#SHE LOOKS SO GOOD WHAT THE FJCK

[reilleclan-blog]

I was really hoping I could leave my abusive mother but I'm still stuck here. I had lost hope with certain things until I got a call about an apartment and I thought it'd be this but the universe keeps taking opportunities away from me I don't understand what I'm supposed to do . I feel trapped and yeah I feel like I will never escape I don't make enough money for the apartment and it's possibly gone to someone else. I tried getting another client but they haven't reached out to me since last week. Literally posting on the internet and interacting with others is all I have most ppl in my life wouldn't care about anything I feel pride over. I don't want to argue I don't want to fight . I don't I just want to live but it's hard all the time.

At this point I'm gonna say a lot of stuff that is stressing me out and if that means "exposing" then I guess so. My mother began spam texting me to clean .. basically the entire house b/c I'm home or b/c "I don't work a real job" I work part time and with my adhd and autism I'm lucky I still have a job. But I don't understand why I'd ever have to clean this big ass house ON MY OWN when I've cleaned it MULTIPLE times on my own just for my mother to re dirty it not even trying to keep it clean how it was. It feels like if she wants to talk to me she talks to me just to boss me around and that's it. She doesn't have problems with other ppl's daughters helping them or FEEDING them. Cause btw when I moved back in with my mother she wouldn't feed me she'd go out not saying where or when she'd be back and have leftovers spoil or wouldn't let me have anything when she knew I wasn't working and knew I was barely eating.

So yeah the little money I had "saved" went to buying $100 worth of groceries or fast food cause I didn't have many options. And again I'm fucking disabled but nobody cares about that b/c I'm not "disabled on the outside". But back to cleaning this house MOST OF THE MESS is from my MOTHER everything is from my mother. I'm not perfect I have some clothes I haven't picked up a couple unwashed dishes but most of that is from my mother and her doing favors for ppl b/c she wants to be liked or whatever.

I don't have a problem helping my mom but when I'm being berated and told I'm lazy just for this lady to spam text me to clean up HER MESS. And for her to call our family to tell them I'm lazy.. and I'm just wasting oxygen in this stupid fucking house.. that's not a good feeling at all. And I hate that I care for my mother but if I don't do something her way or right away or (in this case cleaning an entire downstairs by myself when it has papers and arts and crafts and HER SHOES and she has a TON of clothes she's bought) I'm immediately "the bad guy" I'm so tired of these fucking ppl I'm so tired of family saying "we don't know what went on in that house" THATS RJFHT U DONT SO WHY THE FJCK DO YALL MAKE ME THE VILLIAN B/C U SEE ONE ASPECT OF OUR LIVES OR INTERACTIONS. I'm so fucking tired THIS IS LKKE EVERYDAY MESS.

Yes I'm not the cleanest but I KEEP MY MESS IN MY ROOM AND MY ROOM WOULD LOOK LIKE THE CLEANIEST IN THIS BITCH IF U SEEN THIS FUCKING HOUSE. IM TJRED I WANT TO LEAVE I WANT TO FUCKING EXPERIENCE THAT MAYBE SOMETHING CAN BE GOOD OUT THERE INSTEAD OF LIVING IN THIS FUCKING HOUSE. AND MIND U WHEN I WAS ASKING MY MOTHER FOR HELP WITH THE APARTMENT SHE TOLD ME SHE EOULD HELP THEN CHANGED HER MIND AND I BEGSN TK CRY MY EYES IUT BECAUSE JF IT WAS ANYONE ELSES KID SHE WOULD HELP THEM THEN LETTER SHE GAVE ME WHAT I NEEDED BUT WHY WHY DO I CONSTANTLY NEED TK BE HURT BY THESES "ADULTS" IM TOLD IM LOVED BUTNI HAVE NEVER DELT IT NEVER

MY DAD IS JUST S HUSK OF A DUDE I CALL DAD IM SO FUCKING TIRED IM TIRED . I THINK ABOUT SUICIDE ALMOST ALL THE TIME BECAUSE J FEEL BROKEN I FEEL ALONE THATS ALL I FEEL I FUCKING HATE THJS PLACE I actually sh and at this point it really just feels like only options. I feel trapped I try to embrace myself with hobbies I love but I constantly see stuff I don't have or what others have or what's happening around our world but I'm still stuck in this hell hole feeling trapped. I'd say I have become happier as a person but my mother just takes it away and finds any reason to hate me. Yes it feels like she hates me and my father and at this point I don't think anyone can convince me they don't. I want to forget everything and move on but my brain constantly brings up my trauma I don't want to remember it.

If u tell me to "just be positive" I might shoot someone in the face. I'm JOKING HAHAHA I'm just so lost I wish I felt like I was cared for I wish someone would even care as I type this out. Nobody cares not even my blood

I don't think anyone wouldn't care if i disappeared but it'd be too late for anyone to care. I'm sorry I can't hold on I don't know

[youneverknowme028]

Full story please because I'm confused, and fan is as well.

