#I don't want to complain (which is probably a lie since this is the 3rd post I'm making to rant) but I wasn't expecting to breakdown today

[emometalhead]

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[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

This punk

You see that teal blue square to the right of the screen?

That's the booth me and my great aunt and 3rd cousin used to allllwwaays sit at.

And she would eat crab legs and the owner would always being special tools for my aunt and they only had two sets so we always returned it directly to her when we left.

He's a punk.

...

So then Alex took me... He said "where do You want to eat? I have money. No i really do"

And he was always bugging so I said "do you like Chinese?"

So he said "yep"

And I said "I know this one spot you will love because every time I see you, you're complaining about how hungry you are. Come on lets go"

So he told me "what's with you? You're never this nice to me!"

But i had went over to see Brandy and she had just left for work and i fell asleep on the couch because he said he didn't know where she went and he left me alone and sat on the floor which was absolutely disgusting with some animal fur like white masses of fur. Cat apparently but when I was there the cat always hid under their bed. So it was just gross. But he was all nice and I would hear the door creak and it would wake me and he would say "shhh she's asleep" and one girl was loud and I was all "you guys I got a headache" and he kicked them out.

So after I woke up I was staring at him and watching him and I touched his ear with my toe. And he like moved his head to his shoulder like I was a bug. So I did it again 4 more times and he said "if this fly one more dam time" and he got up to get the fly swatter off the wall. It was dark because he was playing PlayStation like one... It was 1998.

So I was all do I dare? I thought about it and I was all I bet he's slow because hes into this game and it happened to be a race car game..so..

4 more times.. Then I put my toe on his neck and he goes "alright thats it if I have to turn on the light to find you and wake her!!! -- oh ill turn on the kitchen light, that's what ill do" so he did and then he waved the fly swatter around and was all "don't wake her" finally he could see my eyes open and more so my smile and he was all "are you awake? No probably not. Ill just play my game here and maybe then I can get me some food. If she will take me. Yeah usually she says she will take me to the store but usually u say I don't want to" then suddenly he hit pause and put his arm on the couch and then looked at my face and said "huh" like he was asking me and I said nothing and he squeezed my knee 2x and said "yeah you know you are"

And I said "take you to the store or....?" Because by then he was so oblivious I wondered if I could smoke and him even notice. So I timed my lighter when it was loud and in a turn in the road so he would be paying attention to the game.

"No smoking hot! All I smell is smoke! Sabrina are you even awake or just messing with me?"

"Asleep" and so i would blow my smoke hard into his face and all.

"Now I'm realky hallucinating! And i ain't smoked since... Idk when doesn't matter!"

So I put my toes on him again because i was all if i finish this cigarette and he doesn't notice im actually awake. Hes dumb.

"Alright then! Im mad!"

And he turned on a lamp in the other room and he thrn could see my eyes because the lamp unlike the kitchen light was in front of me and he looked at me and then the lamp "oh you want it off? Ill turn it off"

"No its alright i need to put this cigarette out"

"Oh then you want it on. I want it on. We will leave it on. Now where is this bug?"

"A listening one or a one with feet?" And i had to laugh.

"No a listening one is uhh in the bedroom... Oh wait you actually do talk?"

"Yeah" i giggled

"That's why i always ask if you want to go to the store because you are always so silent but i think if i ask you you'll tell me "yeah i want to go to, too" but you never do. Are you really awake?"

"Why would I say i would want to go to too? Why not I'm heading that way like i usually do?"

"Because you would bring me back..."

"But why? Would you want to?!"

"Alright that's it IM DREAMING! im going to take my shirt off. Do you see me?"

"Yes you're naked"

"No I'm not besides im not even naked. I just said I would but your head turned like you didn't want to see that's what i do know"

"What color is your under wear? Red?"

"No blue"

"You better be checking because when you went into the kitchen to turn the light on, you lifted your shirt to wipe the sweat off your forehead even tho its not hot. And you seemed to be upset about your hallucinating i tonight i should give you your privacy."

"Oh. How long have you been awake!?"

"And he whines!!"

"And i can't believe you. You say you want me to have my privacy but you're laughing so hard you can barely talk!"

So i just laughed...

"So is there even a bug?"

"Oh you mean this?" And i ran my toes down his back

And he threw his controller down "are you fucking kidding!?!?!"

