#2 year smutiversary 🎈

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2 years ago, i began my fanfic writing journey

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in the past two years, i have made some amazing friendships, i have read some awe-inspiring works of fiction, and i have done my part to help carve out a fun little community.

i truly love all of you very much. from the folks who i talk to regularly, to the silent readers, you all mean the world to me. thank you for humoring my silly little ideas and always encouraging me to keep going. 😍💜🥰🌷✨💘🎉🎈🍧🌞🤸‍♀️🍟🎵💕 i know that there are still a lot of fics in the air that i have promised (i really have no concept of time or how to manage it!!!) so please look forward to all the things.

feel free to yell about how we met, where you found me, etc., if reminiscing is something you're into!!! i am big on nostalgia hehe.

thank you all for being here!!! (i don't want to tag anyone in fear of leaving someone out, but if you can see this, you're incuded!!!) 💜✨🥺🥺🥺 i hope you don't only see me as a smut dealer, but also a friend.

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OH BOY OH BOY HARROW it's your smutiversary!?!?!? woot woot HAPPY ANNIVERSARYYYY this section of the universe is so much better thanks to your namgi loving, humor and horror-adoring, takes-warnings-SERIOUSLY, prolific-as-fuck, kind and caring presence 🥰🥰🥰

ANYWAY I was trying to remember how I first found you! and I think originally originally wayyy back in December 2022 I read part 1 of this sordid place (as like literally the second (??) work of bts fanfiction I had ever consumed) and I LOVED IT (pitting jk and tae against each other for Namjoon's incredibly genuine love and affection was so fun, and your writing style is incredibly easy to get lost in-- it's SUCH a good fic 😩😩) but I had not created my bts sideblog yet so I lost it and you in my likes so quickly 🙈  until like 3 months later with the release of part two and the Tumblr gods brought me back to you! and then ofc I popped in to ask about your tag list and the rest was history 🥰🥰

as both a new army and new to reading fanfic, you made me feel welcome and safe, and I am so so so grateful to know you!! plus you've also introduced me to SO many lovely people and their incredible creations :) thank you thank you thank you 🥰

Many cheers to two years, hyung!!!

I was excited to see how it all began and scrolled back through out messages and found this lovely gem 😂😂

MG HELLOOOOO!!! 😍

the "it's always namgi" vibes coming back lolol.

we just spent the last day and a half together and now here i am giving you even mooooore attention hehehehe. 🥰

AHHH YOU'RE SO CUTE. i'm so glad This Sordid Place was the second introduction you had to the fandom hehehe what a cute, delightful story. i love that namkook (and that silly tae, and that yoonjin hehehe.)

i remember chatting with you while at the grocery store with frank hahahaha. and then in the kitchen while he and i were making food. good times. you were like "omg i wanna talk about dollhouse" and i was like "OMG YES ALWAYS PLEASE." 🥺💛

i'm so glad that we have become friends, and have made fandom friends!!! (@here4kpopfics i miss you already bb!!!)

today was so much fun, and the weeks you were my housemate were so lovely and i am happy to have gotten the change to talk you into applying for that apartment!!! and SWAN LAKE!!! chatting online and sharing memes and reels and recipes is always a highlight of my day. i have slacked on sending the good morning texts but i am always so happy to get one hehehe.

LOL THAT SCREENCAP. (speaking of screaming for attention, the PIPES ON AGUST. i put him back in his room because i wasn't sure whether i would be able to stay awake, and he is just S C R E A M I N G lolol. damn boy, are you newjeans???)

i hope the drive home wasn't too bad and that you get lots of rest!!! thank you for the kind words and sliver of nostalgia hehe. cheers! 🍻

