#I’ve finally been dropping the backstory for the dnd character I’ve had for like 3 years and that I worked rly hard on

[githvyrik]

I just wanna make something that’s interesting to somebody for once :(

[fandomtrxsh19]

So, when I read ACOSF, I made kind of play by play notes as a listened to it( I read the audiobook) so.........here’s the chaos

HEAVY SPOILERS FOR ACOSF!!

CASSIAN SAID FUCK

WHOA there’s a LOT of swearing in this

“It’s SEVEN in the morning gods damn it” -nesta archeron

OVERSIZED SHIRTS FOR THE WIN

Feyre and Rhys have 5 houses? Not surprised...

full, inviting breasts......BIG BOOBS OMG CASSIAN YOU HORNY SON OF A BITCH

7 siphons to keep his magic under control? Dayum

So, she rode this unnamed male like a fucking roller coaster?

Depression sex? Depression sex

“Her father was ashes in the wind” DAMN THATS EDGY

“A moment of release among the darkness inside her” NESTA BBY THIS ISNT HEATHY

“She avoided both of them” not surprised

OOOOH RHYS HATES HER TEA IS BEING SPILT

So, depression sex and depression alcohol? Yup

*checks chapter count* 80 CHAPTERS??!?! Oh shit this is gonna be a triiiip

OOOOOOOOO RHYS AND NESTA BEEF

Feyre trying to apologize to nesta........she’s trying

“You’re done, Nesta” The fuuuuuck.....

So, nesta’s moving and training with cassian...........Feyre, this isn’t a good idea omg

Feyre holy shit what the fuck are you doing, you TOTAL HELICOPTER SISTER?

“I never want to speak to you again!” damn

ELAIN TRAUMA!!! Yay???

MOR FOCUSED CHAPTER!!!?

she has brown eyes? Ok

FUCK SHES WEARING A BLUE DRESS FUCK

nesta knows about mor NESTA KNOWS ABOUT MOR!!!

“I am worthless and I am nothing. I hate what I am.” DAYUM I’ve been in that exact mindset numerous times. I can relate, Nesta

Briallen? Who the fuck is that?

Scars being trapped in magic? Good fuck that’s dark

“Ooh a dark skin character? Lit

OH SHIT SHE CANT FLY HER WINGS ARE CLIPPED

Is her name Emery?

“I am the monster your fear” BBY OMG GET THERAPY

Gwyn? Seems a bit aloof

“Two gentle conversations” GOOD JOB

Fairy lights omg lol

Nesta reading smutty books.....I’m imagining this omg

THE HOUSE IS ALIVE? Sweet

OMG ELAIN SHIT!!!! BBY

“All she wanted to do was touch him” OOOOOHHHHH NESSIAN

“All I need is a hot meal and a good book.” Mood

Nesta’s worried about Mor??? REEEEEEE

“Nesta needed Feyre more than she realized.“ OOOOOOO

OOOOOOOOO FAE BARGANS

They’re bound by magic on the body?? Ooh

IT’S TRAINING TIME BITCHES

“I don’t hate you too,Cassian” OMGGGGGG REEEEE

Nesta SMILED

THEY MENTIONED VALKYRIES!!!!!

“You might be my only friend.” HMMMMMMM

*hears how cassian was born * OMG HOLY SHIT CASSIAN

*hears cassians backstory* DAMN THESE CHARACTERS NEED THERAPY

OOP SLIGHT DEPRESSION SEX

OOP CLOTHING REMOVAL

“I’ve loved you since the first moment I held you in my arms.” HMMMMMMMM

I’m loving this Nessian sparring training.

ELAIN! SHES IN THE STORY KIND OF

Elain has small boobs........same

“I thought I would drop by to see how you were doing.” AWWWWWWWWW

Yayy.....awkward sister talks........

“She was the monster.” Nesta.............I can relate.

Nesta’s angry at Elain.............

Elain’s trying to reach out and Nesta’s denying it.

MY HEART

AGAIN...THE👏RA👏PY👏

“No more seeing her sisters without her permisson.” That’s smart.

