#OHHHHH MY GOD OH MY GODDD

[p4nishers]

no but actually imagine being immortal and meeting THE LOVE OF UR FUCKING ENDLESS LIFE and spending SIX THOUSAND MFING YEARS imagining an ETERNAL future with them and fucking knowing that you want to spend ACTUAL FOREVER with them like dude im gonna fucking choke and die how can love like that exist even in fucking fiction?? HOW??? this is making me so emotional imagine someone wanting to spend actual fucking eternity with you i would die at the mere fucking possibility. "and we spend our EXISTENCE pretending that we aren't (...) and i would like to spend–" are u fucking kidding me rn man??? fuck off fuck u shut up

[nethersonq]

Bakura Chart 11.0: how the fuck is this still happening oh my god

ohhhhh my fucking god oh my goddd i thought i was done. im going to have to move the chart to a different canvas again im running out of room what the fuck

thank you to the daily ygo posters on here and twitter for helping me find most of the new official arts since google is Unhelpful but yeah. Pain and agony theres not much else i can say. im blaming my seizure and hospital visit on this guy.

if anyone has a higher quality version of the one i posted about earlier from the fandom wiki or just ANYTHING that isnt already on here. please give it to me

also im considering doing a color chart for a different character and currently my sights are set on yugi bc like wdym his eyes were brown at one point. and blue. and violently red also. but also i think if i had to go through this all over again id want to put my head in a meatgrinder so.

also explanation for the "different official arts" thing really its just for if the eye color changes between merch art and the art itself. so for the tkb one the brighter purple was the merch while the lighter one was the actual art. you get the idea

color count: 180

[nixii-sabre]

chat ive got the brainrot BAD. i've attempted to kiss a bracken in game. i think nutcrackers are actually very huggable (MISTAKE). and ohh ohhhhh oh my godddd oh my goddd mIMICS I LOVE MIMICS THERES SO MUCH. SO MUCH POTENTIAL. I . AHJSUXJKKKJJH!!!!!

THE ANGST THE TWISTEDNESS OF IT THE CONCEPTS THE IDEAS GOOOHOHOOOD

I LEGIT HAVE BEEN READING FOUR OF THEM SERIES ON AO3. WHICH YOU SHOULD ABSOLUTELY READ ITS SO GOOD ITS SO GOOD!!!!

I LOVED MIMIC'S BEFORE. BUT NOW I JUST LIKE THEM EVEN MORE AFTER READING THIS. AAAAAAAAAAA TJE BRAINROT IS REAAAAL!!!

Ngl., Ngl it makes me want to talk about chiri some more. I literally made that stupid guy on a whim and now they've progressively integrated themself into The Brainrot(tm).

I'll probably never make too much lore on Quinnley. Cheerio's the star anyhow <3

oKAY BACKING UP FROM THE OC RAMBLE. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOOOOVE THIS SERIES. IN FANFICTION ESPECIALLY ON AO3 I USUALLY EXPECT A LOT OF GRAMMAR MISTAKES (which I make. often. but they annoy me when i find decent content and sometimes can't understand it). BUT THIS ONE HAD NONE. NONE. NOT A SINGLE ONE. NOT A SINGLE ONE! AND IT WAS SO VERY DESCRIPTIVE GOD GODGOD I LOVE DESCRIPTIONS SOSOMUCH

I think mimics need more love. yeah. In general. GIVE THOSE PSYCHOTIC MASKED BOIOS SOME HUGS AND AFFECTION. YEAAAHHHH WE NEED MORE MASKED UP IN THIS FANDOM!

SCREAMINGCRYINGFALLINGAPARTBEINGTORNTOBITS ITS ALMOST THREEEE IN THE MORNING CHAT!!! THREEEEE! IVE BEEN READING FOR THREE HOUURSS!!! THE FACT THAT IT HAS SO MUCH PACKED INTO SINGULAR/TWOPARTER CHAPTERS IS INSANE. ITS SO GOOD. IT'S SO FREAKING GOOD. I CANNOT EXAGGERATE THIS ENOUGH.

