#PLUS the 4 that need to be checked/changed/repositioned ever 2 hrs PLUS the 2 that are adlib that wanna be taken 7 floors up to the shower

[dhampir-dyke]

Ranting and rambling under the cut, nothing crazy I just wanna write it down so I don't go batshit insane.

I'm so torn up abt money rn. I have plenty rn, but I always feel like I should be making and saving more. When I work just the 40 hrs a week I can't help but feel lazy and guilty when I see my paycheck.

But when I pick up extra my mental health declines so rapidly and to extremes. And my job is so difficult that sometimes it makes me miss the pure hell of Mcdonalds grill/fry area. If only because the work of it was the fast-pace I like and the stakes were so low- and working grill means customers don't verbally abuse, sexually harrass, or physically assault me like they do in healthcare.

They keep pushing more patients on us. When I started I only had 12 patients, a mix of acute and progressive patients. But now they're making us take 15 patients and they're almost all progressive or borderline ICU. They send us all of their trainwrecks from step-down ICU or the ED without any concern for the fact that they're not gonna get taken care of properly bc of staffing ratios.

Like why are you sending the 90 yr old hip fractures with dementia down into a room with no windows and shitty fluorescent lighting- and then get mad at US when they get hospital delirium?

Why do you keep sending us the most violent patients to us, where is takes security 20 minutes to even find us, and where nobody knows where we are? And I'm not talking little confused ma-maws who try to scratch and bite, I'm talking the 6 ft tall, built 30 yr old who's detoxing off a half-gallon of liquor a day. Idc how good your mediating and conflict resolution skills are, he's gonna knock your head off your shoulders if he gets the chance.

How do you expect us to safely ambulate your 300+ pound/combative/half-dead patients twice a day, when I can barely find the time to change and feed and bathe and get vitals + blood sugars on my other 14? Are you fucking kidding me?

And now, with this new strain of covid that's picking up steam, it's only gonna get worse bc it's supposedly infecting kids worse. All of my coworkers are parents or grandparents- when they start calling in sick or taking time off or quitting bc of their youngins, were gonna be fucked. They might even dissolve our unit again and send us all to the ICU like the last 2 times we got slammed with covid. And I'll be real, I don't think they're gonna raise our surge/incentive pay, I think they're gonna try to stiff us and when that happens even more people are gonna leave. It's not fucking worth it, esp for CNAs and desk clerks and EVS n shit. I don't know what to do. Do I sink more time and effort into work for the extra few hundred a month, at the expense of my sanity, or do I work the minimum 40 a week and stagnate financially? Should I try to look for a better paying/easier job, or is the devil I know better than the devil I don't?