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Happy anniversary!!!!!!!!!! I love, admire, worship and adore you! I’m so happy I stumbled across sharing is caring - that was the beacon that led me to you and your brand of insanity 😂 I know you know but the lengths i went through to find that fic after i accidentally closed out of the page, literally googling ‘bts fanfic silk robe orgy’ I WAS DESPERATE! You were one of the writers I made this blog for because I had to show my support and wanted to share your stories. I remember messaging you and saying it’s me Mallory!! Thank you for sharing spoilers with me, thank you for talking to me on multiple socials 😬 thank you for the community you’ve built for us to share our madness together. Thank you for responding to the videos I send you with another video. Thank you for making me laugh with your voice messages - honorable mention goes to the idea of reading boy blue aloud and having to say ‘Shellac’ 🍆💙 Thank you for writing what you want to write, how you want to write it. Your stories and characters are dark and complex. you aren’t afraid to make hard decisions when it comes to the direction of your stories to please ‘the people’ and I really really love that about you. Thank you for the BTS as characters from Romeo + Juliet convo. Thank you for always telling me how hot i look. Thank you for being my way more cool and talented midwest (you got out 🥲), taurus twin in their 30’s 😂 ok ok i need to stop, i could go on forever. You’re amazing. Never change, stay unhinged - DEUCES!!! 🖤

MALLORYYYYYYY 💍🧎‍♀️ i am on one knee.

i love, admire, worship, and adore you, as well!!! OMG DID YOU FIND THE FIC WHEN YOU GOOGLED THAT??? I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS. i am actually going to google it right now lmao.

ok, so, don't google that, friends! lolol.

HOW DID YOU FIND ME AGAIN??? SINCE CLEARLY GOOGLE DID NOT YIELD THE EXPECTED SEARCH RESULT LOLOLOL. or did you have to do some digging???

I AM ONE OF THE WRITERS YOU MADE THIS BLOG FOR ALSKDJALJDALSJFA STOP OMGGGG AHHHH YOURE SO CUTE.

thank you for dming me, and for being excited about spoilers, and for following my chaos all over various socials and for being part of this very fun community!!! thank you for sharing memes and videos and letting me make you laugh (LOLOL SHELLAC!!! 💀💀💀) thank you for reading all the chaos that i write and for encouraging me to do whatever i want

OMG BTS CHARACTERS AS ROMEO + JULIET YESSS UGHHHHHH YES YES YES. also thank you for letting me LOOK at how HOT YOU ARE 😍😍😍🥵🥵🥵🔥🔥🔥 also i am definitely not cooler just bc i left okay, it is so HOT and SWEATY here that i sometimes consider flying home in the winter just to go lay on frozen lake mendota and forget about everything else.

I LOVE YOU, BIIIIITCH!!!!! I AIN'T NEVER GONNA STOP LOVING YOU!!!! BIIIIIIITTTTCHHHHHHH!!!!

thank you for your friendship I AM OBSESSED WITH YOU!!! 💐

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I think I saw you interacting a lot with a few people that I followed. One of them reblogged “Collateral”. I checked it out and really liked it. I would sometimes leave feedback on a chapter on anon. (My memory sucks but I think this is right) I think I remember when I first interacted with you off anon better. I was screaming at you after I came home from Yoongi’s concert on 4/27. I was so excited and wanted to scream out my feelings to someone. (I quickly scrolled down my tag for it to check. And wow…We’ve talked a lot through asks 🥹💕) I’m pretty sure that you’re the first person I’ve consistently interacted with off anon. You really helped me feel more comfortable with doing that. Thank you for that and loving Yoongi with me!

MAPLEEEE!!!

i remember when you messaged me for the first time, i was at sushi (and a little drunk) and i was like OH MY GOD THIS PERSON HAS NEVER ACTUALLY TALKED TO ME BEFORE AHHHH!!!!!!! it makes sense that you were doing so over anon. i'm glad you felt comfortable to break out of that shell, and i am honored that screaming with me about Yoongi is what did it hehehe. 💜💜💜 gosh it's only been 4 months since all of that started but it feels like so long ago. 😩 i miss d-day and yoongi so much. what an amazing show. he's incredible. i'll be rewatching uploads of those performances for a long time.

thank you so much for choosing me to scream with!!! i am always here for that (even if sometimes i get anxiety and take a bit to respond hehe.) i absolutely love it!!! 🥰🥰🥰 and thank you for reading Collateral 🥺. and all the other things you have read since then hehehe.