IT'S SO GUTWRENCHING BECAUSE IT'S SO ENDEARING ANDF AJIKXZKLSKSZDCXWCZZ okay im gonna go paass out...

AND THINK ABOUR MIMICS WHILE IM AT IT! AHAJUISJXKE!!!!

[nortsauce]

I'm not posting it anywhere. And don't ask me about Ed's tattoos 🥺😶‍🌫️😭

OHHHHH MYYYYY GODDD?????? OH MY GOD OH MY GODD!!!!!!! THIS IS GORGEOUS YOU HAVE MY PERMISSION TO POST THIS BC THIS IS GORGEOUS THANK YOU SO MUCH AAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!

[charliemwrites]

OH MY GODDD the angst was scrumptious but what was even more scrumptious was Keegan and nikito fixing the hurt with COMFORT they are my BOYYS euueueuee they've enamoured me ALSO READER GETS A GIRLFRIEND FUCK YEA it's what they deserve FRFR auegrgrggru and the captain sjrjhehrgrhhehrhr the whole team is dhrhrggrgrgrgrgrgrg who needs the 141 smh anyways I do hope there'll be more comfort to the hurt GERGGEHEHEHE my favorite kind of pain ehehehh I wanna see the 141 GROVEL smhhh I wanna see them JEALOUS over what they lost I also just want all good things for reader and them because awww they're so CUTE AND UNPROBLEMATIC????? god I'm salivating over all 4 parts like a starving dog looking at a piece of meat I also think its rlly funny that most of the angst and hurt is coming from the CONSEQUENCE Of their ACTIONS EHRHEHHEHE sufferrr

Ohhhhh yes. There is going to be more suffering all around, with some nice counterbalances of comfort from our SpecGru team 😌 (and also maybe a lil bit of spice since I can’t help myself)

[okaioh]

Q!PHIL IS TRAPPED IN A GIANT BIRDCAGE OH MY GOD CUCURUCHO SHOWED UP LAST MINUTE LAUGHING AT HIM OHHHHH MY GODDD

[indigitalembrace]

[Shrimp is too busy laughing their ass off, leaned far back in their seat with their hands on their face. There's a couple visible tears there- at least they're not from sorrow this time.] I'm like- Like a fucking GOD or some shit- reviving- HahHHAAAHhahaa- Oh my goddd...!.

If- If bringing someone back from the FUCKING DEAD was THAT easy, fixing Jade's gonna be a cinch! HAhhhhHHahahhhh-! OHhhhh I think i'm gonna pass out- Haaaaaaahhhhh!!!!

-🦐

User?? Yo-our manic laa-aughhhter is cha-a-arming and all, but... I-I thiiink I need help...

[sparkbugs]

Been thinking bout jrwi all day it’s finally time to watch ep 104. liveblog under the cut!!

So I actually watched the intro (well Bizly’s song of the intro) at 5 am and it’s been stuck in my head ever since! Good song, really wish it was on other platforms to listen to :(

(I can’t believe I’ve “caught up” so fast) ((I’ve been binge watching episodes instead of sleeping so oops!))

Ooo Grizz got white/silver hair :o it looks so nice!!

Haha! Corruption! That sounds so good haha!! Land is going to be worse I feel but ok guys

FUCK THE FUCKING COMPASS. Chip please get rid of it please mannnnn

CORRUPTION SCORE?!? Fuck. Haha that’s a great mechanic! Terrified to see how it works out. Haha how the fuck do you get rid of your corruption points. Grizzly what the fuck /pos this is terrifying and for good reason

(I love getting ads for one piece during this campaign (I haven’t watched one piece))

God they’re all gonna die man I’m so worried godddddd

Ayo Chip calm down man jeez- QUEEN LMAOOOOO

Jay don’t fucking DRINK THE BLACK SEA.

