#Panam fans pls be gentle I’ve never written her before

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(I’ll Save You A Shooting Star)

((Finally writing about my wife Panam))

Panam Palmer

Nice night

V rolled over, laying on their back as they stared at the message. His hand went to the ring around his neck, beginning to play with it. What he wouldn’t give to be out there right now.

Venus Ambrose

Oh yeah? Who’s out tonight?

Venus wasn’t sleeping tonight, it was too noisy outside and yet too quiet in here. He had only been in Night City for a month and he hated it. It didn’t help when Link was blowing up his phone checking in, and Jonas and Mitch calling him. It hurt even more that Panam had barely texted him at all.

Panam Palmer

Orion says hello

Venus Ambrose

Give him a kiss for me?

Panam Palmer

*image sent*

Venus missed the stars. The city’s light pollution made it impossible to see anything. He missed the days he, Jett, and Panam would sit on their vehicles and try to spot constellations, drinking and teasing. Venus always say between them but Jett made sure that was never an issue, his arm was long enough for the both of them.

Venus always believed they could have been something more, they were something more. Panam was his rock after Jett’s death, probably the reason he survived their attack on Arasaka. He never planned on making it out when he shook Vax Kane’s hand, agreeing to a death mission. But the thought of seeing her again made it all the more worth it.

Venus Ambrose

Stars are cool and all, but I’d rather see the real beauty

Panam Palmer

Mitch is sleeping, sorry

Venus laughed to themselves, rubbing his eyes. Why was he doing this to himself? There was no reason he couldn’t have stayed… and yet he couldn’t take it. He couldn’t be without Jett there. Jett was his other half, Venus’s soul died that day.

Venus Ambrose

Well shit.

Guess I’ll have to see the other beauty in my life

Panam Palmer

Jonas is sleeping too

Venus Ambrose

WELL FUCK ME THEN

Panam Palmer

*image sent*

Venus Ambrose

There she is <3

Panam Palmer

Flirt.

Venus saved the image, staring at it a bit longer than necessary. Panam reminded him of home. Of safety. She kept him safe after Jett died, watched his breakdown and kept him from doing something he’d regret. Held his hand as he got Jett’s name tattooed onto his wrist… she became their everything.

And Venus left her.

For the longest time, he believed she was angry with him for wanting to leave. But he knew now she understood, and she knew Allen wasn’t making things easy for them either. Making snide remarks and shaming them, Panam laid his ass out and it stopped the comments for a week or so, then started up again.

In her defense though, Venus never told anyone when they were leaving. Simply that he had thought about it. Then one night, he had enough and left. He had already rented an apartment, took a few jobs from some fixers that really needed it.

Venus Ambrose

You should sleep

Panam Palmer

So should you

I’m looking at stars

Venus Ambrose

Save me one?

Panam Palmer

Always.