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I HAVE SEVERAL KIND MESSAGES AND I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH but i am running late to dinner with my partner and i let my phone die today for no reason so i will respond to them later or tomorrow. i love youuuuuuuuuu!!!!!! thank you for making my smutiversary so sweet!!!

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We follow pretty much the same people so I don’t remember who was it from? But I saw a review of boy blue and was 🤩completely dragged into it! And then I fell for the person you are💘 and the energy you bring in here and ugh, I’m just so glad to have found you in here!!💜💜💜 for many years more of your awesome writing🥳🥳🥳 (which I have so much to catch up to🙈!!) happy anniversary!!🎈 🎂🤩✨💘💜🥳

MY JAZ!!! 🥰🥺💜

i can't remember who you found me from, but i am so glad you did!!!! BOY BLUE LOL god, i can't believe that damn fic is such a part of my legacy. like, i wrote it, it's my mess, but aslkjdasljfasljfasl hahahahaah. ughhhhhh. 🤪🤪🤪 what a mess.

you're such a sweet pea, and i am always thrilled to get a notification from you!!! thank you for being here!!! i hope to be writing for a long time to come, and if you are around, i know the future will be bright!!!🌞🌻💙😍🌷💕✨🎵🤸‍♀️🎉🐥💘🍧🎈🥰🥺💜🤪💝🍓💖😎🌹

and don't worry about catching up hehe. but if you do plan to...well, the works will always be there! so have no fear!!! 😘

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HARROW!!!! You want nostalgia?! I'll give you nostalgia...to the best of my abilities 'cause my memory is ass lol

So, let me think...I read your Yoongi fic Pretty In Pink (Make Him Purr) back in '22 when it popped up on my twitter fed from a thread that it was in. I was getting back into Twitter, so I didn't bookmark it, like it or anything. I lost it and I couldn't remember who wrote it or what it was called. I also had no idea how the hell to use ao3...so it was hopeless.

I stumbled upon @sailoryooons fics and she posted about making a discord server, so I joined that sometime last year. I followed you 'cause ya know, it's the polite thing to do in a server (at least to me it is). And once I introduced myself, I jumped into your masterlist and found out that you were the one who wrote the Yoongi fic. After I got over my fangirl phase (which took a while 🤭) I just really enjoyed talking with you and joking around.

We started to talk a little more and it was around the time that I was working on a Seokjin pirate fic, that our friendship really came to life. You took a liking to Dark Elf!Namjoon (who wouldn't) and it was a wrap. Now 9 months later, with I don't even know how many ideas between us, I am able to call you a true friend and I have all the love in the world for you.

CHELLLLL 😫😫💜

stop you are so 😭😭😭

excuse me while i scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

😩😩😩😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💜💜💜💜💜💝💝✨✨😍😍🥰🥰🐚🌷💫💐🎊💘🌺🎶😻💖💕🌞🍧💍🧎‍♀️💙

first of all, there are so many people who started Pretty in Pink, lost it, and then happened to become my friend. what is it about that fic??? (ok there’s like 3 of you but like what are the odds????????)

"i followed you because it is the polite thing to do" hehehe saaaame.

i loved that Namjoon fic!!! i don't remember exactly how we started to chat but i am so glad we did! bouncing ideas off of you has been a blast, and i think a lot of my scenes are better for it. 😍💜💜

thank you for making me feel so many things AHHHH I LOVE YOUUUUUUU. i always tell you that i love you, and that i love your writing, and that i value you as a reader, and i mean it all, so genuinely. 🥰🥰🥰 thanks for being my friend!!!