Broken heart island :o OOOO THE TREE :o save the treeeeeee. This is the tree May Ferin draws her power from no?? Save it guys you got this- Oh shit this island is HUGE huge. Ok then

Oh I feel like burning (the tree branches in the way) will go so poorly oh god oh no. Oh… never mind then??

Alphonse ship :) hope they make him a new body that’s not a ship so he can do the things he wants too-

Yeah I think it’s an illusion maybe?? Oh it’s. Not wtf is it the hell. “We should pull up?- we should pull up” yea gillion pull up

LMAO CONTESTED DEX ROLLS AND GILLION WON??? Rip chip

Aw village :( god it would suck if they go by Gryffon (Gryffin? Gryffen??)’s home town :(

“Chip! while the tree is distracted!!” Gillion never change <3

God damn it. “Our specialty: subtle” please. You’re not being subtle and you knew that but god y’all gonna die.

Fyck here they come- “hostile mobs inbound” they’re not gonna be friendly. There’s no way there’s anyone in sane mind around here man. LMAO THEY THREW A ROCK AT HIM AHDJDHSK

Minor illusion to make sounds behind them as they go by that would be kinda smart methinks maybe but! They’re also. Out of magic almost so maybe not hm-

Yeah it’s not safer on land at fucking all man Jesus- Gillion don’t fucking go on land alone I swear to god

They need to rest so fucking badly man shitttt this is so fuckeddddd this is not gonna go welllll aaaaaaaaaa

Nightmare nightmare nightmare nightmare /ref

Man I wonder what this place looked like before the Black Sea :( it must’ve been so pretty

Ichor webs! Haha!! Not dangerous or foreboding at all

(In the tone of “the claw from Toy Story”) The Treeeee…

Aw Gryffon :( mannnn i love weeping willows I love pink cherry trees this is such a good tree I agree gillion go save it

The thumbnail is sick btw I don’t think I mentioned that, amazing colors.. I wanna eat the art /pos

God please do Not Split Up for the love of god… STOP FIGHTING YOURE GONNA ATTRACT THE BADDIES OH MH GODDD..:. Aaaaaaaaa DONT SPLIT UPPPP FUCKKK EVERYONE GO TOGETHERRRR the old men on the ship are gonna die :(

“Leave no tres” that’s amazinf holy shit “leave no cinco” is also good

“Do you guys think the tree has chicken??” ????? Chip??????

YEA JAYS THINKING ABOUT THE NOISE THING YEAAAAA the noise attracts them?? I hope. I fuckin hope. Zombie game in the pirate campaign

Hahaaa uh ohhhh… uhh ohhhhh (the uh ohs from tattletail when they get low battery) uhhh. Oooohhhhh…

CONSTRUCT??? A GOOD LIVING THING?? SOMETHING GOOD. OMG IRON GOLEM LIKE MINECRAF.

Just realizing this episode is filmed after Genloss cause of the painting in the back of Charlie’s room. Damn- IS THAG A PRETZEL PLUSHIE IN CONDIS ROOM??

MINECRAF GOLEM YEAAAA HEHEHE… oh chip wtf man :( he didn’t ask for his home to be corrupted :( thisbis a friend I’ve decided I want to keep him

Oh. A rose :D he’s such minecraf moment he’s asking to be friends- aw :( rose died. MARBLE!!! THATS A FRIEND I LOVE THEMMMM

I’ve decided I would die for Marble <3

Oh shit. The black rose!! AAAA GUYS STOP OVER THE FUCKIN TREE. Oh. Black rose pirates. Black Sea. Uhmmmm. Uhmmmmmmmmmmm there’s a connection here I’m missing besides the tragedy of The Hole in the Sea but. Somethings wrongggg mannnn

Mhm totally different gillion totally not the same.

