#INTROSPECTION.

[klaeus]

YOUR CHARACTER: in 10 quotes! tell us your favorite quotes from your character. give us an idea of who they are by the things they’ve said. then tag your friends.

❛ what some would call evil, i believe to be an appropriate response to a harsh and unfair world. ❜

❛ i am klaus mikaelson! i don't need anyone, nor will I be warned by lesser men. . . . i am the thing that lesser men fear. ❜

❛ you don't arm yourself after war has been declared, stefan. you build your army so big that no one ever dares pick the fight. ❜

❛ there is beauty in the courage of the fragile fighter. those that persevere, despite all they’ve been through, those who still believe there is good in the world. us dark things often find we need that light the most. ❜

❛ loneliness, stefan. that’s why you and i memorialize our dead. there’s the briefest of moments before we kill where we literally hold their life in our hands, and then we rip it away. and we’re left with nothing. so gathering other people’s letters or writing their names on a wall . . . it’s a reminder. that in the end we’re left infinitely, and utterly, alone. ❜

❛ they say the passage of time will heal all wounds, but the greater the loss, the deeper the cut, and the more difficult the process to become whole again. the pain may fade, but scars serve as a reminder of our suffering and make the bearer all the more resolved never to be wounded again. ❜

❛ over the course of my life, i've encountered no shortage of those who would presume to speak of good and evil. such terms mean nothing. people do what is in their best interest. ❜

❛ death offers more peace than you deserve. it's better to let you live. and each morning, you will wake knowing your wretched existence continues only by my will. now go, and live the rest of your days knowing that you are nothing to me. ❜

❛ if you knew even a fraction of who i am, it would break you in two! ❜

❛ you know, over the years, i've had my share of friends, enemies, lovers, losses, and triumphs. with time, they all begin to run together, but you will find the real moments are vibrant. the rest just fades away. your pain will fade. ❜

tagged by: @multi-royalty ♡ tagging: @salvatoraes, @walkeddeath, @selkshe, @vulpesse, @saralans, @sacrlegius and anyone else who wants to!

[hopedflight]

𝗗𝗘𝗠𝗘𝗔𝗡𝗢𝗨𝗥 𝗔𝗡𝗗 𝗠𝗔𝗡𝗡𝗘𝗥𝗜𝗦𝗠𝗦 𝗚𝗨𝗜𝗗𝗘.

tagged: @stilettobite tagging: @fleshcarverfugitive @bloodtwin @fortune-feather @luposcainus, & you!

-- BOLD all that applies || italics what applies on occasion

001.ㅤ 𝗘𝗬𝗘𝗦.

avoids eye contact when nervous, maintains eye contact when nervous. avoids eye contact due to being neurodivergent, enjoys eye contact as a means to read and convey emotion. looks down when emotional, looks up when emotional. cries openly, wipes tears quickly, suppresses tears. wandering gaze when lost in thought, holds gaze while thinking. seeks out eye contact for reassurance, seeks out eye contact to gauge enthusiasm during conversations, eyes move constantly during conversation. expressive eyes, emotions only evident through eyes, uses eye contact to intimidate. looks up while thinking, looks down while thinking.

002.ㅤ 𝗛𝗔𝗡𝗗𝗦.

clasps behind back, rests in lap, fidgets with clothes. twiddles thumbs, chews at nails/skin, pushes back cuticles, draws patterns on table/counter surfaces. animated gestures while speaking, only gestures to emphasize, utilizes sign language, speaks only through sign. callouses, scars, smooth, wrinkled, worn, soft, delicate, boney, slender, thick, veiny. touches others while speaking, reaches out while laughing, reaches out to comfort others,reaches out to seek comfort. places face in hands when exasperated, places face in hands when exhausted, places palms over eyes to hide when overwhelmed, rests chin in hands. taps fingers when impatient, taps fingers when nervous, taps fingers while thinking. scratches scalp, strokes chin, rubs back of head, toys with objects around them, runs fingers over surfaces while walking by.

003.ㅤ 𝗠𝗢𝗨𝗧𝗛.

chews lip, chews at inside of cheek, licks lips, bites tongue, chews on straws. resting frown, resting smile, neutral resting expression, resting pout. grinds teeth, flexes jaw. covers mouth when laughing, covers mouth when shocked, covers mouth when concerned, hands to lips while thinking, covers mouth when chewing, chews with mouth closed, chews with mouth open. smirks, grins, subtle smile, wide smiles, sad smiles, intimidating smiles, menacing grins. openly smiles, tries to suppress smiles, bares teeth when angry, lips quiver when emotional. stutters, speaks quickly, speaks slowly, good pronunciation, poor pronunciation, moderate pronunciation. purses lips, sucks in lips, holds mouth open when shocked or confused.