Soooooooooo......Rhys is now a German Shepard.........?

OMG CASSIAN KILLED EVERYONE THAT HELPED KILL HIS MOM........good for him

“Use that training and make me.” OOOOOOOMGGGGGG

Rhys is overprotective of Feyre and shields her......daaaaaaaaaaaaamn

“What exactly happened in the cauldron?” FEYRE BAD IDEA BAD IDEA BAD IDEA

Again, Nesta, ✨THERAPY✨

Put a stop to what, D-does the IC know of the ✨depression smut?✨

“There was touching, but with her permission” WE 👏STAN 👏A KING👏

THAT ASKS👏FOR👏CON👏SENT👏

“Who do you think I am?” “A drunk fool who’s wasting my time?” OOOOOOOHHHHH SHOOTS FIRED!!!

Emery and Nesta to Emery’s cousin: GO HOME YOUR DRUNK ASSHOLE

*hears Nesta’s grand✨mama✨* me: grandmama, it’s me....ANASTASIA

Bruh...NESTA BIT CASS’S EAR

ugh the tool

“Baby making” hehe lol

“Nesta like gwyn”...............could she also be biiiiiiiii??????????!!!!!! YAY FIRST FRIEND IM PROUD OF YOUUUUU

NESTA SMILES AGAIN YAY!!

Alright, Meryl is BITCH

GWYN’S A QUARTER NYMPH?? Cool

“She’s failed everything.” BBY

HER POWERS? HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT SILVER FLAMES

ICY FIRE??? FUUUUUUUUUCK

Nesta must’ve been petrified being surrounded by fire

It’s a dream? THE FUCK

WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT SHE WAS DREAMING????

Cassian saw HER TRAUMA?????? FUUUUUUCK

HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HER POWER IS DEAAAAATHH FUUUUUUCK

THE BABY HAS WIIIIINGS!!!!!!

Why is Rhys angry about the wing thing?

Ohhhhhhhhhh shiiiiiiiiiit the tool

*hearing the possibilities of half Illyrian baby* OOOOOOOOOOOOHHHH FUUUUUCK OMG

“I loved it when you fucked my mouth cassian?” GAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH NEEESTAAAAA THIS ISNT HEALTHY

“What could go wrong?” DONT JINX IT

fairy monsters? OHOHOHOOOO

NONONONOOOOOO NOT AN ASH ARROW

BLACK EYES???? Fuck fuck are they in the cauldron?

OMG THE KELPIE IS DOING SHIT TO NESTA!!! Are they on the cauldron?

the MAAAAAAASK

ohOOOOOOOMGOMGOMGOMG SHE SUMMONED THE FUCKING DEAD REEEEEEEEEEE

Omg NESTAS POWERS ARE SO FUCKING COOL

She LITERALLY HAS AN UNDEAD ARMYYYYY

death HERself........badass

“Because you and cassian has been giving each other sultry looks all morning” SHE KNOWS

“For the first time in her life, she finally felt good in her own skin.” GROWTH

Omg Nesta created a swooooord!!!!! Cool

ITS INFUSED WITH MAGIC??? HELL YEAH

“I can’t lie to her!” SIIIIIIIMP

“I’d be careful when fucking her.” Oh amren

FUUUUUUCK FUCK BOOOOOOOOO TAMLIN

“You will not touch us.” YES TELL HIM

“I can’t believe Feyre ever loved tamlin.” ME TOO

“Elain saw everything Nesta did.” Daaaaaaaaamn

OOOOOOOO NESTAS PIIIIIIIISSED

OOOOOOOOOOO SECRETS FEYRE’S PIIIIIIISED

Nesta messed up and I think she realizes that

Rhys is pissed now and wants to kill Nesta....SHIIIIIIIT

Nesta: heads for a tavern me: NONONONONO GODS DAMN IT YOU’VE COME SO FAR

“I will fight for him. For us. Until I can’t anymore.” FEYRE IS GONNA BE A GREAT MOM

“Wishing to disappear into nothing.” I’ve been there.

