#OOC / cries in high valyrian

[helaenaes]

sometimes i think about how limited helaena's life is if you don't take into account her being able to see the world through some kind of mystic dragon third eye (which i'm aware is purely show based). she doesn't really leave the palace, she doesn't interact with anyone besides her family, knights, and servants, she isn't given an active role on the small council despite her being princess and then queen. she's not the kind of rapscallion girl who uncle daemon would take to fleabottom. she's basically expected to sit still and look pretty and have babies, which she does-- but there is very little in her life. that's why i take her entomology and dragon riding so seriously, why i pursue what few ships are possible for her. i want to fill helaena's life with richness and color because she deserves to live a life in which she is loved and cherished and not just made to fulfill obligations and check certain boxes for other people's motives. i want her to have passion and wonder and hobbies and friendships and orgasms. helaena deserves to have these things in her life.

[godomischief]

random post thing

Just wanted to write out something I’ve been wanting to talk about, mostly rant-y so if you aint feeling it, you can stop reading from here on.

So, over the past few weeks, we’ve obviously gotten major stories coming to a conclusion for two of the largest fandoms currently, the MCU and GOT. I’m a huge fan of both. Started the MCU with Iron Man back in 08, and joined the GOT (j/b peeps) back in 2014. These two series have been so near and dear to my heart, although GOT has been disappointing me since s5, but I digress. For the sake of comparing, since both came out so back to back, I can honestly say without a single doubt, that the MCU conclusion has been far more rewarding. Endgame to me, set a bar so high, I don’t think anything can ever come close to it. Sure, it wasn’t perfect, and I’d actually argue that Infinity War was an overall better feature film, but Endgame closed the book on many character arcs that we’ve been following, things that made beautiful narrative sense. It was handled so well. Tony’s legacy ending by being the guy to “lay down his life and let the other guy crawl over” him. I cried so much throughout the third act of the film because it’s everything I could’ve wanted and more. This is how you end a story. It wasn’t even like it was all fan service, it was more of the fact that we finally go had the privilege to see every major character on screen all at the same time, assembled. I see something like this that’s 3 hours long, and then I look at GOT, that’s had HOURS each season, and it’s not as artistically crafted as whats been done in the MCU across 22 separate films. How the fuck are you gonna tell me that one major story line that’s interconnected across 22 films has more coherence and a better understanding of their characters and the universe it’s set in, than GOT which has abandoned so many previously emphasized plot points for characters, and in universe canon. I know they’re two different medians, but I feel like GOT should’ve had the advantage since they had multiple seasons to tell their story. This last season specifically has stripped away SO MUCH from their characters, whereas Endgame seemed to beautifully conclude arcs, without abandoning everything the character has fought for and has grown on a personal level. They’re complex, and I love them. I should be feeling the same type of love for GOT, because there are characters I truly love on there, more so in the books. I had a glimmer of hope that maybe, after years and years of suffering through inconsistent story writing and characterizations, there would be a grand payoff, but all we’ve gotten is regression. Which leads me to my next point which I believe is the root for all of this.

Passion. Simply put. I’ve seen interviews with the Russo brothers who have invigorated so much life and love into the works they’ve put together. Same goes with most of the other directors like Taika, Ryan, Scott, James Gunn. They all share something in common that I feel D&D lack as writers and show runners. Love of the source material. The Russos gush over the source material. When they talk about the story and the characters within the story, you can hear that they genuinely LOVE the characters, they work through scenes to favor the characters, making sure it fits in and isn’t ooc. They respect them. When I hear D&D speak in those behind the scenes videos, I don’t get any of that from them. I think any passion they might’ve had for the show was most likely lost early on, and it’s become almost a chore for them at this point. They don’t respect George’s vision, period. They don’t respect the source material, hell I doubt they ever read any of it. And yes, you can say the show is it’s own thing, but even then, D&D never followed through with show canon things they themselves set up early on. The importance of valyrian steel swords? LOL NOPE. Three eyed raven? Nahhhh. And I can go on and on. We’re missing two more episodes of GOT, and honestly, I just know I’m going to be disappointed, as are many people. It’s heard to please everyone, I get it, but to purposely shit on everything that was built up from the very beginning is truly just spitting in our faces, the actors, everyone involved really. We don’t watch it for the cheap twists or for the constant subversions. We watch because of the characters. The story. The narrative. The passion.

[helaenaes]

me tryna write @the-rogue-dragon a fluff starter: 12.5 attempts the vibes every time: "would you like to see the tapestries?" helaena, who can't read the room: and these beetles are from dorne!

[helaenaes]

So this was a tough week for me. My birthday was on wednesday and I was holding my shit together pretty well until then, and then I think the culmination of my intense work burn out and physical exhaustion from being sick so long combined with the expectation of merriment was too much for me. My landlord being an asshole triggered a full on stress meltdown and I was really, really low for a minute there. I'm starting to climb my way up out of the emotional hole, but my activity is likely to be sporadic until I'm feeling more stable. I'm around on dis.cord if we're mutuals, just message me for it.

[helaenaes]

one of the reasons i'm such a hardcore alicent defender and i'm always talking about how much helaena is like her mother is that i only know show!alicent, and now that i'm realizing how different she is than book!alicent, i'm hesitant to reach out to alicent rpers bc i'm not sure who writes what SO if you're a show!alicent rper please take pity on me and reach out to me and love me so that i may love you in return.

[helaenaes]

someone give me an aegon godsdamnit i deserve interactions with my drunken pissbaby brother husband !!

[helaenaes]

it's literally so easy to plot with me; helaena experiences other timelines and places on the regular and she doesn't even have to sleep to just... be elsewhere. it's not inconceivable that she might be able to interact with these visions or dreams.

In a night, or in a day, In a vision, or in none, Is it therefore the less gone? All that we see or seem Is but a dream within a dream.

[helaenaes]

woops accidentally disappeared for a week how in character of me

[helaenaes]

write with me you cOWArds!

[helaenaes]

hey remember when that sex worker implied that aegon was too kinky for a normal brothel??

and then! aegon's manic giggling when aemond pins him to the street.

but also, aegon full on smashing luke's face into the dinner table on a moment's notice bc aemond went a little feral during dinner. bonus round: helaena standing in the background during all of this, drunk af, like what's happening oh shit

i just really love this shitshow of a family okay.

[helaenaes]

idk that i've ever posted this here, but @deathwrote is my rp hub and where i put the majority of my ooc posts if anyone is interested.

[helaenaes]

i worked a 13hr day today and my house smells overwhelmingly of dog pee. or maybe cat pee. perhaps both. i live in a house of pee now.

[helaenaes]

my drafts: full helaena, tapping on my brain like it's a window: excuse me, i need to ask aemond a question please

[helaenaes]

in the last two hours i finally put together a comprehensive set of tags for this blog, replaced the tags on all previous posts, and also set up over a month's worth of queued posts, all appropriately tagged. i posted a meme today and then scheduled out memes to post every friday from now into like... mid november? getting my shit together is the best feeling ever.

[helaenaes]

what do i have to do to get some fluff around here?? WHOSE DICK I GOTTA SUCK SO THAT HELAENA CAN BRUSH SOMEONE'S HAIR OR DANCE AT A FANCY DINNER?????

[helaenaes]

my dr called in five (5) prescriptions for me today. i think i might need to finally accept that i have yet another sinus infection. antibiotics round 2, FIGHT. maybe now that i've taken all of these meds, i'll be able to breathe again soon, but until i've got this whole inhale exhale thing down, i probably won't be around. hmu on disco if we're mutuals (giantfireskeletons).