ITS ALL UR FUCKING FAULT!!

SO BACK IN THE PAST BEFORE YOUR ASS SHOWED UP I USED TO ALWAYS, AND I MEAN FUCKING ALWAYS USED TO CHECK UP ON FAN, ASK HER QUESTIONS ABOUT THE CHARACTERS AND MAYBE EVEN HERSELF. I FUCKING LOVED FAN, SHE WAS/IS SUCH A GREAT FUCKING WRITER AND SHE EMBOIDED THE CHARACTERS OF CHUCKY VERY FUCKING GOOD.

I HAD SUCH A FUCKING SOFT SPOT AND I EVEN STARTED WRITING BECAUSE I FOUND HER AS INSPIRATION. THEN LATER ON YOU CAME. YOU ASKED QUESTIONS TO AND THEN AFTER 2-3 QUESTIONS YOU AND FAN BECAME LITERAL FRIENDS, WHEN PEOPLE WAS HATING ON YOU FAN AND ANOTHER PERSON WAS THERE TO CHEER YOU UP. BUT WHEN I ASKED 80 QUESTIONS FAN STILL NEVER NOTICED ME AND I DIDN'T GET TO BE FRIENDS WITH FAN OUT OF THE BLOOM LIKE YOU DID. I THEN STARTED TO STOP ASKING QUESTIONS AS AN ANON AND ASKED QUESTIONS REGULARLY ON MY OLD ACC TO SEE IF THAT WOULD MAKE AN ATTEMPT TO GET FAN TO LIKE ME LIKE YOU AND BE FRIENDS WITH ME

FAN DIDN'T FUCKING DO THAT, BUT WITH YOU SHE DID. EVERYTHING YOU DID ON HERE YOU MADE FRIENDS AND GOT COMFORTABLE VERY QUICK. I THEN FOUND OUT A MONTH LATER MY COUSIN ON TUMBLR FOLLOWS YOU AND WAS EVEN FRIENDS WITH YOU IN REAL LIFE! HOW COME YOU CAN BE CLOSE FRIENDS WITH MY OWN COUSIN BUT I CAN'T EVEN BE THAT CLOSE WKTH MY COUSIN. MY COUSIN BEARLY EVEN TALKS TO ME UNLESS IF ITS THE HOLIDAY SEASONS, BUT SHE TALKED TO YOU EVERYDAY AT SCHOOL AND ON SNAPCHAT. SHE USED TO SAU HOW YOU WERE THE SWEETEST AND ONE DAY. I THEN ASKED WHAT DID YOU LOOK LIKE AND SHE GAVE ME A PICTURE OF YOU GUYS. YOU WAS IN CLASS TOGETHER SITTING BY EACH OTHER POSING FOR THE CAMERA ON HER PHONE. AND TOU WAS SL FUCKING BEAUTIFUL. A COUPLE WEEKS LATER WHEN MY COUSIN HAD A CRUSH ON SOMEBODY AT SCHOOL YOU ENDED BEING ABLE TO HOOK THEM UP. I THEN FOUND OUT YOU WAS THE POPULAR GIRL AND GUYS AND MY COUSIN EVEN SAID BECAUSE OF YOUR POPULAR ATTITUDE AND PERSONALITY YOU MADE FRIENDS AND BECAUSE POPULAR QUICK. IT DIDN'T MAKE IT ANY BETTER FROM HOW RICH YOU WAS AND EVERYBODY WOULD GO TO YOUR HOUSE TO HANG OUT FOR PARTIES, SLEEPOVERS, ETC. MY COUSIN LOVED YOU MORE THAN SHE LOVED ME ANF I'M BLOOD!! SHE HAD YOUR SNAP AND CONTACTS NAME SAVED AS "My love❤️) WHILE WITH ME I WAS "Annoying rat" DO YOU KNOW HOW HURTFUL IT IS WHEN SHE VIEWS YOU KORE THAN FAMILY THAN ME AND I'M REAL FAMILY? IT HURTS VERY FUCKING MUCH. YES, I HAD CLOSE FRIENDS AT SCHOOL BUT I WAS NOTHING COMPARED TO BEAUTIFUL, POPULAR, AND RICH LIKE YOU WAS. TUMBLR WAS MY HOME. I HAD INSPIRATION, FRIENDS, AND PEOPLE WBO I LIKED BETTER THAN PEOPLE IN REAL LIFE. I WAS YOU JOE, BUT ON A FUCKING APP. NOT IN REAL LIFE. BUT IT WAS OKAY BECAUSE I LIKED THE LIFE I WAS LIVING ON TUMBLR UNTILL YOU SHOWED UP AND GOT EVERYONES ATTENTION. PEOPLE CALL YOU THE SWEETEST PERSON ON EARTH AND GIVE YOU COMPLIMENTS ON TUMBLR, TIKTOK, SNAPCHAT, AND IN REAL LIFE!