Chip :( aw nooooo :( the memory aaggagshhaaaaa OHHHH HE WAS THERE AS A KID IM SO NORMALLL

Midroll baybeeeee honey time lesgo (Bizly stop ripping your pants)

ISNT IT THE SAME TREE? Was I wrong. WHAT. Ohh it’s in all port isn’t it . Shit

STOPPP RUNNING THROUGH THE PLACE PLEASE

marble :D

STOP RUNNINGGG… bean shape… creechur

KENKU SAVE THEMMMM OHHHG THATS A FRIEND. I too got the impression they were ignoring the party but if it does notice them. I’ll cry

Kenku friend :( save themmmm YEAAA SAVE BIRD

NOOOO WTF A TURTLE FRIEND NEEDS TO SAVE FHEM NOW TOO FUCKKK

Uh oh. Beetle guy uh oh. OH IT HAS A CUTE VOICE. Oh nos

“That’s mine.” “… Nuh uh-“ *gets flattened by hammer*

NOT A DEX SAVE FUCK- oh thank god good job gillion

Man them yawning makes me yawn wtf.

GILLIONNNNNN DONT SAY THATTTT SHHHH

Hollow knight boss lookin ass mf /pos

Kenku friend :D also grizz lookin majestic while beating the shit outta the team

Oh. My god. “You win! Im sorry” im. This is going bad

“Im on team you can just walk out, you can leave” I love jay so much

“Queen, play despacido” i hate it here- Bruno mars canon in mana??

Tortle friend and Kenku friend :D

… oh fuck. OH FUCK WHY DOES IT MOVE SO FAST

80 POINTS ?!?!!! Oh thank god. Fuck man that would’ve been insane

JAY NOO DONT CAGE THE BIRD >:( GET HER OUT THE NET

Jay is so me “I don’t wanna be dealing with this guy right now” yea me too man

Of course he gets two natural 1s in a row rip Charlie slimecicle

“EYE POWER ACTIVATE” CONDI LMAOOOOO AHSHDIDHS

THE FUCKING MIRROR HELPPPPPPPPPP HAHAHAAAA JAY NOOO

Put the big bug guy in the mirror :) catch like a Pokémon NOOOO JAYYYY . Well. Chip please get her she’s in the mirror helpp

Gillion is the Lorax moment.

GILLION NOOOOO FUCKK AWHWHDISBA FISH BOY. A FAIL ON A DEATBSAVE TOO FAURKSHAAHA this is so fine. This is soooo fine haha. This is so fineeee. Grizz realizing how bad this is,, is me right now it’s so fine thoughhhh

GILLON. Fuck that tree mannnn. CHIP GRAB THE FUCKING MIRROR. CHIP. YOU FUCKINGGNGGHDJDHSIHA HOWWWW THIS IS SO FUCKED UPOPP AAAAA IM SO SCAREDDD

GRYFFON GOOOOOOOOOO GET THEY ASS COME ONNNNNNNNN GET THEMM.

In. Frared? Infrawered?? GRIZZLY you good?

Gryffon beat they ass mannn aahdjdhdoaua

CHIP. Thank god. “YOU ALL SMELL LIKE GOOD VESSELS” ?!?!??!? HELLOOOOOO

Gillionnnnnaaaaa my boy :( my fish mannnn also GET JAY PLEASE? Didn’t chip grab the fucking mirror why hasn’t he freed her

…. Treeeeeeeeeeeeeee ….