004.ㅤ 𝗟𝗘𝗚𝗦.

bounces leg when nervous. draws knees to chest when sitting, draws knees to chest as a means of comfort, sits on knees, sits with legs crisscrossed, sits with legs spread open in chairs, crosses legs when sitting in chairs, sits with one leg folded under the other. places feet on furniture, never places feet on furniture, sits on counters, sits on desks, sits on tables, sits on edge of seat, sits hunched over with forearms on knees, arches one knee up, sits on the arm of chairs/couches, feet on dashboard, swings legs back and forth when sitting somewhere elevated. wiggles toes when nervous, wiggles toes as a general tick. shuffles feet, kicks foot into ground, stomps feet. loud footsteps, quiet footsteps, silent footsteps.

005.ㅤ 𝗛𝗔𝗜𝗥.

runs fingers through hair, tugs at hair, picks at scalp, chews on hair, twists locks of hair while thinking or nervous, smooths out locks of hair while thinking or nervous. prefers hair out of face, prefers long hair, prefers short hair. wears hair back, keeps hair down, smooths back hair. plays with other’s hair while talking, plays with own hair while talking, strokes hair to comfort others, likes having hair stroked for their own comfort, braids others’ hair while talking, braids own hair while talking. flips hair out of face, pushes hair out of face, leaves hair alone even when falling into face.

[allthatwas-moved]

I BRING LIFE:‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎(EDITS,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎10.)

churching,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎kristin chang.‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎/‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎little red riding wolf,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎jason schneiderman.‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎/‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ �� ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎prelude to becoming holy,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎brynne rebele-henry.‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎/‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎the chronology of water: a memoir,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎lidia yuknavitch.‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎/‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎940 main street,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎erin moran.‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎/‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎unknown.‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎/‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎parting of the ways,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎r.ussell t. davis.

[denniisa]

from the very first season,  we are shown that dennis cares a  lot  about his physical appearance.  a lot of fans argue that this is his vanity and narcissism,  but i truly think that it is in a eating disorder.  as someone with an eating disorder,  i see a lot of my food habits and behaviors in dennis words/actions.  at the very end of this you will find a list of multiple episodes with direct quotes from the show showing this behavior.  this meta is going to go under a read more because i will be talking in detail about eating disorder behavior, also it just got really long and kind of away from me. please keep this in mind when you read this !!

dennis often worries about his appearance,  asking for validation from others to tell him that he looks good or he is in shape.  there are also often times when dennis critiques someone else's physical appearance,  commenting about how fat they’ve gotten or how out of shape they are.  i think that this is him projecting his own insecurities onto others.

the show does go into great detail about dennis eating habits,  and i’m going to list a few of them here:

restricting his food intake

fasting for a day, or multiple days at a time

exercising multiple times a day

not eating gluten, sugar, or dairy

concerned about calorie contents in food

over eating during periods when he feels anxious

purging when he feels like he has eaten something toxic

drinking hard liquor instead of beer because it contains a lot of "empty calories"

becoming physically ill when he ingests something that has a higher calorie count than he is used to

dennis also worries a lot about his physical appearance. in the show he dyes his hair and puts on makeup to make sure that he is always looking his best. he is frequently worried about other peoples perception of him.

i do think that his eating disorder behavior partially comes from his need to be seen as desirable and attractive, but i do think some of it also comes from his desperate need for control over something. dennis is often controlling others and manipulating things behind the scenes, and ends up going into rage filled rants when things do not go as planned. he has specific systems for everything, and he hates when things feel out of control.

i think ultimately dennis really struggles with the idea of being good enough. i think he tries very hard to appear 'attractive' because he feels like that is what he needs to do. when he was younger, he was clearly his mothers favorite sibling. barbara has admitted that in the show and it is not just speculation. she put an insane amount of pressure on dennis from a very young age to be the very best he can be. i believe this is also part of the reason why dennis often manipulates his personality and puts on a different 'mask' depending on the situation.

