult bias:Jake

•Ot7|bias line:Jake,Jay & Jungwon

&Team:

•Ult bias:K

•Ot9|bias line:K,Nicholas,Jo & Fuma

•Soojin

IKON:

•Ult bias:Jinhwan/Jay

•Ot7|bias line:Jay,Bobby & Dk.

Xiker:

•Ult bias:Minjae

•Ot10|bias line:Minjae,Sumin,Hyunwoo & Yechan.

Tomorrow X Together:

•Ult bias:Soobin

•Ot5|bias line:Soobin,Yeonjun & Beongyu

•Also Stan:

-Pentagon: Biases:Hui,Kino & Honseok.

-QI.X: Bias:JiGook

-Blackswan: Biases:Fatou & Gabi.

-Rolling Quartz: Bias:Arem

-Xdinary Heroes: Bias:Jooyeon

-Itzy: Biases:Yuna & Yeji.

-Le Sserafim: Bias:Eunchae

-Nmixx: Bias:Lily

-Aespa: Biases:Ningning & Winter.

-Ive: Biases:Wonyoung & Rei

-Waking After U: Bias:A-Zzang

•Casuals:

Day6,BABYMETAL,Cotoba,The Rose,The Fix, Kingdom,Slant,Messgram,STMLT,Synsnake, HANABIE,OurR,SF9,Rockit Girl, YUDABINBAND,Dabda,Drinking boys and girls choir,Fishingirl and more.

Other music:

15 Favourites bands of all time:

•IDKHOW

•Fall Out Boy

•In This Moment

•You me at six

•Twenty Øne Piløts

•Sleeping With Sirens

•Pvris

•The Brobecks

•All Time Low

•Epica

•Pierce The Veil

•My Chemical Romance(+Frank Iero & Gerard Way Solo stuff)

•Palaye Royale

•The Pretty Reckless

•Bring Me The Horizon

Honourable mentions:

Portugal the Man,Muse,Paramore & Panic!At The Disco

1: Bring Me The Horizon

Other Bands:

Linkin Park,Fever333,Arctic Monkeys, Evanescence,The Used,Rivals, Nirvana,Simple Creatures,Nine Inch Nails,Within Temptation,Death Spells,Brand New,Story Untold, and more.

Solo artists:

Favourites:

•Avril Lavigne

•Jessie Paege

•Yungblud

•Bridgit Mendler

•James Marriott

•Melanie Martinez

•Niki Demar

Others:

Patrick Stump,Wengie,Mgk,KSI,Haley Williams,John Legend,Talia Mar,Julia Zelg, etc.

4:SPECIAL INTERESTS #2:Dan&Phil:

Date when I started watching them:

Dan: 30/03/2016

Phil: 21/04/2016

Both: 27/07/2016

5:SPECIAL INTERESTS #3:Astrology:

My big 6 are:

Sun☼: Virgo

Moon☾: Pisces

Ascendant/Rising↑: Aries

Mercury☿: Libra

Venus♀: Libra

Mars♂: Leo

6:SPECIAL INTERESTS #4:Lgbtqia+/ Xenogenders:

I hoard labels but here are the main ones:

•Xenogenders:

-Neutrois

-Trennian

-Afeminine

-Lunarian

-Kenochoric

-Apotigender

-Celestialgendervoid

-Xenic

-Ageregender

•Sexuality/Romantic attraction:

-Asexual/Aromantic

-Demisexual/Demiromantic

-Pansexual/Panromantic

-Aegosexual/Aegoromantic

-Romance indifferent/neutral

-Acespike/Arospike

7:SPECIAL INTERESTS #5:Youtubers:

-Jessie Paege

-WillNe

-Jarvis Johnson

-Not Even Emily

-James Marriott

-Thomas Sanders/Sanders Sides

-Memeulous

-Danny Gonzalez

-Niki Demar

-iNabber

-Drew Gooden

-Kurtis Conner

OTHER SPECIAL INTERESTS:

Making jewelry

Writing

Alt Fashion

Psychology

Space

Wicca/crystals

The ocean

Miniatures

Daggers & vintage keys (idk why to be honest)

[b000mbayah]

(G)I-dle as yanderes

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Requested: Yes

Word count: 1,162

Warnings: Mentions of mental, physical, and emotional harm, kidnapping, chaining, stalking, suggested violence.

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Miyeon- Doll type

●Miyeon sees you as a literal object within her possession.

●Takes it upon herself to make sure you don't shatter like her very own personalised porcelain doll.

●You were created for her!

●She'd worship you.

●Miyeon doesn't truly believe she was given such a thing.

●She absolutely adores everything about you.

●Would dress you up,

●Do your makeup,

●Bring you to fancy events,

●But God forgives anyone who looks at you in a way she classifies as "wrong"

●Miyeons favourite thing to do is play with you.