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AHHHH! happy anniversary, mother darling! ✨💕 i vividly remember the night i found you because @jihopesjoint was reading boy blue and needed someone to help the red string on the conspiracy cork board, which led to me pulling an all-nighter — like an insane person — and yelling to you (then a stranger) via dm’s — like an insane person — to becoming buds/moots 🤪 now, i’m a certifiable simp™️ (still an insane person, btw.)

ily. thank you for sharing your big, sexy brain with us!!!

JAAAADDEEEE!!!!

i vividly remember you beginning to read Boy Blue because i was chatting with Nicki and we were joking about how you were catching up to, and eventually surpassing her while she was reading hahaha. i still cannot believe THAT is the fic that has brought so many amazing people to me!!!! lmaoooooo. ugh.

you and nicki:

i'm obsessed with you both and i love the chaotic energy that has been added to my dash!!!! thank you for being so lovely and fun. i also love your big, sexy brain!!! 😍🥰🥰 i appreciate youuuuu!!!!!!!!

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i just want to thank you for writing such fascinating and beautiful (and sexy, good lord) fics but i also want to thank you for not like....shaming people?.....if that's the right word?....for how they do or don't practice sex?

i have seen authors in notes be like "unprotected sex (be smart!)" or "unprotected sex (don't be stupid!) and it has rubbed me the wrong way and made me not respect them. same goes to referring to people who are tested for sti as "clean" i just......i don't know, i feel like here is some stigma around certain practices, and like, yeah we should practice safely, but it's not up for the fanfic author to teach me safe sex, and i don't want to be shamed by them either.

i don't know if this makes sense but it is something i don't see from you and it means a lot. i actually have an sti type infection, but i didn't got it from sex, but even seeing that kind of stuff makes me feel really shamed and i don't know, i think we can do better.

happy anniversary hah sorry if this got depressing!

HELLO, ANON!!! 🥰

first, thank you so much for reading and enjoying my works!!! i am so thrilled to have you here. 💜💜💜 please do not apologize for bringing up real topics. it's not depressing, and i think it is a worthy conversation.

i have actually talked in the past about this, but i don't do a good job tagging for things like this, so i have no idea how or where to find it lol.

i used to use "clean" as a term for characters who had been tested, with negative results. i never meant for the opposite to mean "dirty" but it was just the word i always saw. it took seeing a post saying "this is the message people send when they say this" that made me open my eyes and think "oh, shit! that is not the message i want to send." i have since stopped doing that and have done my best to go back through fics that i knew i used that to edit the language. (and if you, anyone, read one of my old fics and you see it used, please let me know so i can fix it!!!)

re: approaching unprotected sex, i agree that authors should also be a lot more mindful here. i would hate to see shit like "don't be stupid" lol that's so rude. i do think that it is nice of people to put little disclaimers, but...idk...i also don't think it's my responsibility to teach people how to have sex. and i know this is a topic some writers will disagree with me on, and i am in no way looking to change anyone's mind, i just don't feel that responsibility. yeah, like, sex education is a joke in some places, but also fanfic is not the place to learn about the basics of sex, either. but that's just my two cents.

i still put certain safe practices into my writing, like taking care to stretch before anal sex, and the importance of safe words, aftercare, etc. because i do like for positive examples to be set for bdsm and topics that maybe people don't casually know as much about before reading fic, but i also write characters who intentionally practice bdsm unsafely, and although i will warn for that, i am also hoping that people are still only reading my work as works of fiction.

all that being said, i did live a bdsm lifestyle and i am super open to having one-on-one discussions about safe practices and things like that. my inbox is always open for that kind of thing. please approach me for any questions rather than assume that what i write is the absolutely correct way!!! (maybe i'll even add a blurb about this on my already massive master list, idk.)

as long as we're all attempting to put our best intentions forward, i think we're doing ok. if writers wanna advise against unprotected sex, i hope they continue to do so (in a way that does not shame others.) 💜 thank you so much for reaching out, lovely!!!!