#I'm mad because I'm trying to find some better design patterns because I've just been cribbing off like...linux kernel and gdb and such

[rocket-penguin]

Internet Coder™: We're going to learn some low-level embedded techniques!

Internet Coder™: -heap allocates-

Internet Coder™: -uses OS call-

Internet Coder™: -uses stdlib string function-

Internet Coder™: -generally not careful with memory usage-

Internet Coder™: And that's how you write embedded code!

[zlurpii]

Unsent project + Total Drama OC Lore and Rushed OC Art

Sorry for my absence. I've been going through some really bad burnout as of lately. However, last night I came across the unsent project on tiktok (hearts4ashyyyy btw if u wanna follow I mostly post royale high content there but if u wanna check it out u can) and I decided to look up my name not thinking I'd find anything. Oh how wrong I was.

I'm 99% sure that this was made by my ex-gf/bff (it was complicated). She used to say I was a sister to her before we got together and the timing lines up since we stopped talking around the end of January of this year. I also know she likes the color red. Seeing this didn't really make me feel any better. Rather instead made me feel weird. I'm gonna be honest our friendship/relationship wasn't the healthiest (I'm not gonna say why since I'd rather not talk about that kinda stuff online) and seeing this made me kinda sad. Like yeah, she hurt me and made me feel like I was just a backup option but the times she would give me her full attention it was nice. A small part of me wants to go running back but I've done that too many times in the past with other toxic relationships, and it only hurt me more so I'm trying not to fall back into that pattern. (Sorry for the vent)

So how did I cope with this? Just like any other mentally ill girl with a passion for fanfiction and ocs, I turned it into oc lore!

Now you're probably wondering: "Ash since when did you have multiple total drama ocs?" Well technically only for a few months. The first girl is Blaire. Originally, the oc in Blaire's place was my ex's oc Cindy. However, after we stopped talking, I didn't want to steal her oc. 1. Because stealing ocs is wrong and 2. I was really pissed after we stopped talking so out of vengeance, I said I was gonna make a better looking, better written oc. And that was the birth of Blaire. Blaire is a scene kid who loves skating and motorcycles. She's really nice to almost everyone she meets but can be mean when pushed far enough. Blaire is Marilyn's ex-girlfriend. They broke up after Marilyn found out Blaire was cheating on her (it's a LOT deeper than that but I don't think now is the time explain who she cheated with and what really happened). When both girls joined TDROTI, they pretty much hated each other and due to Jo's encouragement and Marilyn's bottled-up rage about the situation, Marilyn started bullying Blaire. Despite all of this, Blaire still felt bad about what happened and wanted to fix things but after Marilyn had moved on and started dating Jo, she got really mad, and things became worse between them. Throughout All Stars they're rivalry continued. During All Stars, Blaire starts to realize that the guy she cheated on Marilyn with wasn't actually good for her. (There's more to this but like I said, not ready to talk about that). She also realizes that Marilyn has pretty much moved on and that she won't be able to get her back. She knows Marilyn is happier with Jo and that Marilyn would be better off without her. When Blaire gets eliminated, she tells Marilyn "Thanks for being there for me, hope you're happier without me." In this moment, Marilyn realizes everything she's done and all those feelings she kept bottled up finally come back. Marilyn feels like she finally has some closure to what happened. That's all I'll write for now since it's getting too long. Let me know if I should write a fanfic about this or something. Also happy pride month from the dumb lesbian who doesn't know how to keep an oc's design the same :D