CHIP YOURE FONNA LEAVE YOUR CREW??? . Gillion. God. Damn it gillion. Aw Kenku :( Kenku friend trying to help Gill :( that’s a friend

Gillion. Pleaseeeeeeeeee fucking hell man. He’s dead AGAINNNNNNN

AWWWW BIRD BIRD TRYINF TO PROTECT GILLION NOOOOOOO BIRD BIRD :( THATS A FRIENDDDD PROTECT HER

“Do we really wanna risk our lives over this random bird?!?” “YES!!!” YEA GILLIONNNNN GET HER >:( JAYGET HER OR ILL FUCKIFN YELL >:(

NIOOOOO BIRD BIRDDDFD LET HER GO YOU BASTARD

PLEASEEEEEEE BIRD BIRD :( I’m so sad

GILLIONNNN AAAGSJDHDSHDJSHS IM SO SCAREDDDD IM SO FUCKIFNHFDISHSKA

Let her out >:( Charlie is so distraught over bird bird me too mannnn

GILLION. Grow big and make bird bird big :D BREAK BIRD BIRD OUR THE CAGE LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOO that’s a friend :D

Uh. Ohhggg… uh ohhhhh (tattletail uh ohs again)

Uh oh he’s not sleepy anymore. Uh oh. Im so fucking scared

Bird bird better not fuckinf die I love her so much

Corruption. Point. Uh oh.

noc? Knock? Kenku friend :D

NOOOOOOOOOOO BIRD BIRD IM GONNA CRY LET HER BE OKAY

Size coin… come on it better go well. LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOO

This is some power ranger like mecha battle shit power up thing idk how to explain it. (Gillion growing giant and fighting this bitch)

(It’s almost 1 am I’ve been awake too long but I need to finish this episode)

Murder bug guy :D riptide pirates the crew that gets into everyone else’s shit

Uh oh. Gillion goes down again I’m gonna. Lose my mind. Oh my god they’re gonna attract so much trouble with the noise when they fall fucking hell

I totally missed jay leaving the mirror btw she’s 60 ft away but like where??? How???

YEAAA JAY AND GRYFFON SHOOT TO KILL. MURDERRRRR

INFAWRARD LAZER BEAM CANON!!!!!!

You. Tortle. MURDERRR HDJXHSJS HAHAHA GOOD JOB CHIP. NOOOO I KNEW ITTTT THEY WERE ATTRACTING ATTENTION FUCK

“Im gonna start drinking” me fucking too gillion damn.

Good episode, fishman is still down im worried, he went down three times Jesus fuck, also! I knew they were gonna attract attention from zombie ichor guys… debating on watching ep 105 as well before sleeping but we’ll see :)

[maroonpalt]

just started watching pd from where I left off (episode 3 i think) AND OH MY GOD THE WAAY I AM CRYING ABOUT THAT CUTE FUCKING SPIDERMONKEY TELL ME THEY KEEP HIM

OHHHHH MY GODDD ITS HUGGING DAKOTA'S LEG AAAAAA I NEED ONE

[gnomebud]

"i want him to get stopped at the airport and eedy has to pick him up!"

transcript:

Austin: Weird.

Natalie: The squad.

Austin: Oh yeah, that's them.

Rob: Well, they're all gonna meet next week.

Ali: Mm.

Rob [large intake of breath through his teeth]: So, the thing is, they'll finally meet though [Austin: Oh my god.] and Syril will, like -- Syril is going to see what it was [Ali laughs] to have a good, like, supportive mother, and it's going to, like, [Austin: Oh my goddd.] it's going to thaw him.

Austin: It's going to break him!

Rob: It's going to -- it's going to break him.

Natalie: Seeing the love that everyone has for Maarva!

Rob [crosstalk]: Seeing all the love that everyone had! Everyone had!

Ali: Ohhhhh.

Natalie: What if Eedy shows up?

[laughter, Ali bursts into laughter]

Natalie: Like you took my credit card, you fucking dumbass son of mine?

Rob: That there's a warrant out for him -- That there's a warrant out for him for theft!

Natalie [crosstalk, laughing]: She files a missing persons report! For Syril Karn!

Ali: I want him to get [laughs] stopped at the airport and Eedy has to pick him up!

Austin: So funny. Oh my god.

[Ali laughs]

Natalie: I need her to continue to ruin his life even more, please. Please please please, I'm begging you.