And i laughed and said "yes"

And he picked it up and said "no youre not"

And then i put my toe on his ear and left it ao he went to slap my toes and his hand touched my ankle "is that your leg?"

"Mmm no!"

"Alright now you're bugging me!"

"It was my ankle!"

"You know youre not infuriating as i thought. I say leg. You say no and i think you're lying but you say its your ankle"

"You know i don't live in the direction of the store anyway"

"Yeah you do. I live south of you"

"By a couple of blocks!"

"I live North of you i mean"

"Well i head south but not all the way to the store! I dont even live as far as my gramma! But i do always go to the store when i leave here anyway"

"How come?"

"To get something to eat. Usually I get a hot pocket, pepperoni and a couple of chips, sometimes a brownie no its a fudge round by little debbie oh and a Pepsi"

"You get that every night? I thought I was hallucinating"

"Hey do you think you're hallucinating when ever a girl tells you to give her a kiss?"

"No. Idk. Why?"

"Because i just did. 4 or 5 times"

"You what?" And he said "you lie" the same time i said

"I lie"

And he put down his controller all violent and he said "well you know what liars do around here?"

"What?"

"Get punished"

"And ill bet that's your kiss" and that fucker is fast! I barely had time to duck or even have time to finish teasing him

"Oh now don't duck" and he started tickling me

"Oh you're so mean to me!!" I had to gasp for air

"Oh! I'm mean huh!?? Then you get tounge too as soon as you quit laughing"

So i did...

...

So when we went to the restaurant the owner said "the same booth?"

And i said "uhh im with someone different" and tapped his shoulder

And she said "okay then the second one" and did wll Vanna White like i taught her "here's your booth!"

So he told me to get my plate first and I saw him talking to her and she came and said he ordered me a Pepsi and was it okay because i always got water. I told her it was.

Because my aunt was on social security I always got water to make it cheaper for her plus i didn't drink alot of water at home. My cousin would get Dr Pepper and my aunt would get 7up they carried for her in a can but i got water. And she asked me at the table "why you always get water but he gets you a Pepsi and you say its okay?"

"Oh because my aunt doesn't have alot of money and she always pays and always says she will pay and I work over across the street at Mazzios and I always advise people on a budget when they ask what is cheap to skip the drinks and get water instead although we have a water filter and it takes way longer to get the drinks"

"And do they listen?"

"No, but that's also because I recommend one of the deals that comes with soda"

"Oh now I see you" she touched my wrist and wagged her finger at Alex "now I don't want you beating her!"

And she walked off and he was all "woah!" And looked down at the table and laughed "you look amused sobi can i ask you--"

"Yeah?"

"What the Hell do you do in this place?!?!"

'What?! Why?!"

"Idk how many customers you remember but this is a buffet and it gets busy!"

"Almost all my regulars. I always work the same nights"

And I heard all this laughter bubbling up from around the corner

"Oh my now here she comes"

"What? No you're kidding me" he said angrily

"She will watch" but the laughter continued "go get your food!"

"How long until she comes?"

"When she quits laughing"

"How long?"

I heard the door swing to the kitchen "oh she will be awhile, she went to the men. Go get your food!"

"Oh wow its getting louder and that's just HER!! Are you sure she won't be back soon?"

"Uh huh. Once she calms down she will tell the boys and then she will begin to laugh again then she will stop and we will hear them when the door opens and closes that's when you know shes out but you don't hear it creak. Idk why I never do"

"That's ghost! Doesn't it bother you they're always laughing at you?"

"No. Go get your food! I told you this is a fun place! Go! Eat. Food! Hello! Comida!"

"I wanna see how long it takes. They never and I mean never heard her laugh much less "the boys" how do you know who works in there anyway?"

"Oh I bust in there!! Its a long story she will likely tell you"

"No you tell me because I don't want them laughing at you. This is making me mad"

"You are mad. I mean really! My food is getting cold. I can't eat without you... Okay Fiiiinnne! One day I came in here and she had tears in her eyes. But she didn't. Wasn't upset or anything until i heard the door creak and then these make voices yelling at her. And she came back and she had tears in her eyes. And everytime she went in they yelled and i thought no way they are beating her. Or else why would she be so upset?! So I went in there and there was no one. I MEAN NO ONE. The whole kitchen was EMPTY. So I knew what i heard and I asked her and she said yes there were indeed in fact people behind that door. So I went and opened it and There Were!! And so I yelled and they even laughed at me and so one of the guys came out and he looked like he had blood all over him you know on his apron and he told me "no she is just upset that you look like someone she knew long time ago in a past life." And she had come up right about that time and he wrapped his hands around her shoulders and said "no we love this one" anyway that's the story why i know they are all men"

"So why does she do Vanna White like you do?"