“Cassian knew Nesta hated herself, but didn’t know how sometimes she wanted to unexist.” I RELATE TO THAT SHIT

“She had been born wrong.” AWWWWW BBY SHIIIIIT

“Was she worth being counted?” I CAN RELATE

*hearing Nesta blaming herself for her fathers death and for the horrible things she’s done, saying she can’t fix it* SHIT IM CRYING (I’m not joking)

“ I deserve nothing.” I CAN RELATE BITCH IM ACTUALLY CRYING

*hears Cassian calmly reassuring and comforting her* AWWWWW I NEED THIS QUOTE

CASSIAN CARES SO MUCH FOR HER I LOVE THIS

(I really needed that cassian talk. I literally wrote most of the quote down just in case. Thank you SJM)

EMERY CAN SENSE THE SEX HOLY SHIT

“After he’d fucked her with her fingers...” O NONONONOOO

*skips to chapter 52*

Lanthis??? Who the fuck is that?

“Gwyn and Emery are my friends” SHES GROWN SO MUCH!!!

26 dimensions? OH THIS IS SOME DOCTOR STRANGE SHIT

IT CANT BE KILLED

cassian and Nesta really went *yeet* .......... I’m sorry

THE SWORDS NAME IS ADORAXIA!!!!!!!!!!!sounds like a dnd character IDEAS

OHOHOHOOOOO BLACK THRONE AND A CROWN DEATH QUEEN NESTA WITH HER HAIR DOOOOOOWN

Rhys vs Cassian standoff *western duel music starts*

NESTA APOLOGIZED FOR EARLIER IM SO PROUD

Did Elain have a vision? DID SHE???

“I want you to seduce him.” NESTA THE HIDDEN BARD ROLL FOR PERSUASION

Mor teaching Nesta the waltz? NESTA AND MOR CAN NOT HATE EACH OTHER

Are they back at their childhood home? Because oooooooooooof ✨ childhood trauma✨

MOR AND NESTA HAVING A CONVERSATION YAY!!!!! (This’ll make rping them so maybe easier)

“We’re in a book!” Holy shit they know. HIDE THE FANFICTION

The relationship between Nesta, Emery, and Gwyn is so wholesome

“Oh FUCK you” .... NESTA

“I was just checking on dessert” MOOD

MOR AND NESTA ARE HAVING A FRIENDLY CONVERSATION

I sense tension between amren and Nesta

ERIS WANTS NESTA????

“I’m not with you.” Lier

A SNOWBALL FIGHT WITH THE BATBOIS??? Holy shit they do have one(1) brain cell

A sleepover with Emery, Nesta, and Gwyn? SIGN ME UP

“Do it for the miniature Pegasus!” INSIDE JOKES

OOOOHHH i see the gwynriel ship

Wait....HER POWERS MADE THE HOUSE BE ALIVE??? Sweet

Alright 2 months til FEYSAND baby

The mating bond between cassian and Nesta?????.............

“Say it, SAY IT” GODS DAMN IT NESTA SAY THE FUCKING THING

So, Nesta’s afraid she’s gonna loose her humanity?

EMERIE NESTA AND GWYN ARE IN THE BLOODRITE? Fuuuuuuuuuck

OH NO EMERIE!!!!!!

“High Fae bitch” PUT THAT ON A SHIRT

OMG OMG OMG HELL YES VALKRIES

oh Cassian you restless bastard you

*hears Emerie’s backstory and their heart to heart* AWWWWWW I LOVE THEM

“The morrigan.” The fuck Eris?

“She’d hit the archway of stone” OOOOOOOOOOF

“For being my friends when I didn’t deserve it.” AWWWWWWWWWW

What about Feyre’s pregnancy???? Hewwo?

“Lord of bastards” heh true that’s cassian alright

Wait, OTHER set of wings

CASSIAN!!!!!!!!!!

“Now, I’m going to slit your little throat.” FUUUUUUUUCK NONONONOOOOO THIS ISNT CASS FUUUUCK

What’s the trove?