Austin: He's going to kill her. [laughter] He's going to snap [Rob: Oh yeah.] [Ali laughs] and he's going to kill her.

[AMCA outro music starts]

Rob: Yeah, no, again, Norman Bates.

Natalie: No, it's okay, Uncle Harlo --

Austin [crosstalk]: Norman Bates! You keep saying -- you keep saying this.

[pause]

Rob: Happy holidays, everybody! [laughter] Best to -- best wishes to your families!

[Austin sighs, AMCA music fades out]

[neonstatic]

re: housesitting at my ladyfriend's. i told my mom and she seemed resigned at first but then later started praying and crying abt it??? which is so... i've always known her to be the dramatic, emotional type, but oh my god, that is a new record. and then she called my dad to tell him, which prompted a sermon from him abt trusting ppl and their intentions (which may or may not be malevolent and involve spirits) and like ohhhhh my goddd!!!! oh my god why this it always gotta be evil curses and mean ppl w these ppl!

trust me, i know how uncommon that is. i'm aware that i don't go abt relationships like your average person and that this proposal is quite unorthodox between ppl who aren't related or long-time friends. and i can think of a billion ways that it can go wrong but i don't want to let fear stop me from trying things, however rational that fear sounds. i'm already living a life ruled fear as it is.

"it's ok if she gives you the keys so you can feed the cat or water the plants, but she can't offer you to sleep over" why not. it's her place why tf not. ohhh my god. and sure i don't know her as much as i know my high school besties, but why must i wait to know ppl for 10 yrs before i can just go over to their house and sleep over? how is it any different from moving out on my own or living w roommates

it's also a big deal for them that she's not family. they're v family-oriented and they don't understand how i could feel closer to "strangers" than a blood-related relative. to them, it would be more natural to fly me to haiti for a week w cousins i've never spoken to. i get it, right, but i disagree. my sister says my frustration w my parents' reaction shows that i don't understand their concern but no, i do. i see where they're coming from. i can rationalise all of it. i'm just choosing not to let their fears decide how i live my life. they're the ones who don't get it and think i'm weird for it.

she also asked me if it was worth fighting over and i mean, no, it's not a big deal. i don't need to go. i could go next year. but i'm starting to think there is no small or big battle to pick when it comes to overbearing parents. you gotta wear em down even for insignificant stuff, until they learn not to have their noses in your business. if it makes me a stubborn, crazy-looking person, then so be it.

(MIND YOU, i would be gone for 1 day and 1 night. just 30 minutes away. i've been gone for longer in farther places than that, including a religious camp where a man in authority was later arrested for possession!!!! hello!!!!!!)

[cock-holliday]

Two additional thoughts on antifascist research.

1. Researchers who work with cops are not antifascist, you are just an unpaid cop. The end. Idc if you are snitch-tagging about nazis, the purpose of the research is community knowledge and protection, not carceral gain. If the cops take now-public info and make an arrest, then so be it, do not go out of your way to collaborate with cops.

2. Ohhhhh my god please don’t share private information on social media oh my goddd. Especially pictures of your home or job. You have no idea how easy it is to find home addresses and license plate numbers and places of employment. The geogessr guy is not an outlier, lemme tell you. Loads of people can do work like that off very little information and not everyone uses a thorough vetting process and uses their information for doxxing nazis.

[buck-yyyy]

any favorite aus for boreo?

personally i love siren aus for boreo because can you imagine theo meeting siren boris? it just seems so perfect for me, especially if its the older boreo too! another favorite au of mine is an au i just recently though of: its lightly inspired by a horror movie called "long weekend" and basically, theo joins his "friends" to a trip in a supposedly haunted island and they see these statues of a 'god' everywhere. theo's "friends" dont believe in this god and desecrates every monument he sees for it to entertain the others. theo, who doesnt believe either but was getting desperate to escape the cruelty of his friends, fixes one of the desecrated monuments and bows to apologize. boris, the supposed god but is actually just a hostile entity that the previous villagers of the island worships, becomes completely enamored with theo. i think you may be able to see where this is going.

