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August 9, 2017. Happy birthday to me!

I celebrated another birthday. As I look back at how quickly time passes, I am amazed at how much changes can take place in a matter of a year. I think we go through cycles of change — when the complete unexpected throws you off your equilibrium —giving you the opportunity to reassess and recalibrate. The past year was one of those cycles for me — and slowly but surely the pieces that were thrown up in the air are falling into place. As my daughter said in her birthday message, its my second birthday without her Pa. Bit by bit the story of my life (our life) is painted in a new canvass without my hubby in the picture anymore. Sad..but thats life!

Iam 38 years old. Another year older. 38 years of roller coaster ride. 38 years of funtabulous life (insert sarcasm)… well, yeah at some point i did have a fabulous & great life. But adversities came like a wrecking ball beating the shit out of me and had me experienced all the not so pretty things. Fleeting moments of happiness and then in a snap …its gone! Perfectly fine though, because like drugs, happiness is but just a temporary high. Nothing lasts forever. One day we will all dissipate and evaporate into thin air and meet our creator. The concept of forever is just for the books- fiction, fairy tale and love sick stories of two people who meet unexpectedly and swept off their feet and asses.. yada yada yada! Hey, Im no bitter of life and love lol. Been there, done that. Ive had all the lessons i could get this life has to offer. Ive experienced a lot and maybe still a lot more to come along the way. Anyway whatever this life has to put in my plate soon ill just have to sit down, relax and wait. I’ll devour it when it is serve right under my nose.

Yeah. Im 38 and still a nobody. Widow at an early age. With 3 kids and with no fat bank account. But mind you though, there are few people who loves and cares for me regardless of circumstances.

There may be few lessons i have learned in the past 38 years of my life. Believe me, theres a lot more but ive limited the list to 38 only because im 38… lol

1. Enjoy. Life is short, you will never know how many days or years you have left in this world. Have fun and live with no regrets.

2. Your heart will be broken but you can survive the heartbreak and stitched back the broken pieces. I have learned that we have an unbreakable spirit that enables us to get back up even after the most crushing of heart experiences.

3. Experience. There are things that will only happen once in your lifetime. Do not let those opportunities slip away.

4. Stay humble. Keep your feet on the ground no matter how great you become. Keep your head high but always have a good heart.

5. Dream. Never stop dreaming. Dream big, dream far. Chase for it and fullfill it.

6. Give thanks. Fill your heart with gratefulness. Never forget those who helped you reach where you are right now.

7. Learn. Never stop. Always keep an open mind. Learn from your experiences. Learn from other people. There is a wealth of ideas waiting to be discovered. Go get first dibs!

8. Get hurt. Stumble. Fall down. Crash and burn. Do not be afraid to get wounded because that’s what makes life meaningful. You will learn lessons that will help you for the rest of your life.

9. Love. Open your heart, give it to people who derserves it and always give it without conditions. Share a part of yourself with others. Help spread happiness.

10. Pray. Have faith. Never question Him, His will, and His plans. Always believe that everything happens for a reason. He created an awesome story for you. You just need to believe in Him.

11. Forgive but don’t forget the lessons.

12. Being weak is not a disability. Know that, it is when you are weak that you are stronger.

13. The older you get, the more you realize you have no desire for drama, conflict and any kind of intensity.

14. Happiness is an inside job, it is an attitude.

15. Feelings are temporary. If you are happy just enjoy it while it lasts. If you are sad, dont distress it won't also lasts. Nothing lasts forever.

16. Love gives you fleeting moments of happiness but leaves you broken at some point

17. When you fall stand up and walk again.

18. Smile more often, it makes you younger.

19. Laughter is the best medicine.

20. Changes are constant.

21. Appreciate the small things.

22. Truth hurts but it heals.

23. Ask for help when you need it so you can teach others that it is a strength to ask for help when we need it. Pride is not deadly you can swallow it once in a while.

24. Words can cut..deep. Choose your words because once it is said it cant be undone….dont abuse your freedom of speech.

25. Be patient. Patience is a virtue.

26. Know when to let go.

27. Make a bucket list. Travel once in a while.

28. Help without expecting to be reciprocated.

29. Dont judge others because they sin differently.

30. Learn to see the good in every situation.

31. Adversities make you tough.

32. When it rains use your umbrella and appreciate the downpour. Dance. GOD is in the rain.

33. You cant please everyone so dont make it a habit. Just be yourself.

34. Never let anyone gets comfortable of disrespecting you.

35. Live a simple life. Its simplier. Yeah, no complications.

36. If people dont want you for being you just let it be. Its not you, its them.

37. Listen with sensitive attention when someone is speaking to you. Its the best feeling when you know someone wants to listen to you.

38. In this life, there’s no rewinding nor replay. Grab every chance stay happy and find time to reconnect with loved ones.

Every moment matters and every birthday is a celebration of you and your unique life force. Walk in that direction with a vision that you can really make a positive difference and know that life is meant to celebrate while you are living.

The next chapter of my story is yet to be unfolded..i hope id still be alive in the next 20 years or so… May God bless this soul that have been baked hard in the fires of adversities.

P.S. In my facebook account, i was overwhelmed with all the love and birthday greetings i have received from friends & family, and online buddies. Though there were mishaps, there has been abudant of blessings from up above! That being said, i thank my Creator for the gift of life! Family and friends, thanks for all the love and support. And to my 3 adorable monsters, as always your efforts touched me. My family in Hongkong- the Yung’s ..i am keeping the love in a photograph. 😙 From the bottom of my 38 years old stitched heart, THANK YOU!