NONONONONOOOO WHYD HE GET STABBED SHIT HE GOT STABBED

Nesta’s pissed.....MAGIC TIME

wait wait wait wait wait HES NOT STABBED HELL YEAH!!!!

“You are my mate, Cassian.” ITS ABOUT FUCKING TIME

Nessian: kissing when the world is in ruin

“She started bleeding hours ago. “ BABY TIME???

*hears the blood and feyre’s appearance*!FUUUUUUUUUCK

So, no C section? OOOOOOH SHIT THEYRE DOING IT

IM SCARED IM SCARED IM SCARED

“Silent babe?” Shiiiiiiiiiiiiit

Nesta Nesta Nesta What the fuck are you doing???????? FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK

SHE HAS ALL 3! ONONONOOOOOFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK

OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOOOOOOSHE PLUCKED IT FUCK

SHE STOPPED TIME?????????

WHOS the female voice?

“ I love you, Feyre” SHE DID IT IM SO PROUD!!!!!

What is she doing what is she doing what is she doiiiiingggg?

GIVE WHAT BACK?????

WHAAAAAT? A BARGAIN WITH THE FUCKING CAULDRON???

feyres alive? FEYRE’S ALIVE!!!!!!!

NESTA THE MVP!!!!

*the sister hug* AWWWWWWWWWWW

AWWWWWW I LOVE THE NAME NYX!!!!

How much did the Cauldron take from Nesta, tho?

FEYSAND IS BEST PARENTS

Alright, I want to see LOADS OF WHOLESOME FANFICS AND FANART ABOUT DOMESTIC IC AND ELAIN AND NESTA GOT IT?

[jupitercentre]

answer all the dnd asks, troglodyte! *walks at you like spy tf2*

50 d&d questions

1. What do you think your d&d race would be?

I would say I’d just be a human honestly.

2. What class?

Ok so it would be the homebrew class you made called Gunslinger. Essentially it’s a class that uses guns exclusively and, in certain subclasses, some spells.

3. What two feats would you have?

Alert and Duel wielding 

4. What has been your favorite d&d character you've played? (NPCs count for DMs)

I’m still pretty new to d&d. Only been playing for a bit over a year actually. And I’ve only ever made one character. His name is Flynn and i’m not gonna lie. At first he was just the Doom Slayer but a little bit to the left. But then I actually wrote a backstory and made it my own character. I’m proud of what he’s become :3

5. Which of your d&d characters has been the most like you?

Well going off the fact that I’ve only ever made one character. Flynn has reflected my quite a but. In a lot of situations I actually see myself and not my character.

6. Which of your d&d characters has been the least like you?

I can’t really answer this honestly. 

7. How do you go about making a character or NPC?

I start with a fundamental idea. And just for example purposes. Flynn’s idea was literally just The Doom Slayer. And my reason for picking him is because he’s my favorite character of all time. And then I just keep developing on that until I have a character!

8. What is the most memorable natural 20 you've ever experienced?

At one point in a oneshot our group played we were at the final boss and I was about to do the finishing hit. I got a 20+2 and it was so satisfying to completely destroy it in one hit.

9. Has one of your d&d characters ever died? How?

Flynn has never died. Yet

10. What is your favorite class to play?

The only one I’ve played. Gunslinger!

11. Have you ever fought a dragon?

We haven’t fought an actual dragon but If you want to count a dragonborn then yes. Yes we have

12. Have you ever fought a beholder?

I personally haven’t. But my group has while I was away.

13. Have you ever fought a mind flayer?

We have never touched a mind flayer. As both players and DM’s

14. Have you ever had a romance with an NPC or another PC?

Funny story actually. In Flynn’s backstory his dimension was overrun by demons and they killed everyone he knew and loved. So when he got to the current dimension were playing in. He had ptsd to say the least. (ok maybe not so funny but whatever) So ironically enough after a while I got the ingenious idea to romance a demon that we helped near the beginning of the campaign. And so far it’s been fun to say the least. They go together well :3

15. Do you prefer to DM or play?

Well considering I have little to no DMing skills. I’m required by law to say playing heheh.

