#But that's why I came up with Toxigender which is like gonna be my thing until I'm bored with it

[nonbinarydave-archived]

I don't think people understand when I say "I'm nonbinary" and they ask "okay but what kind of nonbinary?" and I don't have an answer because my relationship with gender is complicated and they can't grasp what I mean by that.

What I mean by that is my ADHD and Schizophrenia has made trying to get a sense of my self VERY difficult. Like bad. My ADHD already makes it difficult for me to explain and describe my thoughts and emotions in a way that people understand that isn't too garbled. It makes it hard to articulate my everything sometimes period. The I don't know is a universal and very used answer. My schizophrenia adds a sense of paranoia to that including imposter syndrome. The "am I who I really say I am" and "what if I'm wrong and I'm not actually this or actually that I don't feel like this so if I identify with this does that make me a fake and a liar" and things like that.

So I literally have no clue what my gender is at all. Nonbinary is the best word, that's all I know I am close to is that. I know I'm not within the binary and that's about it period.