#After the first or second time depersonalizing and derealizing in adulthood it stopped being scary | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

venacoeurva · 5 months ago

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One time I depersonalized and was on autopilot more or less for like 2 years straight with very few breaks during college because I was so stressed out by it and I barely remember anything except summer breaks (got good grades though). Can I do that again. please

#not art #vena vents #it wasn't dissociation mind you I was just out of it and my body and brain just did its own thing in character as me #but I was still ''awake''#After the first or second time depersonalizing and derealizing in adulthood it stopped being scary #and was more welcome and relieving than anything #even if it made me feel like I had rayman hands/no arms but had hands of the bit I remember of smaller less intense episodes #and I accidentally smacked a water bottle so hard it flew across the room because my brain didn't register my hands were solid objects #and then I snapped back out of it bc it was so alarming apparently #important to note I don't drive so that's not a risk factor lmao

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