16. What is your favorite D&D pod/vodcast?

I haven’t listened to any. I want to listen to the adventure zone but you won’t let me because you want to watch the show with me.

17. Who is your favorite "celebrity dm?"

Matt Mercer. 

18. Do you use props/minis/terrain in your game?

I don’t dm yet. But I have plans too.

19. How did you discover D&D?

My friend @violettherainwing told me about it because you mentioned doing it. So now were here 

20. If you run a homebrew game, give an out of context spoiler.

Initiate Sector Sweep

21. Drop a picture of a mini you painted (if applicable)

I don’t have one

22. Write a brief scene centered around one of your characters!

Ok i’m breaking the rules a little bit I’m gonna describe the interaction between Flynn and Binary.Flynn went up to the roof to just hang out and think but then Binary came up and they started talking about where they both came from and where they think they’ll end up. It’s my favorite interaction between the two and I hope we do it again sometime. 

23. Do you have any art of your characters?

I don’t. Because i’m awful at drawing. And I just haven’t tried to.

24. Have you ever played any TTRPGs other than D&D?

I’ve played 7 seas with my girlfriends mom dming it. It was. And interesting experience to say the lease.

25. What is your favorite snack for d&d?

Toast honestly.

26. If you could have one potion from d&d, which one would you choose?

I don’t really want any of the potions honestly. So instead i’ll take an item. And that would be the ring of gender swapping. Reasons for that are, it’s a one time use thing, and also. I wanna change heheh.

27. If you could cast one spell from d&d, which would you cast?

Fabricate

28. What is the most memorable natural 1 you've experienced?

I got a natural 1 when I got in a drinking contest with Binary.  Flynn got hammered so goddamn fast.

29. Have you ever been drunk playing d&d?

No but I have been high before.

30. Homebrew or prewritten?

Homebrew all the way.

31. Tell me about your current party!

Our party is the embodiment of chaos. We are all stupid. But that’s what makes it good.

32. Most memorable NPC you've encountered in a game you played in.

Karkat Vantis in our d&d campaign Dungeon More Like Fungeon

33. Do you listen to music while playing? What kinds?

I have. Usually it’s what the dm plays. But I occasionally vibe to Camellia, Monstercat or Half alive If i’m not up to what’s playing.

34. Favorite accent to do for characters?

I don’t really do accents because we play on a discord server.

35. Favorite classic d&d trope

Gay bard

36. What was your first d&d character you made?

Flynn was. And he will forever stay my favorite.

37. What is the most recent PC or NPC you've created?

I did have an idea for an npc for my campaign but I can’t say what it is because of spoilers

38. Goblins or Kobolds?

Kobalds. You don’t see them nearly as often.

39. Favorite villain you've defeated?

Flynn’s ptsd lmao

40. What d&d deity would you be a cleric of?

Apollo

41. Give an out of context quote from one of your games!

“I can die for a few hours”

42. Have you ever rolled turn into a potted plant on the wild magic table?

I haven’t done this no

43. Minis and terrain or theater of the mind?

A mixture of both actually. I like a general layout of the area and then the fine details I like making up in my mind

44. Mulligan, Mercer, Murphy, or McElroy?

Matt Mercer.

45. What is the longest session you've ever had?

We played for like 7-8 hours. Maybe even longer. It was fun though :D

46. What is the longest battle you've fought or run?

I don’t remember what it was but it lasted a few hours.

47. Have you ever played at level 20?

Yes I have. It was chaotic! 

48. Does your DM say "How do you want to do this?"

All the time

49. Have you ever played an edition other than 5th?

I haven’t. I don’t think I will to be completely honest.

50. Who is your favorite member of your party aside from your own. God this is difficult. We have so many divers PC’s and NPC’s it’s really hard to come up with a favorite. But after thinking about it for a while. I’m gonna have to say Binary. His design and backstory is extremely unique and he reflects your creativity so well. I’m proud of you!

