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status : closed / ( @gemmajcmes ) location : crest fest rehearsals ( a day or so before the festival starts )

               ❝   i   don't   think   i   can   run   one   more   song,   let   alone   all   four...━━   ❞   nevaeh   needed   a   moment   to   catch   the   breath   speaking   was   stealing.   ❝   ━━   again.   ❞   she   finished,   as   her   body   collapsed   to   the   stage   floor.   as   she   pulled   her   knees   up   to   herself,   she   tried   to   remember   a   time   where   this   was   easy   for   her.   before   things   imploded,   nevaeh   had   no   trouble   with   early   morning   rises   and   rehearsals   that   ran   all   day.   she   took   corrections   and   applied   them   quickly   and   made   sure   she   was   never   holding   up   production,   or   holding   gemma   back.   in   hindsight,   she'd   become   such   a   well   oiled   machine   because   she   was   prioritizing   other   people's   expectations   over   her   own   needs.   if   she   was   able   to   think   of   anything   other   than   making   gemma   proud,   she   would   have   been   able   to   recognize   it   as   progress.   ❝   you   would   think   after   doing   this   for   so   long   i'd   be   able   to   just   jump   right   back   into   it,   like   bike   riding   but   it's   like   the   seat   is   made   of   spikes   !   ❞   nevaeh   declared   dramatically   looking   up   to   her   sister.   ❝   be   honest   with   me,   was   i   always   this   chaotic   ?   ❞