#BUT LIKE... it was and is suchhh a weird feeling being simultaneously delusional and self aware about it...
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lrb. my delusions have mostly matured into weird paranoia <3
#which. i mean personally for me and my experiences. i think the paranoia is worse#like i went from (delusion) to (delusion but smaller scale and it also makes me afraid)#if that makes sense...#hm i want to talk about my brain. im in a mood where i want to do that. no one has to read this#BUT LIKE... it was and is suchhh a weird feeling being simultaneously delusional and self aware about it...#like even when i was the Most delusional i was still 'aware' on some level that it was delusions. but that didnt stop me from believing them#somehow. like it doesnt make sense but i still 100% believed things even though i 'knew' they were delusions#like it felt like part of me was an outsider watching the other part believe that. but they were both me still#and to some extent that applies today. like at my job last summer#when i was cleaning the playplace at night i always felt like someone was chasing me through it#even though i knew it wasnt true. it still felt like it and some part of my self did believe it was being chased#anyway thats all i have to say i guess. there is no conclusion#beeps
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