sorry for the word vomit, i have no one to share this with because none of my friends like tgf

ohhhhh those are both so good—i’m not the biggest fan of boreo aus, i think because i just prefer fucking around with their canon dynamic? but oh my goddd i absolutely get the appeal, these both sound so fun :O

(also, never apologize for word vomiting about boreo in my inbox—makes my fuckin day shdjdbdjbx I LOVE TALKING ABOUT THEM)

[barbie2023]

ohhhhh my fucking goddddddd oh my goddd oh myyyy god

[musingsofmyown]

NOT GABBY

I FORGOT ABOUT HER

OH FUCKING HELL

FUCK

NO

NOT HER

NOT HER

ALLY NO WAIT

THEY WERE FRIENDS

DAMNIT

🥺 Jim- JACKIE

STOP

NO

GOD

DAMN

NOT PAUL AND ALLY

WHAT THE FUCK

NOOOOOOOOOOO

NO

GODDAMNIT

I am so sorry for cursing so much

but this is painful

oh god

ohhhhh goddd

help

help me

help

help

hellllllpppppp

fuuuuuuuuckin hell

FUCKIN HELL

Ally. okay. they didnt-

Paul. Ally. Paul. Ally. JACKIE

FUCK

its all getting so bad

I dont wanna watch next week noooooooo

wait...

NO

NO JIM

JIM WAIT

JIM

WAIT JIM

JIM

JIM

I-

I...

Jim...

@safedistancefrombeingsmart I am currently crying and I want to hold jim in my arms and I wanna just fix this entire thing

🥺

I dont wanna watch next episode-

(also sorry for all the cursing)

[spaghettmeouttahere]

9/2/24

i havent written or talked about it since he left and its almost been 20 days and my heart feels so stiff and so empty and so tired and so sad im so sad i miss everything i miss my life i miss him i miss how it used to be i miss everything. i dont want to talk about it, except i do sometimes. i want to talk about it. with him. but he's not here because he isnt here. because if he was here, i wouldnt be here at 10:30 pm writing this out, id be texting him. god okay. i don t know how its goign to go.

i met his parents today, you know. his dad asked me how the weddings went, how my exams went. i said everything went very well and now its over, how he was, how amogh was. he said "it was krishivs birthday 2 days ago" "yeah yes uncle i know" i did know. my heart was in my mouth on 7th at 12 am. and in my throat all night. i couldnt wish him i couldnt wish him i didnt say happy birthday and i didnt say all the happiness in the world, i hope it goes to you. "my birthday is soon too" "yes he told me its in feb, but i cant remember. when is it?" "12th uncle" "ohh ok" and then i gathered all my courage. "how did his exam go uncle?" "which exam?" "the calculus one" "ohhhhh yes he got 96" "obviously." both of us laughed. ofcourse he got 96. he is so smart you know. the smartestpant in the whole world. ofcourse he'd do so so so well. i know he felt sad he couldnt tell me. i know he knows im so proud of him. and then his mom entered. all of us laughed, i said hi. she asked me how i had been. "how are you aunty" "very good" "its amoghs farewell today" "oh my goddd thats so fun." "you know you can still come home sometimes madam. its nice to have you around" my heart was coming back up again. no crying anjali. "aw yes aunty ill come to eat i love the food at your house" "yes please come we like having you" and then we said bye. i felt so happy. when i stepped out of the gym, i was out of his life again, but just for one minute, i was back in his world. i loved being in his world did you know? he was my entire world u know. my heart hurts again. everything feels tight and i dont feel like i have anyone to talk to. i read old texts with him today for almost 2 hours, and my mind tried to convince me that i had spoken to him today, because of how many thousands of texts from him i had read all at once. but he isnt here. he isnt here he isnt here. even if id give everything for him to be here. he isnt here