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Not a dark topic per say, but if serious vents aren't what you shouldn't be seeing right now, then please ignore this post! (There's an Ask coming up soon anyway, so there's that to look forward to 😁)
Venting below.
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The big Depresso Expresso's kinda hitting me hard again. I'm honestly used to it, but the subject around it is something I haven't crashed about in a long while. As some have read from few posts of mine, I'm autistic. While some of that's pretty easy to go through, friendships and human connections in general are something that's always mattered to me. Thing is, I freaking suck at both words and emotions. In fact, there isn't ever a time where I can 100% identify what I'm feeling. It's all frustrating (ironically, that's an emotion I believe I feel the most out of anything.)
(Can I just..... not cry while typing please? Thanks- Oof-)
Anywho, add that onto already existent attachment issues 'caused by some family.. And you'd have someone who's near-robotic all the time if not crying. I guess you guys know why most of the Tethertale characters I use are robots/plants. Additionally, I use Dr.Sanphys because they pick apart other's emotions like a book. DJ quite literally shuts himself off socially to avoid hurts of any kind. Heck, I relate to DJ the most on this whole standpoint. Dude's had so many let downs that he has attachment problems. Papys will have a larger role in the future since they're also autistic.
I don't even know where I'm going with this, but that's where my head's at.. I've seen some people ask for Tenor to be genuinely happy, and I can laughably see why, but I gotta say.. It's hard to portray something you have little to no knowledge of. Besides memes and warm-stories/art, I just find it hard to genuinely smile, especially when that action's been masked onto myself for 10+ years.
I usually calm myself down by drawing, so that's pretty much normal at this point. That's what I'll do.
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