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(dealer's choice!)
You know what? Since you gave me dealer's choice, Henley, here's the rest of the scene I'm working on. New sentences in bold ;)
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“No,” he says, very firmly. “I—sorry. I’m—no.”
“Oh,” Emma says.
“I’m seeing someone,” Simon explains. “I—it’s not that—you’re still—”
Mortification hits like a tidal wave. “Oh, no no no, that’s fine,” Emma rushes to say, even as she feels her cheeks burning. “I wouldn’t have—that’s great, Simon. I’m glad to hear that.”
“Thank you,” Simon says. He looks as uncomfortable as she feels.
“How—how long, now?”
“Hard to say, you know how it is,” Simon says. “At least ten years all together.”
“Wow,” Emma says. She hasn’t had a relationship since Simon that’s lasted longer than a year. “That’s—wow!”
“Yeah,” Simon says. “I—he’s probably it for me, really.”
“I think at ten years, there’s a good chance,” Emma agrees. And then, “he?”
Simon’s mouth twists. “He,” he says, very firmly.
Emma nods. “Ethan called you ‘sweetheart’ earlier.” There is a lot, all of a sudden, that is making a great deal of sense. The clothes, the way they move around each other. She feels so stupid.
Simon hums. “Yeah, he did,” he says, voice very carefully neutral.
Emma nods. “Does he, uh, know we—”
“He does not,” Simons says. “Well, not that my last relationship was you. He knows I had one—”
“Right,” Emma says. “Right. Okay. I’m sorry about the kiss.”
“Don’t be,” Simon says. “Not exactly mad about a kiss on the cheek from a beautiful lady.”
Emma flinches, the line sticking uncomfortably, now that she knows— “I don’t—maybe don’t flirt with me if your boyfriend’s in the other room,” Emma suggests.
Simon looks sheepish, and finally takes a step back, hands in his pockets. “Force of habit,” he says. “And anyway, Ethan knows I’m a flirt.”
“Do you—I mean, do you still use—” Emma trails off, at a loss.
Simon raises an eyebrow. “Do I still honeypot targets as part of my job?”
Emma’s mouth thins, embarrassed.
“To a point,” Simon admits, and shrugs. “It’s a useful tool. I don’t sleep with anyone else—that’s the line we drew.”
Emma bends her knees and wraps her arms around them. “That wasn’t on the table with me,” she observes.
Simon sighs. Cautiously, he sits down next to her again, a good two inches of distance between them.
“It wasn’t on the table with Ethan for a long time, either,” he says. “A long time. It’s a useful tool, and also it’s—” he shrugs. “Well, honestly, I enjoyed that aspect of my job.”
“I didn’t like it,” Emma admits. “But I also didn’t think I could ask you to stop. Not when we knew we weren’t forever.”
Simon smiles. “You know,” he says. “I think in hindsight, we hindered ourselves a bit, deciding ahead of time that we wouldn’t be forever. Turns out, if you want a relationship to work, you have to be willing to work.”
And Simon had been, Emma concludes, for Ethan Hunt. She swallows the—not jealousy, not really. Feeling of inadequacy, maybe. She shuts her eyes. The exhaustion is back.“You’d know better than I would,” she admits. “Ten years. Really, that’s fantastic, Simon.”
“Ten years all together,” Simon corrects. Emma opens her eyes. Simon shrugs, sheepish. “It wasn’t all at once. We’re—well. I’m a lot. We’re both a lot.” He tilts his head. “Case in point, I guess I tend to be a bit, uh, defensive of what other people get to decide for me, about what I do or don’t do.”
Emma laughs, startled by it.
Simon smiles a little, wry and knowing. “If you’d asked, or if he had, I don’t think I’d have agreed. It had to be my idea.”
“Well, that would have been a deal breaker for me either way, in the end,” Emma admits. “So maybe we were right after all.”
Simon’s eyes go sad. “Bad timing, you and me.”
“Yeah,” Emma says, and they sit with that for a minute, the what ifs and maybes between them.
Then Simon stretches and stands up, pulling out his tablet and wandering over to boost himself onto the dresser, next to the television. “I’d better take a look at Benji’s algorithm,” he says. “I bet you’re ready to get out of here and back to your life.”
Emma watches the metaphorical distance stretch back out between them—Simon Templar, on the other side of the room and a universe away. For just a moment, she feels very alone.
“I am,” she says, and stands herself. “Though for now, I think what I want to do is take another shower, and then maybe crawl into bed and not come out for a long, long time.”
“Excellent plan,” Simon says. “Go take a shower and then a nap. I’ll wake you up when we’re reconvening.”
“Are we going to reconvene?” Emma asks. She’s not sure she can handle actually having to talk to Ethan Hunt again today. Not even just because of—this. Because the man is exhausting.
“We’re definitely going to reconvene, yes,” Simon says. “Ethan wants a check-in every hour, but he’ll want a proper team touchpoint before anyone heads off to sleep.” He eyes her, now, sharp and knowing. “But you won’t have to worry about that for a few hours,” he promises. “I’ll make sure you can sleep until then, promise.”
Well, that could be worse, Emma decides. She doesn’t have much of an option, anyway.
“Thank you Simon,” she says, and with nothing else coming to her, turns and walks into the bathroom, shutting the door behind her.
It feels more final than it should.
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ethan & mallory
It wasn't necessarily that Mallory didn't respect others. It was just that, as a general rule of thumb, most people tended to be giant idiots when interacting with him. He didn't even claim to be a paragon of good thinking, either. Mallory knew very well his flaws. He acted before he fully thought shit through from time to time. It had gotten him in hot water a time or two.
But, people? Humans? They were selfish by default. It was you or them and Mallory had been caught with his pants down once, he wasn't ever going to let that happen again.
So, yeah. He was an ass. He was rude.
He didn't really give a shit who's feelings he hurt. He got things done that needed to be done. He did things others weren't willing to do. So yeah, there were very few people Mallory respected.
Ethan, however, happened to be one of the few.
Not that he'd ever tell him. Best to keep him guessing on how Mallory felt day to day. Besides, Mallory wasn't trying to make friends. Ethan just happened to be a problem solver, same as he -- one with a few good ideas that were decidedly not idiotic.
So yeah, Mallory was inclined to indulge the man where he wouldn't others.
Which was how he found himself frowning down at a prosthetic arm. It looked a little banged up, but nothing a little TLC wouldn't fix. "What's the issue you're having with it?"
@lastofethan
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