FAN WAS MY INSPIRATION AND MY SORTA FRIEND, BUT UNTILL YOU CAME YOU WOULD ASK QUESTIONS AND SOONER YOU AND FAN BECAME FRIENDS. I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE FRIENDS WITH FAN, SHE WAS MY INSPIRATION ANF SOMEBODY I WANTED TO BE, BUT YOU CAME, SAID SHE WAS YOUR INSPIRATION, AND TOOK MY SPOT. FUCK YOU! I HOPE YOU GET RAPED ONE DAY BY A MAN IN THERE LATE 4OS OR 50S I JUST WANTED TO BE FANS FUCKING FRIEND AND YOU CAME AND RUINED IT BEFORE I HAD A CHANCE TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS FOR FAN! I EVEN KINDA HAD A CRUSH ON FAN AND YOU STILL CAME. FJCK YOU FICK YOU AND FUCL YOU! GO SUCK DICK YOU WH0RE!

@fanficwriter284 @fanficwriter284 @fanficwriter284

@joemomma01 @joemomma01 @joemomma01

[storiesofsvu]

Rita with straight hair or the slight curl?

Instead of jusr curly vs straight I’m gonna rank all of her hair styles/hairdo’s

Fave hair:

1/2 up, curled, with the blonde highlights. It’s just superior to all the rest, she looks BOMB.

Like!! LOOK at those curls! DAMN👀👀

Second:

Long down straight w/the highlights. Simply because of the sheer power she exudes by being able to toss just that little blonde bit over her shoulder.

Third we’ve got:

The updo’s! The middle one is my personal fave, because of the volume of the bun. It’s a very regal look & I imagine that’s how she’d wear her hair to galas. Plus like, show off that neck/shoulders in a gown?! M’am.

Fourth:

The loose curls. They’re not as tight as the 1/2 up ones. Like, this would be the day after, when she’s brushed them out, but there’s still some curl remaining.

Then we do the proper sidebangs from s18e1

Her hair looks immaculate. So SOFT! The blonde/lighter brown is coming through beautifully? The bangs are styled & cut properly. I want to play with this hair so bad!

Whatever the FJCK. Happened with the bangs before spellbound i DO not know, they’re chopped off too short and shoved off to the side & it’s just not good.

S22??!! We’ve already talked about their horrible choices for her in this ep. somehow??? She still managed to make this look not look terrible?? But like what the fuck are they doing?? What is this?? Give us the curls back pls.

SO! There ya have it!

[kanaolover]

the lovely @midnight-in-japan tagged me to do the 15 tags abt your bias tag~ I'm gonna tag uhhhhhh @ultjngkook @wooji @urumi69 @helianthical @chim-chimp @2monstax @minsweetheart @cyphersmisfit @twiceoficial (not sav cause shes already done 2 of these but if you wanna, go for it dude)

also I bet yall think I'm gonna do this with namjoon but siKE I'm doing hoshi

1. #HE CHEEKS #HIS LIL HAMSTER FACE IM CAWING

2. #GORL HOSHIS NECK IN THAT LAST PIC 👀👀🔥👅 #KEFTIDHF BYE

3. #I just had a soft nut

4. #I WANT TO DIE AND BE GREETED IN THE AFTERLIFE BY AN ANGEL WITH SUCH A LAUGH #IM SOBBING I LOVE HIM PLS PROTECT THIS BBY #A LIL BUN HAVING A GOOD TIME IN HE SNOW WITH HIS PALS

5. #SHUT UP!  #IM TOO UGLY TO VIEW SOMETHING SO HEAVENLY #I NEED SOME FUCKING CPR DONE #THIS STOLE MY BREATH #THAT SH IR T #I CANT FEEL MY PULSE #I HAVE FUCKING ASCENDED

6. #SDJKFHSD HIS SMOL HAN D #THAT HAIRS tY LE IM SHAKING I LOVE HIM???

7. #this made me want to die in 12 languages

8. #FUCK FJCK FUCKC #FUCK ME UP THIS IS A DAMN LOOK AND A HALF #SHAVED SIDES MAKE ME WANNA DI E #HES SO FUKCINH GORGEOUS PLS LET ME HOLD YOUR CHEEKS #I love youuuu

9. #jfhreuig look AT HIS LIL FINGERS AWWW

10. #die off #I feel disrespected #this boy is gonna catch these hands #around his back #cause I rlly wanna hug him

11. #plants cats and hoshi #some of my favorite things

12. #the cheeks are out the arms are out the forehead is slightly out my dick is out

13. #WOW OKAY THE CUTEST BOY EVER #I want to hug him so bad

14. #this is hot #gtg light myself on fire

15. #this piece of fucking shit is ruining my life #and I'm okay with that tbh

a few more lame ones cause I took a bunch of screenshots

16. #can he just fuck right off #I cant handle this rn

17. #ew what a loser I love him so much

18. #I just busted a heart

19. #GOD WHAT A BEAUTIFUL HOSH

20. #h o t

21. #that's cute ://///