#JAYMAKESMYDAY

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Jay said they love me so like I’d wanna be me if I were y’all @jay-scenarios

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2 with Wonho, Changbin, BM

Mmm big men

Oh- Ohhhhhh, oh boy um

2. Kiss / Kick / Kill

Kiss - Wonho, those lips look so soft pls-

Kick - Changbin, Leo vs Leo!! 🦁

Kill - BM, PURELY because of the Tik Tok fuckboi energy, DON’T KILL ME PEOPLE

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✨Hoeflation✨ @jay-scenarios

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January 31st, 2020, 4 years ago, it’s so crazy to say. If someone would have told me four years ago that I would meet someone like you in my life, I’d call them insane, I was always so closed off and in my own little bubble and you’re telling me I would meet someone that feels like a childhood best friend? I usually never reach out first but for some reason, I reached out to you, and gods am I thankful and happy. I remember when we were first learning each other, growing closer say by day. We are finally here, from all the late-night talks about traveling places together, screaming about literally anything it feels like, to me flying alone for the first time to come see you in person and have some of the best experiences in my life. You brought me out of my shell so much, even if it seems like I’m still in it, but you have help me through so many internal fears and worries I have had and I can’t imagine not having you as my best friend.

I remember when I used to always try and convince you to move over here and we ended up just laughing it off, and now almost to the day 4 years later we're doing it- I was worried you wouldn't like it in person here but to hear that you felt happier and that it wasn't just because of me, that made me so happy and excited for the move, excited to see you blossom as who you really are now that you get to fully express yourself. Whoops it's now the first night at the new place, everything has been happening so fast that my mind has been racing. I keep walking past your room like it’s the 2nd already and you’re here, I hope the slippers fit- Anyway, this is getting pretty long I guess so I’ll leave it here. Happy friendiversary to one of the most amazing souls I know and someone that I have the honor of having in my life, see you in a few days 💖 @jay-scenarios

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Movie night with @jay-scenarios is just

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“That’s a sad song, that’s a horny song, that’s…Vanessa Hudgens”

- Jay

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3 with DPR Ian, Yunho, JayB (:

EXCUSE ME HOW DARE YOU AHHHHHH

3. Cook with / Work with / Shower with

Cook with - DPR Ian cause he gives off a very specific type of cook vibe like this guy I saw in tik tok and now I’m thinking up scenarios and SIGH

Work with - Jay B, he knows how to get shit DONE and HANDLED!!!

Shower with - Yunho :)) need I say more?? Gently shampooing my hair 💖

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💌 Send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart, and if you get five back, you must be pretty awesome.💌

I SMILED SO BIG SHUSH

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NOT THE PET HOTEL

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SPARKLEEE + GREEN + LIGHT BLUE BUT MAKE IT A FLOWER MEADOW INSTEAD OF WATER 🤍🤍🤍🤍

AHHHHHHH YES TO THE FLOWERS, AND YOU GONNA MAKE ME SMILE TOO MUCH SHUSH

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Round Two, Day 3

We’ve been here before, a morning like this, packing things and figuring out what we want to eat. A tone in the air that we both aren’t going to acknowledge yet, it’s not time to yet. Right now it's time to take you to some of my usual spots and my other favorite spot in town. The new lifestyle store that opened a week or two ago had a line that was definitely not worth sitting out in that heat so the next best option is the cute cafe in the same plaza! You said it was so sweet and to be honest, mine was really sweet too but I was too caught up talking to you about tarot to even notice.

Next stop? My favorite cafe in my whole town, of course, the chicky cafe!! You kept wanting to go since I mentioned it and see!! I was right, it's super cute! They have a few other locations that I want to go to but for now, this is it. On the way here we had a moment that really touched me and made everything sink in deeper. I told you more details about my Grandpa and while I will not talk about the conversation here for everyone to see, you and I know what was realized and what we teared up over. Thank you by the way, for that...I really needed it.

Here we are, the final stop, I didn't get to write this portion until I was leaving the airport. You told me no crying, you told me that in California and you told me that again here but you and I both know I don't listen when you tell me not to cry. The walk down the hallway to the tsa line felt so long yet so short and I could feel the weight on my shoulders, you probably could too right? I stayed there, watching you walk in tsa until the hallways got busy and I couldn't see you, did you see me waiting? I was worried you wouldn't find your gate tbh but by the time you had told me you did, I was bawling my eyes out in the car. I know you'll fuss at me when you see this but I cried that whole 30 minute drive back to my area, I even stopped at a cafe and got a slushy because I needed to just sit. My home had flown off and here I am thinking back on the trip and being a big baby in public, but we all know I would. You're in Denver now and getting some food and I'm getting ready to shower for work tomorrow, it still doesn't feel real and feel like it happened, but that's how we usually are right? everything is just so natural that it just feels normal, that's probably why the airport hurts the way it does. But like we said last time, see you next year, and we shall manifest it again. I love you so much and you're my best friend in this lifetime and in all the others to come. 💖💞 See you next year and thank you for being you and everything you do.

