#I'm still teaching myself to be confident with my art in its most basic form! | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

nitazenes · 3 days

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we get intermittent interest in our commissions

i think you should just go for it, even if there isn’t much interest

it can be really fun

i think you’re art is good enough, you just don’t give yourself enough credit-

;o; that means a lot!!! I admire you as an artist so that. means a lot to me <3

youre not the first person to tell me i dont give myself enough credit for my artwork. In any form of art.

I'm an artschool dropout, fun fact! I was entirely self taught. I learned to draw by looking at pictures and copying it freehand. so it wasnt like tracing or anything (although tracing can be a good way to practice) i learned to look at something and get my interpretation of it on paper.

But it got to a point where i thought, maybe, *maybe* i have something... worth pursuing.

So I went to a. well. its a prestigious art school

my professor was a well known charcoal artist in our area, i actually admired him as an artist

the drawing I turned in for the start of our class was criticized for my lack of detail work (im kind of. cartoony, not a lot of details) but the second project I turned in, i did it wrong. I swORE he said we could do the project in ink or charcoal, i chose ink bc i had never drawn with ink and wanted to be more confident with it. it was just a drawing of my desk. it was criticized as childish and my shaky lines displayed a clear lack of confidence and that my grasp on the fundamentals were obviously underdeveloped.

mine was the only inked one within a bunch of charcoal drawings and I wouldnt have even put mine up with the other projects if i knew i would be getting this kind of criticism.

One day I was sick and missed the first day of perspective. in drawing there is single point perspective, two-point perspective, and three-point perspective. you have to know how to do single in order to learn how to do 2 and 3 point. I missed the first day on first point perspective. I came back to class the day they were doing second point perspective and everything i tried to draw my prof would stand over my shoulder and tell me i was doing it wrong (bc i didnt know how to do it) and when you try to explain two point perspective to someone who doesnt know single point perspective, it just sounds like jibberish nonsense. my prof began to get frustrated with me and I started to cry so he walked away leaving me there amongst my classmates crying bc i couldnt understand. So I went home that night and had to watch several youtube videos to teach myself how first and second point were done.

The last straw was a still life he set up. everything was black, grey, or white. it was a practice on values

this was fun for us because, that was something we could do. was look at something and draw a rough rendition of it.

he told us at the beginning of class to buy white pastel and white chalk, right? you would think i was supposed to use that to make those white objects white, right?

you can see the white pastel on the saddle. but this is what i had done when my prof comes over and tells me i wasnt supposed to use any white, i was only supposed to retract charcoal with a kneaded eraser so i had to redo it and he considered this a fail. when you draw with charcoal, when you are done, you must spray fixative over it so the charcoal does not lift off the paper and get everywhere, it preserves it basically, lol you can see how dark some of the things are in this drawing, thats many layers of charcoal

this is what it looks like with less layers.

so you can see that the black blacks are thick charcoal. i intentionally did NOT spray fixative on my art piece, waited until about half of the class put their drawings in the turn in pile, i turned mine in with no fixative so my drawing was most likely destroyed but it also would have gotten an annoying amount of charcoal on anyone who touched it and on any projects on top of it.

i never went back.

so im a little hard on myself when it comes to art me thinks lol

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