"Oh she asked me. Food! Cold!"

"Why would she say that to you?"

"No i say that to you! Now! Goooo!"

"No answer me first"

"Fine ill starve. They're gonna CLOSE! NOW! GO! FOOD!"

"Then I guess you better answer me. Look. I didn't pick on you about bugs--"

"That's because we had sex"

"Alright but ill be right back but don't go anywhere"

"Where am I gonna go!"

"Well I'm gonna go. Youre right she does take a long time! Okay? Ill be back"

"Alright" then I got paranoid like why would he say that? So I looked in my purse for my keys. Which were there.

He came back

"I didnt want to seem like a bum or anything but I was so hungry I was about to eat off your plate" and he looked down "wow this is food. I am awake aren't I?!"

I seen our waitress, the owner, duck down like a a kid and duck walk over and say "this is his booth"

And he got so scared!!

"Woah hey! Where did you come from?! I got scared!!"

And she stood and laughed and shook his shoulders and patted his chest. "Oh you're all grown! No time to be scared!"

"Oh! Well okay then. If you say so" he had tears in his eyes

"This is his booth like I say. She sit right here" she patted the seat behind him "always. Not ever on tbe other side. She used to until you started to come here when the 1st booth was always full then she only always sit in this chair right behind you. I tell you I notice" and she squat down "she always do this at work, too. When her back hurt. I think it's to get eye level or seem inferior. But I ask her one night at work. She passed. I never sit on her section -- she always work where it's closest to the entrance to the kitchen and I ask her too if they had sections and she said no and so I ask her why she squat and she rubbed the small of hwr back right here and she say "because my back always hurts and it provides some relief""

"No way! I always wondered that too!"

"When do you go in there? I rarely see her!"

"Well apparently you always have your regular customers you're always intuned to!"

"Well if you notice i am very busy!" I kicked him under the table "you should sit in my section!! they keep me busy all my regulars...."

She laughed and repeated what she saw.

"You, too. Little Missy!"

"Ill be right back i have to tell the kitchen!"

"I see why you dont get mad! For all their laughing"

"Why is that?"

"You're cute!"

"Oh my god really??! All that -- you hear that? You look smug with pride but i say it why -- they're laughing and you're blushing?"

"You treat me like such a little kid"

... .... ...

"So do you want dessert?"

"No I'm full" I laid down in the seat

"Don't go to sleep"

"Oh well" I touched his blonde hairy knee. He moved them

"What are you doing?"

I sat up "well you were adjusting uncomfortably in your seat but I didn't see anything"

He leaned forward and laughed like a maniac... Blushing.

"Can I ask you Something?"

"Shoot"

I shook my head "that's not what I meant to say, can I Tellll you Something?"

"Shoot. That means go ahead"

"Yeah well I know." I put my thumbs between my eyebrows

"Well what's wrong? Hey are you okay?!"

"Well Idk if I should that's all. Our maybe just not here, I couldn't tell. Or even if it matters... In so many ways"

"Just please tell me"

I smiled but tried to hide it"

"Just tell me"

"Only because you whine, I just wanna tell you I didn't think you were as big as you were"

"You mean...? What? What are you referring to?" He took a sip of Pepsi

"Only if you don't drink"

"You mean this?" He stuck his straw in his mouth and did a head bobble and stuck out his hand "I'm not stopping until you tell me"

"I mean your dick" I scarcely had time to close my eyes while the soda he spewed and choked on flew straight into my face from his mouth "I knew you were going to do that" I crossed my arms on the table while soda dripped off my nose and down my cheeks and off my hair. I waited while he choked and the waitress patted his back and tried not to laugh

"See? She likes you like I told you, she did not even yell. You two enjoy ill be around the corner there. Clean up her" she gave him one last pat then turned to me "I thought I would have to give him the heimlich he was choking so bad. You be good" then she brought a fresh warm towel from hot water.

