#I don't work fast in these considering I'm answering this a day late 😭

[bidisasterevankinard]

Wip Wednesday

I'm too late cause well I don't have anything new(I'm sad and too busy 😭)

Tagged @hippolotamus @jesuisici33 @buddierights @watchyourbuck @wildlife4life @wikiangela @eddiebabygirldiaz @spotsandsocks @daffi-990 @devirnis @heartshapedvows @the-likesofus @hoodie-buck @loserdiaz @ladydorian05 thank you all 💙💙💙

I'm sad and was in angst mood but couldn't write, but anon made me think about this old wip so gimme opinion

After 6s au where Eddie said no when Buck asked him out

The next day Eddie calls him. Buck is really considering the possibility of not picking up the phone, but it wouldn't be very polite, and he still wants to keep the friendship, so putting himself together, he answers and curses his voice for the fact that Eddie can hear that he was crying. A lot. All night.

“Hey,” the only thing Buck actually manages to say before feeling how the familiar feeling of approaching tears envelops his chest, but he does not feel the wetness on his cheeks, because he cried out all the tears at night.

“Hey, I,” Eddie pauses and Buck is ready to hear how his best friend ends their friendship in this phone call. “I wanted to make sure you’re ok. I’m sorry, Buck.”

“Not your fault, Eds.”

“Yes. I know, Still, I didn’t want to hurt you. But trust me, it’s for the best,”

Buck really hopes that one day it can be for the best, that he and Eddie would be both happy, and have good partners, but something telling Buck he would stay alone, keeping big unconditional love to his best friends inside him and never have a chance to stop loving him.

“Are we still friends?” Buck asks it fast but so so quite, that he isn’t sure that Eddie even heard it.

“Of course, Buck. You’re my best friend, and we’re family,”

“Good. I-I need some time. You know to-to understand what I can do to eventually get over you, so I-I need space, Eddie,” never in his life Buck thought he would need space from the best person who always made Buck feel good, but it’s how his life works now.

“Anything you need,” Eddie’s warm and soothing voice only adds pain to Buck's body and the tears really begin to flow again.

“Thanks, Eds, I-I see you on the shift.”

I love you that’s how Buck wants to end this call, but he swallows those words and he wraps himself in a blanket deeper, believing that he deserves one lazy day when he is drowning in pain and suffering because the universe must hate him, sending Eddie Diaz into his life and not giving him a chance not to fall in love with him, but not creating Buck so that Eddie also falls in love with him.

Not tagging cause it's too late

[kaistrashbin]

Hmm, I'll answer these in order (aren't I the one who is supposed to be doing the asking?)

Yours? Yes, mine, you said I'm your special anon so you're mine now. My pretty little mouse~

As for why I send asks this late, it's because I've noticed that you're online at this time, and I happen to be awake now as well, so it works out!

I could send them at a different time easily enough, would in about 10 hours from now work for you my dear? If it does you can consider it a date~

I think I'll contact you through a proper blog later though, don't want to give up the game too fast now ;)

- Valentine

You have got to stop with these little names, I SWEAR- 😭😭😭

I really should be going to bed earlier than this so XDDD yeahhhhh better to wait until daytime. I'm actually checking tumblr through the day much more often than it may seem to you

A date 😭😭😭

LATER? Yeah I guess you were always gonna do whatever you want, siiigghhhh

"Give up the game" yeah you're having fun with your little game, aren't you

Imagine me aggressively squinting at you LOL

[tsukidrama]

hi!! don't worry about answering late, you don't owe me a fast reply, especially with what you had to deal with i'm just glad you're okay! 

oh i'm still sad over mike and nobara they looked so interesting! mike's death was unnecessarely cruel, i guess it was to show the beast titan/zeke as a villain from the start? but he still deserved better. 

i tried fullmetal alchemist brotherhood (i've only watched 3 episodes so far) and it seems really good! to be honest i had no idea what was going on during the first episode but the story seems really interesting and same for the characters. thank you for the recommendation! 

talking about annie and her father i finally had time to read chapter 4 of the road not taken and….. i hated it (don't worry it's positive) but i loved it so much. i was so HURT but the whole time where annie was having her nightmare was so well written and the way you write annie post canon (post canon? post chapter 139? i don't know which term fits the most) is so realistic! "They left me behind… I just wanted to go home….!" broke my heart, learning that reiner and bertholdt left suddenly while she was stuck in the crystal must have been horrible for her. 

calming annie by talking about the garden was very clever! people tend to think it's big speeches about working on yourself blablaba that works best during time like that but sometimes it's the smallest things (even if the garden isn't just a small thing for annie). i teared up when reader explained to annie what happened during the night and when they both felt guilty, so yeah this chapter was so good!! i can't wait for the next! (take all the time you need though) but i've seen that you said that things where gonna get worse and even though it's understandable…. i'm scared (but excited).

have a nice day!! 

- j

aawwh well thank you for understanding! i just enjoy talking with you and it was genuinely unintentional. things are basically normal again now, hurricane ida really just threw me for a loop and it took me a minute to get my shit back together.

the sad thing about being into attack on titan as it came out, is that i got attached to basically everybody at least a little bit. this show hurts so bad wjslfnkfk

oh hell yeah!! the first episode is incredibly out of context and honestly it doesn't make much sense until after you've finished the series and understand all the little references to bigger plot stuff. it's an emotional rollercoaster for sure but the cast is top tier. either dub or sub tbh I've seen both, but in japanese the VA for ed is the same lady who voices hanji! i adore her

i am... so sorry j, lmaooo. it's a rough chapter for sure. it hurts me too if it makes you feel better 🤧 it's strangely comforting for you to compliment how well written the nightmare sequence was, i was a lil bit insecure about it. most of what's going to "get worse" are her nigutmares and what happens in them. it also puts distance between her and her girl because Annie is queen of bottling everything up and reverts to old habits — lordt I'm hurtin myself just thinking about it.

the scene talking about the garden is one of my favorites so far 😭 thank you thank u. I think it's realistic that in the moment that it's overwhelming to talk about big picture things, and distraction is the way to go when someone is that unreachable. the scene where they talk about it is the worst part of the chapter tbh (so so sorry again)

next chapter won't be too bad! i will give y'all some fluff to atone for my sins. also i've been considering about writing smut that goes with the road not taken if anyone is interested. probably wouldn't make it a part of the main storyline, just a little side book with snippets of nsfw shenanigans on the farm throughout the story if that makes sense? heheh