●It's like she's a part of your dolled up life.

●She could be the female Ken to your Barbie if necessary.

●Anything to be near her precious Doll.

"Let's play family Y/n, and we can have a child this time. What do you think of that?"

Minnie- insecure/clingy

●Minnie is far too emotionally dependent on you.

●She fears your disappearance every waking moment.

●Every time you let go of her hand, her brain jumps to conclusions of you running away and never coming back to her,

●Causing her desperate need to seek out validation.

●Minnie will feel overwhelmed and tense when you're not around her.

●Who knows what you could be doing if you're seeing someone else.

●But it worsens tenfold when she can see you talking to someone who's not her,

●Even if they are family to you or her.

●Would definitely steal your hoodies or hats.

●She claims it keeps her sane when she's not near you,

●That they smell of your perfume and shampoo.

●Minnie will work to intertwine herself in with your every activity,

●She'd cause a plague to almost cover your day as she'll make sure she's always on your mind and the only person on your mind.

"I know I'm a few hours early, but I really wanted to see my baby"

Soojin- Loneliness induction type

●Incarnation of evil,

●But you never would guess so with her flaunty hips and intense eyes.

●She has everyone smitten for her, but she only wants you, and it should be the same coming from your end.

●Soojin wants nothing less than to cut you off from the world.

●To seek out you for herself.

●She wants you.

●Soojin would spread rumours,

●And she'll be there with wide arms when you come running for support.

●Soojin would happily corrupt your relationships like it was an amusement park.

●Her only joy came from you, so she'll be your only comfort.

●Soojin would entice you into living with her once your world seems to hit the fan.

●Once her plan has worked, she'll continue to give you backhanded insults.

●This way, you'll subtly agree and furthermore stay beside your new love.

"I'm sorry your parents said this to you, the world seems to hate you. But I don't babygirl, I love you with all my heart. How about I make us your favourite dinner, mmmm?"

Soyeon- Sadistic

●Soyeon will purposefully induce pain and terror into your life by dragging out emotional or physical harm to you.

●She'll desire pleasure from doing so, too.

●She'll similarly spread lies and rumours to isolate you,

●But instead of giving you intense care, she'll give you intense suffering.

●That, or She'd let you escape so she could give you false hope.

●Just know you'll always be in her tight arms by the end of the week, though.

●You'll always be her little punching bag.

●Absolutely fascinated with physical, mental, and emotional limitations.

●Leading her to push you to excel past your limit whenever she pleases.

●She just wants you to squirm underneath her.

●She wants to see the fear in your eyes,

●She wants to hear you cry out her name,

●Because at least she has you this way.

"You'll never escape, when will you learn that? Even death isn't an escape"

Yuqi- Obsessive

●Yuqi is inclined to fight, guard, shield, and observe you from a safe but also obsessive vantage point.

●Yuqi would be everywhere, but nowhere.

●You'll never catch a glimpse of her because she's learnt your habits through excessive and careful observation.

●Definitely has pictures of you pinned somewhere in a secret room within your house.

●Or a shoebox under a broken floorboard full of all the gifts you've given her.

●She believes she's doing this for your best interests,

●When in reality she is just overbearing sometimes.

●She couldn't possibly leave you alone though, what kind of person would she be if she did?

●What if you got in trouble and needed help but she wasn't there?

●She doesn't know how to leave you alone anyway,

●It's just built into her yandere system.

●She doesn't know how to balance and divide her concern and respect for your freedom and independence,

●So you have none.

"Why were you at your friend's house earlier? I thought you said you were going to the shop?'

Shuhua- Restraints type

●Shuhua had fallen so deeply in love with you that her emotions drove her to the only thing she saw logical, kidnapping.

●Shuhua would shackle you to her house.

●This way, you won't just wander off.

●The only time you are allowed to walk around her house freely is one of two reasons:

●1) To let you go to the toilet.

●She can't deal with her house marinating in last night's meal,

●But even then, you're guided to the bathroom and put on a timer.

●2) Once she's accumulated enough trust.

●But that's going to take months, possibly years to build and earn.

●She's cautious and smart, and she knows when you're deceiving her.

●So if you try anything stupid, she'd know right away, and all trust would be lost in an instant.

●Would have little dinner dates in the room with you still chained to the wall.

●Would feed you mouthfuls and have you drink enough water to keep you healthy.

●Would also bring small gifts whenever possible. Your room is covered in pyramids of teddies, plastic flowers, and jewellery you rarely wear after the first time.

●Shuhua's house is constantly locked, with no windows or doors for you to access.

●You're stuck with her forever.

"You're foolish if you think you're leaving. You can't butter me up and slip past me just like that, or are you just stupid?'