i'm not sure exactly what eating disorder he has, i'm feeling like if he were every to get a diagnosis he would probably be diagnosed with something like ednos ( eating disorder not otherwise specified ). dennis shows symptoms of anorexia, bulimia, and orthorexia.

alright, now into the quotes to back up my claims about dennis' eating disorder. there are multiple instances in canon that dennis shows the symptoms of his eating disorder.  i have probably missed a few of these,  but under the cut you can find some quotes from various episodes that really stood out to me. i think these moments really show dennis' eating disorder and the symptoms of it.

the gang exploits a miracle,  s2e7: 

dennis: does my face look fat to you ?? dee: yeah dennis: no no don’t screw with me here seriously … it’s just the tv right ?? dee: no it’s been looking fat den: hey matty matthew mara (cricket): hey dennis how are you ?? dennis: i’ve been better,  i’ve been better.  let me ask you a question man. um … i know it’s been years since we’ve seen each other but does my face look fat to you ?? cricket: well we’ve all put on a few since high school dennis: of course, of course,  but i don’t look fat right ?? cricket: uhm no.  dennis,  a few moments later: check it out though,  why did you pause before you said no earlier? cricket: i’m sorry ?? dennis: well earlier when i asked you if my face looked fat you kind of paused  cricket: i’m … not sure.  dennis: hello ( gestures towards himself,  sucking in his cheeks ) dee: what is wrong with you ?? dennis: ugh well i’ve been fasting for three days so i probably look good. dee: you haven’t eaten anything for three days ?? dennis: and i feel great ( said slurred,  looks woozy ) frank: why the hell are you fasting dennis: well i thought i would get into the spirit of the religious aspect that we got going- dee: it’s ‘cus we said his face looks fat dennis: it is not i … p-people have been fasting for thousands of years- dee: face looks fat dennis: -for heath and religious purposes.  moses- dee: fat face dee then continues to talk over dennis while saying over and over again that he looks fat,  that his face is fat, ect.  frank: lets find some coffee sober him up dennis stares off into the distance for a few seconds, not responding frank: did you hear me ?? dennis: hm ?? frank: dennis … i think you really gotta eat.  dennis: no i just spaced out for a second … what’s up ?? dee: whoa,  you are not lookin' good, huh ?? dennis: truth,  truth. face fat ?? dee: no, you idiot.  your face is fine.  i just got mad that you called mine blotchy. dennis: oh.  why-why-why ... dee: what ?? dennis: why you do that ?? dee: oh, um, because you're a bad person. a few moments later dennis ends up passing passing out due to the fact that he hasn’t eaten in several days. 

the gang gets whacked pt 2,  s3e13

frank: you leave everything to me.  all you have to do is sit there,  relax,  have yourself a drink,  and just keep lookin’ handsome. dennis: okay i like that arrangement get me a beer frank!  frank: oh,  no beer.  too many calories.  it’s all about keeping this body fit.  i’ll get ya a nice vodka tonic.  dennis: well that doesn’t have much calories so i think that’s a smart drink.

sweet dee has a heart attack,  s3e10

dennis and dee are at the gym,  discussing what type of physique they want to achieve by working out dennis: i don’t wanna get too bulky.  i wanna stay nice and lean and tight.  i want that jesus on the cross look. dee: i see what you’re saying. dennis: jesus had the right idea,  no pain no gain.

the nightman cometh,  s4e13

charlie: dennis, what are you doing ?? dennis,  eating baby sized snickers bars: i'm eating because I'm very uncomfortable.

mac and dennis break up,  s5e9

now i’m not exactly sure if this counts as  disordered eating  but it very well could be,  either disordered talk/beliefs.  i can see this being more related to dennis’ autism and desiere for structure,  but i do think it is related to dennis needing some control over his food. dennis: oh do me a favor.  peel this apple for me please ??  dee: no !!  no,  i’m not going to peel an apple for you. dennis: but mac always does it for me. dee: why does mac peel your apples for you ??  dennis: he doesn’t like for me to eat the apples with the skin on it.  he says the skins are loaded with toxins they argue for a bit more,  and then dennis shouts about how he is not “allowed” to eat apples with the skin on them.

the gang gets a new member,  s6e8

dennis orders salads for himself,  mac,  schmitty,  and frank for lunch.  when schmitty comments that he would prefer linguini,  dennis says  “linguini is too heavy for lunch”.  

