#I'm still thinking about when he asks syd ''is my hair on fire'' bc that's actually so telling on several levels??? | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

swinging-stars-from-satellites · 2 years

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the running theme/repeating gag of people either thinking Carmy is the one who killed himself or comments being made along those lines, while at the same time everything he does is desperately, relentlessly fighting for life

#his own life but also the idea that in keeping the beef running he can in some way keep a part of michael alive too #idk just this is why I've got a little amv in my head with mcr's famous last words #I'm still thinking about when he asks syd ''is my hair on fire'' bc that's actually so telling on several levels???#(one of which is like. it just strikes me as weirdly showing the tentative connection between them??#bc i interpret it as him basically needing to be like... grounded to reality and syd is the one right there actually seeing it)#it's just like... that slight dissociation while WANTING to be in reality i guess???#idk but I've been thinking about that line for days and i feel like it fits in with this somehow as well #anyway just... the way subconsciously carmy is repeatedly and determinedly choosing life #even as he's haunted by michael's death and the concept of his own is kind of nagging at him #Lu rambles #the bear #meta finding tag

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