#Imaginary Softwoods - Mr. Big Volume

[darkarfs]

I think I'll cap the GoFundMe at $850. It's more than I ever thought I'd get and I can find a way to get the last bit myself. You all have humbled me and shown me that I'm worth the friends I have made over the years. I clearly am doing something right, right? I would like people who don't know me to stop asking if the foot is a byproduct of diabetes. I had blood drawn in October and they didn't mention my blood sugar. People assume that if you're of a certain weight and you have a foot issue, it must have something to do with your diet or diabetes. Wouldn't the nerves be dead or dying in my foot were it that? Wouldn't there be swelling, tingling, any of that? Wouldn't I not be able to feel the cuts on my hands and feet, and wouldn't they not heal properly due to poor circulation? Wouldn't I have had by now any of the other symptoms of that? I know people are concerned, but maybe don't start with a terrifying disease that I absolutely cannot afford to treat. I'm reacting defensively because the idea scares me, but also just because everyone immediately jumps to my weight being the issue. You won't hear from me again until after Christmas. I'm going to see my mom. It's been a year. We're having lasagna and Fresca. You all have been so good to me, and if I'm in any position to help any of y'all in the future, please reach out. Forever grateful, humble and big-headed at the same time. Love you all, and do your best to have a merry Christmas.