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[ifoundmyhope]

*copyright* -Mercedez McCumber (me)

This is the first of my poems, as I have decided to make this a poetry blog. Enjoy!! Written on August 3, 2015

This whole time I was in fear Worried that I was the problem Listening to all the things I'd hear And not knowing how to solve them I wanted to fix all that was broken But I couldn't no matter how hard I tried Again and again the same words were spoken "I'm tired of knowing you lied" I wasn't the only one It wasn't only my fault But only I was put in the sun Only I took the salt I feel like I was decieved I feel like I was betrayed Especially all this time I believed I believed you would have stayed What was I missing What did I need to fix Why weren't you listening When I was breaking like sticks Holding together what never was mine Putting together pieces that never fit Bending my back and breaking my spine For reasons you would never get And still I worried and constantly wondered How things could have changed But now I'm thankful I'm no longer under The spell you had arranged Because I had this constant battle in my head Over what was false and what was true Telling myself you were the reason I wasn't dead But really my only problem was you Now I'm happy and I don't have a worry I'm making joy my own Finally writing my own story And feeling like I'm at home