And he cleaned my face "no no that has bleach!" She said

"Too late" I replied.

"Okay so now after all that I'm just gonna ask you what you mean"

"Ill leave you to be but I'll be just around the corner"

"No stay"

"No I'll be just around the corner"

"Which means she can hear" i whispered loudly. She laughed.

"Now before you answer I mean about "too late""

"Oh because you washed my face"

"Oh not about you being pregnant?"

"No I'm on my period. I think. No wait. I stopped. No why?"

"Oh she was talking I guess you didn't hear"

"I guess not"

It was quiet at the table. A little too quiet...

'So about that dick"

"Which one?"

"Yours! So i never thought it would be so big because youre so skinny"

"Being skinny has --"

"No stop. Now listen to me. So when we humped I thought yeah I'm right he's small"

He put elbow to fist on the table "what?!"

"But then when you took your pants off...I thought well hmm he might be bigger than I thought"

"Geez" he brushed his hair to the side... Seemed to be nervous but pleased

"Wait I'm not done" I leaned forward to whisper "but when you pulled out I thought, wow man that's big where in the hell did he put all of it?! I just thought you should would want to know"

"What?! That im a big dick?!?!"

"No that You're bigger than average. Alot. According to books anyway"

"I just want to go home with you right now"

"Do you want to drive? I mean unless you drive slow. I'm assuming since you drive racing games you like to go fast. You do have a license? I mean a real one?"

"Geez. I mean yes. Yes I do. Want to see it?"

"No its alright I trust you.. But what do you mean about geez? I mean this time"

"How much did you see? How long were you awake?"

"Since the first bug... Well wait! Don't blush yet because before that i heard you were really angry and something like "now what the hell would Sabrina think? I beat that bitch like that. But she deserved it tho. Now I'm all bloody" and I heard the sink and i heard paper towels. And I went back to sleep. I think. Then i heard "dam! That fucking slut coming in here all loud like that, sorry honey. I hope you're okay" then I was confused but you patted my leg so i thought and i hoped you meant me and i thought that was odd I didn't like you like that you always annoy me so i turned around to look at you and a realized you don't annoy me at all. I annoy me. Because I'm always hoping you mean you want me to take you to the store but then you turn me down and it makes me feel sad. Why do you always do that?"

"Because I'm always hoping that you will say yes. Then you do and i realize I'm not so hungry after all and so i choose to stay home"

"Instead of going with me?!"

"Because i don't want to bother you"

"And you bother me! Like! Alot. So please dont do that to me no more"

"What? Ask? Or not go?"

"Look if you ask me then you should go if I say yes"

..

So he did it again so the second time he asked me I said no. The 3rd time I didn't answer and the 4th time i said no.

The 5th time Jesse and Matt Hagan were there so i told him "get your money and lets go, hurry before I say no again"

They all wanted to go so I said "no. Two doors. Only two can go"

So when we came back I took a minute to finish my cigarette on the porch. Alex rushed in all "what the fuck?! Stay here!!"

Apparently Matt Hagan had his bag threatening to dump it out until he was told how many times we kissed. Then when I went in, he was beating the shit out of him and Jesse.

So I pulled him off and said "come on lets just go you can go to my house, my dad won't care"

Then they were all mocking me and he said "you're right lets go. He's dead or nearly. Y'all don't be touching my stuff. Lets out. Hold my hand"

I took a look "yeah that Matt Hagan is dead"

"Jesse ain't. He will probably resuscitate him"

"You mean mouth to mouth?" I stopped at the door and yelled back in "have fun with mouth to mouth you Boys"

So then when i took him back a week later they were still there... And so they snatched his bag off his back and Jesse turned it over to dump it while Matt ran off like a little bitch. Snatched up his cocaine and took off.

Then they both got in my car to snort it so I called the cops when they refused to get out and kept locking it when I unlocked it. They were all handcuffed and arrested for attempted grand theft auto.

Brandy lied and said they weren't because they were embarrassed. They had good lawers from OKC so they got off with 1300 hours community service total. 700 each which they paid some poor snuff to do it. Then they killed them. 2 black guys as if matt or jesse are superior to anything much less two legit men

I don't play with their shit. Don't fuck with me.