#OOC - local dumbass plays despacito

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my special skill is appearing once in a blue moon and disappearing

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Am I back? Well.....

idk how many of you have noticed, but i took a really hard hiatus after my laptop broke a few months back. from there i spearheaded into getting a job and my entire life back together. my mental health was poor, my physical heal was poor, a lot of things in my life were sinking around me, much of it due to losing my ex boyfriend and a lot of other people i’d considered friends who were toxic people in my life. its taken me a long time to get to now where i know i deserve better than how i used to be treated by others and myself

these days ive been racking in a lot of working hours, playing games i enjoy, and spending time with my new partner, but i’d be lying if i say that i really didn’t miss writing because i do! i ache with the feeling of creating exciting stories and bonds with you all here on dumblr.com, so i sorta need your help- this place has become a bit of a dump cause of my sporadic activity and poor tagging, so should i remake another blog and start all over? or should i clean up here a bit and continue on with this blog??? im unsure tbh, but i deffo wanna be back here and writing with you guys again!

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I have icons back, let's goooooo

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HELLO THERE! your local dumbass here, with a mains call. these are probably a bit outdated these days, but i’m a shy mess of a person who needs to know who’d like to be considered mains. in the past i used this pretty loosely, just to know who would like to interact with me, but now i have a general idea of what i want out of being mains, and what you can expect (but don’t count on it too much, as i am slow asf).

- your muse will be considered “canon” for my muses. meaning any random shippy asks i might get, i’ll more than likely allude to our ship specifically, instead of keeping it general. in the past i was always a bit nervous doing this but giving this a like means that you don’t mind this every once in a while!

- i’ll invade your inbox a lot more. i have extreme inbox anxiety, meaning it’s very rare that i ever send in an ask, be it from a meme or something random, or that my muse just wants to come love on your muse(s). with a like, all this is yours, and i’d love to be able to send you asks without being afraid that i’m being annoying.

- you’ll probably get random edits, shippy tags, and i’ll try to come chat with you via dms or dis.cord about our ships. i really like shipping, and can talk about ships like... all day long lol. i’d love to do this a lot more!

- your replies take priority, but also keep in mind that this blog is slow activity. but for sure, when i get the muse to reply to stuff, i’ll reply to mains threads first.

- most of all i’m happy to create stories and plot with you. i love plotting so much, and writing stories and creating a world. i like being immersed in that, and if you do too, hmu!

you can like this whether or not we’ve interacted before! by all means, i love making new buddies as well :3

p.s.: if you have characters in mind, also dm me who you’re interested in! this’ll make plotting so much easier on me.

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The only crimes Haruka Nanase committed was looking sexy, and making swimming look fun.

Also Breaking and Entering and Trespassing-

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this blog really be fitting the name despacito huh

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Nobody:

Absolutely nobody:

Me: What if there were supposed to be 6 champions in BOTW but because Ganon killed a Sage in Twilight Princess, there’s only 5?

Me: What if the 6th Champion was supposed to be a Korok?

Me: What if the Sage Ganon killed was Saria’s, and that’s why there’s no Korok Champion-

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Life Update

For my New Years Resolution, I basically told myself I was going to get my life together. That meant a lot of changes needed to happen; I would have to step out my comfort zone, think about the things I want, and to change scenery and whatnot. What I didn’t know would happen though is that I would also have to cut off some very important people, and in particular one person in general.

I had been with my long-time best friend, and fiance since the beginning of high school, and though I treasured what we had, it inevitably began to get toxic. I knew that it was toxic from the start, I had friends tell me that our relationship was toxic, but I just didn’t wanna see it. I had low confidence in myself that I wouldn’t find anyone better than him, deluded myself into thinking that the emotional toxic environment we had was what i deserved and a bunch of other stuff. He would make or break my mood with a few words. I knew that if i had stayed, something in our relationship would break, especially if one of us didn’t change. In the end, I broke up with him, and it hurt a lot that I had to let go of someone who was someone I’ve loved for 8 years and planned to be married to and spend my life with, but I wasn’t going to do that, while being emotionally abused. At some point after that, I realized that I no longer even had the same feelings of love for him. Even tho it pained me to cut him out of my life, I felt so liberated, and lonely at the same time.

It didn’t last long though. I’d already began catching feelings for someone who genuinely cared about me. I’d been conflicted about moving on too fast, about how insecure he might feel about being a rebound, but he took everything in stride, staying by my side and letting me get all my feelings out in the meanwhile. I can definitely say that I love my new boyfriend, and I haven’t felt this happy in a relationship that’s just been about genuine emotion in years. Most of my time has just been recovering, and getting myself back together, cause I’ve been in fragile pieces for quite a while. It’s probably why I haven’t been here as much either, cause I didn’t want to bring about my bad mood and whatnot, but things, and my life, is getting and feeling so much better. I’m super sorry about the sporadic activity here, but I hope to pick it up sometime again soon.

I really look forward to rping again. If you took the time to read all of this rambling, thank you very much!

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send me a word that relates to your muse(s) for a ship tag ouo

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I wonder if i should slightly (greatly) expand on the idea of Kirito being traumatized over having actual blood on his hands for killing people in SAO. Albeit it was to reduce the number of player killers and to subjugate Laughing Coffin, but i don't think this was explored enough nor has as much of an effect as it seems to on his mental state outside of facing Death Gun and PoH in GGO and Alicization

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Heyo guys.

Wow, it feels weird logging on after being away for a while. Truth be told, I’ve been feeling a lot better after distancing myself away from social media, so this may turn from a “break” to an indefinite hiatus? I honestly don’t even miss role playing, I feel a lot less stressed out not having to “worry” about threads either. What I do miss is you guys, but unfortunately I set my discord to delete itself in a few days with no plans of reactivating it. I still can be reached, but I’m hesitant about giving that out atm while I’m still on my social media break. Anyways, I apologize if I worried some of you guys with my sudden disappearance, but I’m alright, truly. Hope you’re all staying safe out there.

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A MULTI MUSE SURVEY.

tagged by:  @temporkarus​

tagging:  the dash

name of your favorite muse: Hmmm i love em all tho

name of your very first muse: Izaya and Shizuo!

name of your meanest muse(s):  Hmm i guess it depends? Akito can be pretty mea, and so can Elain and Tetsuya.

name of your nicest muse(s): Makoto, Tohru and Mahiru are literal sunshines

name of your most troubled muse: Akito, Akechi, Tetsuya and Elain

character you have the most muse for atm: Idk they kinda flood in and out lol

two of your muses that would never get along: Akito and everyone

two of your muses that could be best friends: Hmmm Elain and Rin

two of your muses that would make a cute couple:  Ohh, Ren/Akira and Haruka

two of your muses that are most similar:  Too many....

name of the muse you’d be best friends with irl: Haruka and Rin :D

name of the muse you’d probably hate irl: Izaya?

a faceclaim you’ve been eager to use:  Idk?

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just trying to do my bestpacito here

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recently added muses to update to muse roaster -

Tohru Honda

Momo Sohma

Katara

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y’all ever just think about best friends where one loves the other, but they’re in love with someone else and that friend is just ok with them being friends, then they’re ok with them having a crush on the other person, then they’re ok with them getting together, and then they see them kiss, and suddenly it’s not ok anymore, cause yeah....