frank’s pretty woman,  s7e1

mac: this is getting ridiculous dude.  we’re getting older we’re not going to look older. dennis: no i am going to look twenty forever,  mac.  because the older i get the more vigilant i become.  alright,  i don’t eat lunch anymore for instance.  yeah !!  and on odd days i don’t eat breakfast. mac: that sounds miserable. dennis: no dude,  it’s not miserable.  well,  yeah it is a little bit.  but it has to be man !!  no pain no gain !!  i am also constantly in motion.  like right now ??  dude,  i am doing leg lifts that are imperceptable to the human eye.  call ‘em hummingbirds.  and although i seem relaxed,  i’m actually incredibly tense at all times.  a few moments later a doctor goes over mac and dennis’ medical test results doctor: well i see severe dehydration here,  multiple vitamin deficiencies,  anemia,  low blood pressure. dennis: mac,  i don’t want you to fret okay i’m gonna get you on my exercise program,  i’m gonna get you fit as a fiddle. doctor: no these … these are your results mister reynolds.  a few moments later,  dennis almost passes out and says he hasn’t eaten anything all day.

the high school reunion pt. 2: the gangs revenge,  s7e13 

dennis: yeah i’m wearing a little bit of makeup,  who doesn’t- tim murphy’s wife: and a girdle  dennis: yeah i wanted to seem thin for the occasion,  that’s not weird.

mac day,  s9e5

dennis,  while eating chips:  carbs wise this is gonna set me back but i don’t even give a shit.

dennis takes a mental health day, s16e8

dennis is trying to order a tea for himself but the employee at the boba tea shop informs him that he cannot order tea without boba. dennis: you know, so, I'll take the tea without the covert diabetes delivery mechanism, please.

[ratkiing-a]

gans media retro games by hot mulligan & season 15 episode 8 of it's always sunny in philadelphia.

[spiritdreamt]

songs and quotes for the muse ♥ under the cut 'cause it's long tagged by: @shilohgreen tagging: @allevils, @publicabsent, @painmon, @slashaer, @dumbthink, @princetorn, and you!!

five SONGS for my muse:

—bag of bones by mitski. mercy on me, would you please spare me tonight? / i'm tired of this searching, would you let me let go? / and i can take a little bit more / let's shake this poet out of the beast.

—liability by lorde. the truth is, i am a toy that people enjoy / 'til all of the tricks don't work anymore / and then they are bored of me. / i know that it's exciting, running through the night, but / every perfect summer's eating me alive until you're gone.

—styrofoam plates by death cab for cutie. you're a disgrace to the concept of family / the priest won't divulge that fact in his homily / and i'll stand up and scream if the mourning remain quiet / you can deck out a lie in a suit, but i won't buy it / ... and just 'cause he's gone, it doesn't change the fact / he was a bastard in life, thus a bastard in death.

—fake out by fall out boy. do you laugh about me whenever i leave? / or do i just need more therapy? / love is in the air, i just gotta figure out a window to break out / buried alive inside my dreams, but it was all a fake-out.

—waiting room by phoebe bridgers. and when broken bodies are washed ashore / who am i to ask for more, more more? / but you're breathing in my open mouth / you're the gun in my lips that will blow my brains out / i want to make you drive all night just because i said maybe you should come over / i want to make you fall in love as hard as my poor parents' teenage daughter / she'll be the best you ever had, if you let her.

five QUOTES for my muse:

she does know the earth / is run by mothers, this much / is certain. she also knows / she is not what is called / a girl any longer. regarding / incarceration, she believes // she has been a prisoner since she has been a daughter. persephone the wanderer, by louise glück.

i'll hurt myself first. i know the places that are the most delicate. i'll do the hurting from now on, as long as all of this stops!!! the secret diary of laura palmer, by jennifer lynch.

i was a very lonely child and it's funny but the first word that comes to my head is "starved." i felt starved of affection, starved of love and i felt that it wasn't ok to ask for it. maybe there was a sense that if i deserved it, it would be there. there must be something i'd done which meant i didn't deserve it. to die for, by carol lee.

i had a room to myself as a kid, but my mother was always quick to point out that it wasn't my room, it was her room and i was merely permitted to occupy it. her point, of course, was that my parents had earned everything and i was merely borrowing the space, and while this is technically true i cannot help but marvel at the singular damage of this dark idea: that my existence as a child was a kind of debt and nothing, no matter how small, was mine. that no space was truly private; anything of mine could be forfeited at someone else's whim. in the dream house, by carmen maria machado.

i'm a strange new kind of inbetween thing aren't i / not at home with the dead nor with the living. antigonick, by anne carson.