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Round Two, Day 2

What a ride today was, you got to hang out with the men, we all went to an arcade, the Barbie movie, and then a spa? We were busy busy huh?

First the arcade was great, a bit of a drive but tons of fun!! I’ve never been to that one so it was a new experience for me too, I learned you have faster reflexes and that I know how to break a bowling game. We actually had a good bit of tickets and got a big pufferfish!! He’s going to go right next to Ratatouille from last year 💖 I got some good pictures of you that I’m going to try and use for this Tik Tok trend I saw a while back so I hope I can figure it out, BECAUSE IF I CAN ITS GONNA BE SO CUTE AND YOULL BE SO PROUD.

Barbie was so funny and adorable and I’m sorry I had a coughing fit during it but I loved it so much and our giant ass drinks that we definitely didn’t finish. I think we should add going to the movies as a part of the yearly tradition.

THE SPA, I’m so happy I got to share one of my happy places with you, and you seemed to genuinely enjoy it so I was extra happy. I had no idea chilling in a bath together would feel so nice? The spa felt so much more relaxing that it already does, I was so calm and not overthinking and was something I definitely want to do again, maybe earlier in the night so we can spend longer there. The lights are off and you fell asleep by now, I could tell you were ready to knock out so get some good rest. 💖

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Round Two, Day 1, Part 2

I’m not used to someone being pretty much awake either before me or when I get up, it’s pretty nice to not be the only one alive only for us to die tonight.

Shopping day!! I didn’t take you everywhere because some lines were horrible or we were on a time crunch BUT we did get to visit some cute places. Kinokuniya was still in it’s soft opening and didn’t have their full stock but it still had to many cute things and all those tarot cards were too cute!! We got to add to our matching collection and I think we have picked a theme for them.

We got some snacks for the hotel room and my mandatory banana milk and off to chick-fil-a we go! To the hotel we go to watch an episode of that fucking drama and rest up before an amazing night.

Our outfits are on point as usual 😌 but did you expect any less? We look like we are going to two completely different events but that’s okay, it’s fitting. I’m not even upset that I didn’t cut up the shirt. Thank you for the GOOD ASS alcohol as the show, oh they are here brb…

The energy at KARD concerts are truly something else, no one is being rude, everyone feels so chill and friendly and it just felt like a genuinely good room to be in, a bunch of drinking age people just chilling and getting wild together. J.Seph twerking will forever be saved in our text thread.

I remember you asking me when I haven’t been posting by the days, and all I wanted to do was smile and tell you to shush, because here I am having everything planned out so they post while you are at the airport so you have reading material and so I don’t see you read it cause I’ll cry.

The show was honestly amazing and I like how we have figured out green is out trip themes, which is pretty funny because I didn’t even realize. You asked me how I was feeling and I said bittersweet, you didn’t ask why, you didn’t pry at it, you just clarified by saying “about the concert~” in that sweet tone you get when you can tell I have something on my mind.

Cheers to an magical night yet again and another group down, a whole list of artists to go! Now let’s get back to these tarot readings and being silly to get this energy out before bed.

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Round Two, Day 1, Part 1

This morning, how do I feel this morning. Just as I did the night before my flight to California last year, this surreal feeling that is way too hard to put into words. We have done this before so why am I still acting like a kid on Christmas? The day can’t go by fast enough, I’m so ready to get off work and have an hour to freshen up and come get you. I’ve planned this day out since the moment you gave me your arrival time. 7:40pm Thursday.

Well… your ORIGINAL arrival time

Here I am, standing in the middle of an isle at work and seeing the “UHHHHHH MY FLIGHT WAS CANCELLED????” Message on discord and my heart immediately sunk, no no no this cannot be happening. This trip has to happen, I have to see you again. I’m still frozen in this stupid ink isle while you’re counting down the number of people in line ahead of you for customer service as you talk about your fear of your bag getting lost.

I refused to move from my spot until we had a new plan, a solution at least, and that solution? You getting here at 1:15am Friday morning, definitely a delay but as long as you get here!

That’s exactly what you did and I’m sorry my airport instructions were terrible but you’re here, you’re actually here, it’s actually happening again. We found each other after staring at the “find my” screen your entire arrival, and somehow managing to hold back the urge to tackle you in a even bigger hug than the one I gave you. It didn’t even hit me until we were in my car, singing and dancing together as I drove, that I finally realized that the trip is real.

I’m so happy to be at the hotel right now, in our pajamas and being silly just like we do every night through messages but this feels so much more natural, normal, routine almost? That home feeling settling in once again.

Whoops it’s 4am- we have a busy day tomorrow, let’s get some sleep! Goodnight Hubby and welcome to ATL for round two 💖