[stormbine]

Now that Chapter 2 has, three months later been released, let’s talk about it.

I had a number of ideas going in about how I would introduce the main conflict of Mercury Nine into the story proper, but what I dawned on me early on was that I wanted to make it sooner, not later. Just because you’re channeling a certain role model doesn't mean you have to drag things out or pace them in the same way, and while this novel is clearly based heavily on Neuromancer (and to a smaller extent, Shadowrun), I don’t have the same knack for, or motivation to, overly stylize the hell out of everything. 

Part of this is a notable weakness in my writing- historically, I’ve always struggled with describing characters physically/visually, often leaving them with character designs that, if not outright horrendous, then are at least really bland (at least to me). To make up for this, I do my best to thoroughly build up their characters as people, and hopefully let the audience sort out how they think the players look in their own mind. This hasn’t always worked out in the past- it’s especially difficult if the audience isn’t familiar with the genre you’re writing in, or worse, just isn’t all that good at visualizing people and things.

I try to compromise, then, by creating minor but important details that are important in some way to a character, or to the perception of that character to the audience. I’m mostly fond of hats in this regard, but physical discrepancies- a tattoo here, scars there, are also my favorites. I can’t describe things like high foreheads or square jaws outside of the stereotypical phrases I just used a few words before this one, but I can describe hair style and hair color, as it suits the character’s need. Compared to say illustration, this could lead into the oft commented upon but hardly rectified error of same face syndrome, but the fun part about writing is that you’re probably going to remember a character more based on how they act or who they are, rather than how they were described in text. A rare advantage words have over pictures, maybe?

Alas, same face syndrome has a brother in this world, too. We’ll call it same mook syndrome. Leaving aside that a mook usually refers to a hapless redshirt whose only purpose on screen is to die horribly, you can run into same mook syndrome if you write characters too generically, to the point where they’re indistinguishable from any other villain of the chapter. Previous readers of my last novel are probably going to notice odd similarities between Barron and Mason from Fadeout, annnnnd... I don’t have an excuse for this, I’m sorry. 

Sometimes every chaotic asshole needs a similarly chaotic mook with the stereotypical features you’d expect every overpowered mook to have. Tilt too far into making said mook a super special snowflake on their own, and you suddenly have a damning example of scope creep, which can be an annoying thing, or a good thing... 

...I’m looking at you, Boba Fett.

But I digress. A few things I learned from finally finishing this chapter, and from posting longer works previously...

1) In this modern age, people are less likely to browse and read text walls on Tumblr if they’re longer than, say, 1000-2000 words. Is this just me, or do some people just forget to push the cute heart at the bottom of the work? (pls no bully for unintentional plug).

2) If I’m going to sally forth with this webserial idea, it’d probably be best to chop down the postings to 2000 something words anyway, because it’d keep me from going insane. It’s not November- I shouldn’t feel like I’m racing against time to produce something each week in addition to my actual full time job and running a fanblog for a certain indie game at the same time.

3) Did I mention I’m now running a fanfic blog for a certain indie game? Fun stuff. It’s good to take a break from writing serious, depressing dystopic fiction from time to time, otherwise you go on the lam for three months.

With this Chapter cleared, I feel like I can comfortably put Mercury Nine into storage for little while, during which I’ll finish editing the next draft of Fadeout and work on producing a larger quantity of short fiction for everyone to read, to keep myself sharp. I want to get into the habit of posting regularly again, other hobbies not-distracting, so that when it comes time to spend evenings crying as I rush to meet deadlines for the web serial writing a story regularly, I can do so with minimal difficulty. You know, aside from designing several new characters, creating little backstories for them, filling them with hopes and feelings and then dropping them into hell dungeons which may or may not come back to bite me in the ass later. 

Heck, I managed to pull it off with the newly formed DnD 5.0 C’thulhu-based homebrew I’m running, so this should be a cinch. Right? Right?

We’ll see what happens I guess. And if you read this far into this particularly cringe-inducing journal entry, thank you again for being a reader. ^^

-Stormy