[n0velaes]

lydia martin use drawing system when dreams and premonitions ( stated in the movie that i'm taking because why not ), to resolve case. she also started her own mystery agency alone. wanting to protect people that approach her with weird dreams and people needing help in general.

[klaeus]

what have i done lately, other than cooperate? i bow down to you, brother, to make up for daggering you. for the greater good of our plan to reclaim our home. looked the other way, sister, while you repeat the same cycle with marcel. falling again for a man you shouldn't be with, while he controls the empire that we built! that he took! now, i make no excuses for past sins. but in the one moment when you two could have chosen to stand by me -- to believe in me, to believe my intentions for my own child were pure -- you chose to stand against me, to side with my enemies. i wanted our home back. now i have it. so, i'm going to live there. and the two of you … you can stay here together and rot.

[hopedflight]

i think about that post about 'characters with prey animal rage' and fely'ene a lot, actually.

because she is so peaceful and sweet. her default when encroached on is freeze or fawn. she makes herself intentionally so small and timid and tries to be antithesis everything she knows people assume drow females to be.

but she's not helpless. and i think, that is one of the most fascinating things about her. is she is timid and easily startled. she is always trying to keep the peace and resolve things peacefully. but if she feels cornered, if she feels threatened to where talking her way out of something cannot be done?

she very quickly can become a terrifying force. whether that is fighting back with every thing in her arsenal or acting like a drow noble woman would be expected to behave, she will fight back when she is cornered, and she will not pull punches.

she made it through lolth clerical school almost to graduation. she dissociated through most of what happened as a way to mentally protect herself, but she isn't above doing what she has to for survival.

while she serves eilistraee now, who is associated with reconciliation and seeks peace amongst drow and the surface races, eilistraee does not typically oversee the peace domain. and fely'ene has claws she can use when she needs to, even if she'd rather not have to.

[allthatwas]

on:‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎the moment taking on the form of r.ose tyler,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎the form of the b.ad wolf.

d.octor who, "the day of the doctor".‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎/‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎cheryl strayed, "tiny beautiful things: advice on love and life from dear sugar".‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎/‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎unknown.‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎/‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎mary szybist, "annunciation under erasure".‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎/‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ocean vuong, "on earth we're briefly gorgeous".‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎/‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎haruki murakami, "norwegian wood".‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎/‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎avina st. graves, "skin of a sinner".

[denniisa]

okay so i'm going to go off about this scene from season 7 episode 4 ( sweet dee gets audited ). first of all i am going to start off by saying this is a half silly, half serious conversation. yes, they are talking about getting laid but i think you can learn a lot about dennis from this scene. i will be writing out what is said in the video but i highly encourage watching it if you have the time ( it's just a couple minutes long ) because there's something about dennis' tone and frank's tone in it that is very very important.

okay first of all let's just take a look at the beginning of the conversation between dennis and frank here.

dennis: it’s important to me frank !!  and i know what’s important to you is money and power but i don’t want real power because with real power comes real responsibility and i don’t want any of that shit !! i just want the money and the illusion of power … and puss.  frank: what !?

first things first, this is the closest we get to dennis admitting that he likes the illusion of power, not actual power. he often manipulates people to get control over a situation, get the power, keep the power, ect. he wants all of this power and control without the real responsibility behind it. i think that dennis doesn't want the real responsibility because it actually means showing up, caring for people. he had an incredibly difficult time expressing and processing his emotions and that's not even a headcanon. he has admitted that in canon.

something that is really interesting to me is that frank is genuinely confused by his answer, and he really wants to know what dennis is thinking. frank and dennis have an incredibly complicated relationship. this is the man he thought was his father for 30+ years, the man that raised him ( quite terribly mind you ). this is a man that has traumatized him over and over again and frank is actually wanting to hear him out. dennis pushes back, doesn't want to talk about his emotions, but frank pushes him. and then we get this.

dennis: hell i don’t know frank, i don’t know man. frank: what ?? tell me, tell me.  dennis: i need something. i mean i got this uh ... this giant gaping hole inside me. and i’m always trying to fill it with something.  i like to call it uh … my uh god hole. and i think a lot of people in this world they … they fill it with religion but i don’t believe in god.  frank: but you wanna fill it with pussy ?? dennis: yeah.

