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blujayonthewing · 2 years

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here’s where Elyss’s campaign has me right now: I’m soul searching trying to figure out whether she would continue to rail futilely against cruel and pointless circumstances or if, like me, she feels like there’s not much point anymore

#I have what Elyss doesn't which is meta knowledge that almost everything that happens is completely arbitrary and thoughtless #because the DM keeps putting wild shit with what should be serious implications on roll tables and going 'oh I guess that happened!'#'anyway it's the next day now'#so....... for ME it feels increasingly futile for Elyss to respond strongly to anything that's happening because I can see meta of it #why fight it! why fight it. this is how it is I guess #if I play out elyss responding to this authentically the DM is just gonna be bewildered and annoyed about me Making A Fuss #but for ELYSS that feeling of futility and helplessness and giving up would have to come from a different place #I don't know if she's there #I don't know if she's CAPABLE of getting there although I think it would be... maybe an interesting place to explore with her #she's never been inclined to nihilism #frankly if anything 'here's even more Powerful Entities watching you and expecting things from you without justifying themselves'#should... be driving her to the brink of just going Ape Shitt tbqh #*I* do not WANT a darkest timeline unhinged Elyss in CANON!!#but that true neutral's gonna take on a chaotic bent if Otherworldly Beings don't stop FUCKING WITH US!!!#how do I resolve me in real life wanting to just give up on being invested in this campaign at all and just numbly nodding at whatever #with elyss in character wanting to start killing gods about it #s i g h #about me #my OCs #elyss #yeehaw I sure love dnd lmao

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