#Back-and-forth capitulation between parts. I welcome it but it is useless it seems. | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

blackwaxidol · 2 months

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When I was very little I got stung on the palm by a wasp, and then again a few years later on that same palm, and it is something I am occasionally forced to be reminded of because there is a reoccurring pain in the joints of that hand ever since. I developed a habit of idly running or dragging the backs of my nails across that palm so it would briefly mask the stinging/burning/aching sensations between the phalanges.

#It isn't psychosomatic I am not afraid of hymenopterids.#delete later.#It is whatever. I focus on nothing but small details as I am for the past few hours extremely sad and anxious.#Unsure as to why. It is appropriate time to sleep however so perhaps goodnight.#''Unsure'' Silly game to play with myself this faux-unawareness.#Back-and-forth capitulation between parts. I welcome it but it is useless it seems.#I don't like sitting with a raised heart rate. Adrenaline/stress causes us pain. No point allowing it.#Nearly 1am. I am going to get up and brush my teeth et cetera. Goodnight everyone.

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