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talentforlying · 4 days ago

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@h3xappeal: [16] What kinds of people do they have arguments with in their head? — CHARACTER BUILDING QUESTIONS

himself, mostly — albeit the opposing corner of his psyche usually manifests in the form of his dead friends' ghosts. but constantine has yet to determine for himself whether he's arguing with their actual ghosts or with his own fictitious versions of them, and does not care to find out, so to his mind he's arguing with emma, frank north, benjamin cox, sister anne-marie, gary lester, ray monde, header, rick the vic, nigel archer, alba suria, albert case, his father, and in particularly low periods, a blue-suited version of himself that still has its shit together.

aside from the hallucinations, though, he frequently concocts mental arguments against an assortment of the following:

an imaginary audience of invisible spectators judging his life choices (see also: projecting his insecurities onto the comic book readers),

politicians he hates,

televangelists,

batman,

temporary allies he has to be nice to even though he wants nothing more than to cheerfully strangle them,

papa midnite, particularly when john knows he's using a type of magic that the stuffy fucker would take umbrage with,

chas chandler, particularly when john's rehearsing how to ask his best friend for yet another favor,

kit ryan, when he wants to be set right on something he's too proud to admit he's wrong about. or when he's rehashing their breakup and trying to find the right thing he could have said to keep her.

admittedly, a lot of these listed arguments (with the exception of the last) end up as ranting scathing monologues on his end. but that's the beauty of hosting fights inside his own head: he gets to stack the odds in his favor.

#h3xappeal #ask to tag /#hallucinations cw #(just in case)#a detail i often find difficult to include in my writing is that john is ALWAYS talking to himself for one reason or another.#he has a habit of finishing thoughts out loud w/o prior context (tho he does it less when he's been regularly social)#(bc when he's got people to chat to then he's less likely to be keeping his thoughts to himself)#or saying aloud the coup de grace insult in whatever imaginary argument he was having; again without context.#when he's struggling to sleep alone he mutters to himself: often a david attenborough-style narration of his own failure to sleep #but also song lyrics or full conversations with himself about philosophical or existential matters he's been struggling with.#and of course in his lowest periods he's been known to argue publicly and quite spectacularly with the ghosts.#these days they don't speak to him as often bc he has rehashed the old familiar guilts with himself a million times by now #& has learned that when he wallows less obsessively in his past mistakes then he feeds them less and they haunt him less #but he still addresses them sometimes when he's feeling manic or self-destructive + those confrontations can get pretty heated.#BUT I DIGRESS. tl;dr john argues with everybody up to and Definitely including himself #( headcanons. ) I'M JUST LIKE THE BASTARDS I'VE HATED ALL ME LIFE.#( answered. ) THIS IS JOHN CONSTANTINE. FUCK OFF.

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