#I didn’t watch the episode yet but my heart 💔💔💔💔 not ready!!

[shinixgami]

𝐊𝐚𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐢 & 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐚𝐤𝐢 𝐃𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐧 𝐛𝐲 𝐓𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐊𝐮𝐛𝐨 ☀️

[riverstardis]

the last call:

i’m ready to cry

it’s cool how it’s actually the 8 year anniversary of this episode today

little abs🥺🥺🥺

iain’s back for the funeral

zoe sent some flowers

ethan in his hospital bed watching the video someone put online of the explosion going “they stood there filming this while his body was still in the people carrier. who would do that?” and cal going “you know you need to read a book or watch a box set or something”

lofty bringing ethan a pack of blueberries and cal goes “they’ve got mould on them” and he goes “or penicillin as i prefer to call it” sjskkddk i love lofty

“a man’s caught his penis in his zip” “and good morning to you too, lily”

lofty’s also brought funeral clothes from ethan’s flat

fletch sending beer

jamie’s back for the funeral too!

they couldn’t see his body because there was nothing to see😭

the way that woman with ocd goes to put her bin out… unfortunately i can relate

it’s not like i don’t know that this is honey’s first episode but it still surprises me every time

the man that was sleeping in the bin has been dumped

ethan getting changed into his suit and sneaking out

my question is why does he decide to try and sneak out through the ed like surely he could’ve gone out a different exit??

ash overhearing robyn and jamie talking about how they wished in could’ve been anyone else to die in the crash and how if only jeff had been selfish just for once :(

ethan tries to hide behind a magazine in the shop thus leading to his first interaction with honey. and that doesn’t lead to anything good does it

ig cal’s noticed that ethan’s gone because he finds lofty and asks him whether it was a black suit in the bag he got ethan and he goes “did you not notice the huge dressing under his pyjama top?” “strangely i wasn’t looking at your brother’s chest” “he’s had a thoracotomy you moron!”

dixie gone to the bin dump place to try and avoid the funeral and iain goes after her

the music😢😢😢

little abs by the coffin😭😭😭😭

dixie feeling like she didn’t belong at the funeral because everyone knew the arrangement she had with jeff so she felt she couldn’t “play grieving widow” :((

ethan and connie walk in together does that mean connie drove ethan there?

and ethan knocking a flower arrangement over when it’s completely quiet and connie whispering “you’re such a liability” sjdkfkfk

but then charlie asks connie what the hell ethan’s doing there because he knows he hasn’t been discharged yet and connie just shakes her head so maybe she didn’t bring him??? idk

urghhh looking at the bin guy makes me feel horrible. actually all the scenes with the bins do.

“you and jeff you had one of the most rock solid relationships i’ve ever come across. you’ve got every right to brag about that”

dixie arriving at the funeral just in time to say something

“most of you know what the deal was with me and jeff. and for those of you that don’t, let’s just say it wasn’t a long engagement. it wasn’t what you’d call a conventional marriage but it had a lot of the same components there was very little romance, there were frequent arguments, and there was love. he was my soulmate, my confidante, the clown that made me laugh and want to kill.”

“you sacrificed your life saving someone else’s and in my heart of hearts i always knew it was gonna be that way” ohhh and the camera goes to ash and to ethan💔💔

the radio bit gets me every time😭😭😭😭😭

ohh little abs still lying by the coffin😭😭

tess going “oh you look terrible!” when she sees ethan and he asks for a lift back with her

connie has to drive to dorset because grace has been expelled from school

ash trying to speak to dixie but she avoids him :(

cal standing round worrying about ethan when he arrives back. he tries to sort out an ecg while lily realises he hasn’t eaten anything since the mouldy blackberries and goes to get him a sandwich🥺

“when you said ‘i can’t let anything happen to you’ i didn’t think you meant it quite so literally” “i never said that. when did i say that?” “‘you’re my safety net, you’re all i’ve got’” “right, you were conscious. well, as you know, people say all sorts of gibberish when they’re stressed” oh cal it’s too late he knows you actually care about him now

lily brings the sandwich to ethan’s side room and asks what happened to the ecg and ethan’s like “i think he went off the idea when someone mentioned the pub” sounds about right😭😭

i’m guessing ethan escaping the hospital and going to the funeral got him more time in there because at the start lofty says he was meant to be discharged that afternoon but then he’s still there in the next episode so a week later? unless that’s not actually what lofty says at the start i can’t properly tell without subtitles tbh

dixie and tamzin talking😢😢 i really love how even tamzin acknowledges that what dixie had with jeff was a lot deeper than what she had with him and i love that dixie acknowledges that what tamzin had with jeff was completely different than what she had with him and gives her his jacket. basically i love how they weren’t pitted against each other.

and that’s tamzin gone

honey: “weird vibe in here” robyn: “it’s a wake”

aand that’s iain back

little abs🥺🥺🥺 this dog’s a really good actor lol

“to jeff. our hero.” 💔