#Gonna redux a lot of stories probably I'm trying to get to the One Year... timeline

[captainkurosolaire]

Perish.

Dark, null, coldness… Familiarity set, was this his beyond?   …Nay, it felt like the ocean's depths.   Communion from an unseen fathom called out to his submersion. Do you know how a soul becomes fragmented?       When it gives away, pieces of themselves carelessly. You have wronged six, My Captain.           Not counting the surface who needs you Whole. Boy of Dream             Beast left Tameless,                                            Grim Shadow’s without Guiding Light                                                             Savage devoid Solace,                                                                            Power left Satisfied                                                                               …And a door left turn. Six wronged, heinously left in absence. Judgment demands, you navigate these lost fragments into reunion, Stands you’ve conjured this colorless realm, by such turmoil, everything becomes unclear. Water left unnatural.       Skies upside down.               Loved memories, all scattered. Chaos to disarray is your trade, Being overly lawless can lead to Insanity. "You are not Alone."                    "I am Perish." "I’ve accompanied you awhile now, meeting the same ordeals.           "Anguished, I hurt."               "Your emotions serve my own." The Seeker paused, gasping and shaking trying to absorb his rational sense. “Ye b’ my spirit-guide that butterfly? …Why do you still elude me?”  Silence befell a spell. Feminine mystical chimed, “I do not. You’ve made yourself blind, sinking into obscurity. As I said, you’ve forged this terrible gray. Abandon everything and Search. When you merely question, it forms a maze tormented for misery.”

Wretched and troublesome the sailor split calmed his astral essence, a flashing memory of recent transpired, Judas preaching a helpful suggestion before fallout, <“If you took a second and THOUGHT instead of allowing your emotions to think for you. That is your worst design, always has been.”> Baffled by his guiding truth, unconventionally these were a wind. Phenomenon the butterfly essence further elaborated, “You’re beginning to understand and as so, you can now perceive what’s real.” Golden eyes pried open to see a fellowmen. “...You’re me…” With a peer to a ravine reflection, “I am you. A singular part. Five others reside amongst us.” Overwhelmed by devastating sorrow, Captain dropped to repenting knees onto a solid-layer within the water’s depths of phantom nonsense. Tears scattering themselves how the guilty, feel, “How did I fuck up this bad?! I thought, I really got rid of my doubts and quelled them last time, I saw that Undesirable side of me… That inferior side, ‘Un’, I was drawn t’ lash against!” He felt unbridled internal pain within himself that she had suffered. Entire senses were becoming aware of this formless realm. She swam up with stride, before kicking him in his unbecoming sorrow, sending him reeling back from tremendous power. “Enough! You cannot allow pity here! Man yourself together! You’ve answered without realizing. You struck against a side you believed, lesser? However, by doing so you forced a new side of that to be created. An endless cycle, when you defeat a dementor of doubt, another will arise in replacement even more foul. THIS is uncontrollable, you’re attempting to alter nature, beyond yourself. You have taken in a dangerous soul-crystal thought lost out of necessity to survive, but that magick inside yourself warps the fabric of existence, in your situation it’s been internalized, whatever perceives, BECOMES. This is not like ordinary dreams or nightmares, it will follow you even outside and continuously haunt you with misfortune… Noble told you once, that Order is necessary for Reality.” Captain’s memory instantly rushed, Shiro’s own imparted intelligible insight, these former connections… Resurfacing in a place known for suppression, repression, drowning. “...Then.” Preventing himself from an actual quizzical tone, adapting to his environment. “I have t’ acquire balance to manage this place.” Finding words previously that were obviously ominous, now became trivial.

