#*sigh* yeah yeah the answer is erp the answer is always erp that doesn't mean it's fun | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

musical-chick-13 · 1 year

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One of the WORST parts of having OCD is that some of the Fears™ are actually humanly possible, so it's not like my response can just be, "Oh that'll never happen" or even "I've never seen that happen, so it's probably unlikely."

#like. okay. for example. 2019 me: 'better do cleaning compulsions because oh no what if I get the Plague™'#fast forward a year to covid and that was genuinely a very real possibility. I could LITERALLY catch the plague #or on a smaller more personal scale: 'no one is going to screenshot a Bad Line™ of your fic and publicly make fun of it online-people #don't do that it'd be so extra why tf would you be afraid of that happening' except I JUST saw someone literally do that. so we engage in #Avoidance Compulsions™ as a protective mechanism because the only way to avoid a feared outcome is to never do anything! 🙃🙃#and okay yeah these things are not created equal and one of them probably doesn't actually matter the point I'm trying to make is that #this shit affects my life on EVERY level and I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE FOR IT NOT TO DO THAT #I AM TIRED OF THE BRAIN DISEASE BEING HERE I WOULD LIKE TO BE A MENTALLY HEALTHY PERSON PLEASE #*sigh* yeah yeah the answer is erp the answer is always erp that doesn't mean it's fun #mc13 and her ocd #I'll probably delete this later because it most likely makes me look completely and utterly absurd if not straight-up stupid #(no one ELSE with this disease or fears is absurd or stupid btw. just me. it's only me who is A Problem™)#(yes I know how that sounds. I know okay.)

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