i'm gonna get into the meat of this in a second but i want to talk for a moment about how sincere frank is here. he is actually trying to understand dennis more, he's actually wanting to listen and learn and help. instead of just pushing dennis away, saying he doesn't get it, he pushes. he even puts his arm on dennis when he ways "tell me". i think this really shows that in some warped way, frank cares so much for dennis and loves him. i think frank is honestly trying to make amends for all the times that he was absent in dennis' childhood. he didn't give dennis an opportunity to talk about his feelings in the past, but he's giving him the opportunity to talk about it now. because yeah, dennis is talking about wanting to get pussy, but it's clear that he is distressed. so instead of just joking around and talking about getting laid, frank wants to listen.

now we are gonna jump back a little bit to season one because i think it's important. in season 1 episode 2 dennis is having a conversation with his sister, dee.

dee: are you actually going to throw away all your convictions for a chance to get laid ?? dennis: i don't really have any convictions.

dennis is known for being this master of women. he's charming, attractive, and can get pretty much any woman to sleep with him if he wants to. it doesn't matter what it takes, he will do it. i believe that part of this is a mask that he puts on, a role he thinks he needs to play because that's what men do. they get laid and brag about it and talk about their body count and how impressive it is. i do not think this is what dennis wants.

back to my original point.

dennis is chasing after some feeling of being whole by sleeping with people over and over again and it just never comes. he feels empty, hollow. he is trying to fill this "god hole" with anything, anything that gives him validation and temporary relief. so he fills it with sex, alcohol, crack, whatever will give him his fix. he lives with mac, someone that is so full of faith and chases after gods validation. dennis cannot find that validation in religion. i just think it's so interesting and how difficult it must be for dennis at times to listen to mac go on and on about how great god is when to dennis he feels like god failed him. like there is no god to begin with because if there was why would he feel so empty and why would so many terrible things have happened to him ??

dennis reynolds is an empty person. he is broken and hollow and he doesn't know how to fix it, he doesn't know what to do. he has no idea how to get help. he continues to surround himself with people that perpetuate this cycle of self destruction. the whole gang is broken, they all are seeking comfort in vices to get them through the day. i think, for some of them, they do not realize that this is what they are doing. i think dennis is fully aware of this self destructive cycle he is trapped in. he recognizes it, but he doesn't know how to get out, or what to fill his emptiness in that is healthy and safe.

[ratkiing-a]

when charlie writes his name he writes it as "cat" because mac taught him ( as a bit ) that it's the correct way go spell charlie and I do not think I will ever be over that.

like I mean .... come on. AAAA

[deityforged]

Sb: you can’t keep calling grown ass men baby girl

Ashmi:

[allthatwas-moved]

god i just think rose would start to lose connection to being called rose for so many reasons ... like that was her name when she was fully human, she was born rose, and rose was who she was.

then rose becomes b.ad wolf, completely renames herself in that state: "i am the bad wolf" that is who she is, that is WHAT she is.

then rose dies. jack h.arkness sees her name on the list of all the dead, and went for years thinking she was dead. all her friends thought she was dead, because: she was, according to the government.

then she comes back to earth, where rose ty.ler is considered dead, and then left back in pete's world. where she doesn't think she belongs, where she KNOWS she doesn't belong.

and then everyone there starts forgetting her, the universe knows they're no rose shaped hole to fill, and people keep asking ehr "what's your name again?" "who are you?" and who is she? she doesn't even know...

so when everyone she loved had forgotten her or abandoned her .... she comes back here and needs help, and she almost wants to reject that past life, reject who she was in favor of who she can be: she can create herself now, but goes with a name that's still tied to two people who she cares about that are on earth... right?

[engin3er]

WEBWEAVE + cate & melanie

[ratkiing]

thinking about bunny and candy ... thinking about how much they probably tormented charlie. like ... the few moments we see of charlie's sisters they are awful. they quite literally call charlie and mac the f slur within seconds of seeing them. they really seem to hate charlie for how weird he is, how different he is. i bet when charlie was younger they bullied him a lot even though he was older than them. bunny and candy are twins, so i bet they were really close. from what we see of them, and how bonnie gave them the family heirloom she had originally promised to charlie, i bet bonnie babied the shit out of them.