“Correct, now you’re turning on! You cannot shape anymore, you’ve given all your power, dream, alongside importance's anchored to burial, even from your own. Though, you may recuperate and establish color again, Free yourself to mend like you were on the path to doing-before this Tumultuous Year Began, you made a crucial error by removing trust for yourself for any moment at-all, you gave a specter here that dominion. — Lies are scary, you’ve committed so easily. Before they were uttered, you had to register them here in this dangerous place... Telling worried loved ones, you’d stay, yet, improperly forgetting those branding pain and selfishly abandoning proper mistakes, you instead acted overly callous. For a sinner, this place is deserving, befitting perhaps. Although what’s only clipped, can fly again. – As you heard by the loud Hellsguard with his trembling sorrow.” Continuing to try educating how this wondrous place functioned, psyche incomprehensible to measure. “...Aye, right. Gark said, I deserved to be alone, wait no, Perish…’” Upon that exchange, her namesake was given dawn. Anything said from outside that weighed against his compassion, drew haunting creation from this inner reside. A foolish hardass lacking control. The Hellsguard seemed overly enraged but why does one get that way at-all? When a soul is mourning! It confesses itself almost spontaneously. There was no mistake, Gark felt strongly moved. And Captain never explained himself beforehand why he was disbanding, not everyone was like Zieton who can just magically perceive his intent… Damn it. Some, Captain… “Perish, please navigate me. I want to… No, us t’ b’ complete, I WANT TO HEAL!” A powerful declaration brought a shake throughout the mystique stratum.   Breaking a coy smile, “My pleasure is yours... Your first-fragment to recover is the Boy who became Dreamless, as the Child grew older and began suffering countless loss, or time-ushered passed, he began distancing himself from his initial ambition which left him within a fog. Find and locate this answer..” She looked above. “Our time must be cut short, your advisory on the plane is approaching. I will distract him momentarily! Wake up, utmost haste the serum on your last desperation, should be taking effect otherwise, we wouldn’t be here. Our next encounter will occur after you speak to your Father, about who your Mother really was and only then, will you figure out how to walk here again.” She dissipated into the spiritual realm as bubbles formed, and popped on his visage in departure. Remembrance came.

♫Butterfly♫ - Reference - Last Chapter

[lady-star-strings]

~LIFE UPDATE~

Musical Mayhem

So I'm kinda in an odd place as an understudy for Dorothy cause I know I'll probably wind up doing at least one show in the role, but... There are some things that happened behind the scenes that make me wonder if it won't be more than one show. I'm content no matter what happens because my goal in doing this was to help where I could and to be part of something I enjoy again, so we'll just have to see where things go. Rehearsals just started tonight, and I can already tell this is going to be a very long couple of months with work on top of it, but I'm excited~

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Ladies Night

I was super lucky enough to catch a showing of The Batman (2022) with my sisters the other night, and holy hell, I couldn't recommend it enough. Not only as a massive fan of the character and the story surrounding him but just as someone who appreciates filmmaking, it was gorgeous. Everything from the music to the cinematography to the stunts to the effects to the character portrayals was just wonderful. It certainly is a long run time, but I promise it's well worth it with the story they have to tell and the tone is such a nice change from previous movies. To sum it up, this movie feels grounded - it feels real and human in a way that a lot of superhero movies don't nowadays. Maybe that's not for everyone, but I always appreciate it when Batman feels like he's a person rather than a figment. Honestly, I really look forward to the continuation of this iteration, they knocked it out of the park and I can't wait for more.

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Creative Endeavors

Speaking of Batman, in case you starlings didn't know, I have a Batgirl costume from a few years back that I might be reviving this year... But with a bit of bloody twist. I finally managed to get my hands on Batman: Vampire and I adore the design for vampiric Batman to death, so why not make a version for Babs? It probably won't be for a while, but once I manage to get it all around, I'll be sure to post some pics here. I already have the perfect teeth picked out for it...

Somewhat on that same note, I'm writing and working with my original projects again! I've been doing it on and off over the past couple months, reduxing and reworking things to fit the plan I have in mind for it all now. That being said, I'm gonna really try to buckle down on it as the months get warmer and hopefully have something to show for it by the time things get nasty again. This may or may not include some artwork as well now that things are looking up again, but we'll see... Either way, incredibly glad to be working with my babies again, and I'm excited to share some AUs and the likes with you in the meantime - check @star-strings-spills for more info soon~

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Anywhodilydo, life is looking pretty good at the moment, and I'm happy to know that with summer coming, it's only going to get a little better. This winter was a really huge struggle for me, but I think I've managed to get a hold on it and will continue to strive for good days over bad whenever I can over this next year. I still have my moments, but I'm getting there, and that's what matters.