#Cuntyelleirathoughts

[axolotlelleira]

20/10/2019

5h28

Isnt it insane that every minute that ticks by something horrible is happening? Someone is being raped, murdered, tortured, lied to, cheated on, caught in an accident, missing, drowning, being robbed, houses burning, domestic violence occuring, think of all the worst possible scenarios happening in different parts of this world. Isnt it fucking bizzare? Fuck whats worse is, what if I'm just imagining things? What if all this is just a hallucination and nothing really exists. I'm downstairs alone. My mother left a couple hours ago, my father is away for work. The rest of the brood fast asleep upstairs. What if none of this is real and I'm just making things up. My family does'nt really exist, I'm the only person in this world? Nobody is really here, its all in my mind? I myself may not exist. Even writing this. What if in a blink of an eye everything has suddenly dissappeard and my physical body no longer existed . The divine intelligence the thought itself is catapulted into the abyss of vast nothingness. Holy Fuck.

[axolotlelleira]

21/10/ 2019

10h13

Been awake for straight 43 hours and I can now attest that my soul has officially slipped away from my body, and has penetrated into a different realm. Said soul can been seen frolicking about naked and lusciously dancing with the Devil under the pleasurable sound of blasphemous music.

P. S : Writing this has proved to be difficult as I have lost consciousness quite a number of times in attempts to write this down.