#Its only 10h per week so nothing crazy but yeah... Idk i... I have always had lovely people around me who i love | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

mrfoox · 1 year

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Um. I told Oliver that I'm... Genuinely happy/content with my life

And cried bc i realize that's like the first time I've truly felt that way? Ever. The one by one big thing I want is an life partner otherwise... I think my life is good?

#miranda talking shit #From my standards i guess like... Ideally id have an education . Well paying and stable job and shit #But like... With my mental issues i probably wont ever have that but now i got... Part time work for at least 10 months ...#I can afford my bills... Food... I am getting payed from the government but now at least i am doing work for that pay #Its only 10h per week so nothing crazy but yeah... Idk i... I have always had lovely people around me who i love #Thats been my bright spot since 2017 but my mental health has been garbage #Now i... I live on my own with my cats... I do still have social workers who come help me with stuff but overall #I am so much more independent than i ever thought id be. I am like... I think i am genuinely happy?#I havent felt awful mentally for more than like half a day since last year. Usually i had suicidal thoughts daily #I. Genuinely didn't think I'd ever feel this... Not just okay but good? Nothing is perfect but i never wanted things to be #They are just ... Simple... But it's ... Im happy ? Im scared tl say i am really . Its been months but it still feels like it'll #All change and crash if i say i am. I just ... .... I think for the first time ever i am happy that im alive. Thay i didnt end my life #Previously. 25 years. 15 of those years with depression and more shit but now it's ...#Its so weird like i am not DOING anything really differently. Things are mundane and simple but my medication has helped #So much... And im still me? I think ?

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