#Supernatural's Summer or Heroes Challange

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Seize the Day (or Night) Part 1

Title: Seize the Day (or Night) Part 1

Author: @sea040561

Beta’d by: @sofreddie (Thank you again!!!)

Pairing: Jared x Reader

Summary: Jared finally has the courage to reveal how he feels

Word Count: 7178 for both parts (I couldn’t seem to stop with this one lol)

Warnings: verbal abuse, angst, crying, pregnancy

Author’s Note: For @gone-to-fight-the-fairies writing challenge - Supernatural's Summer of Heroes Challenge. My quote was “When are we going to talk about this unspoken thing between us?” - Peter Quill - Guardians of the Galaxy Vol 2

It was mid-September and Supernatural was currently filming Episode 12 of Season 13. Y/N stood to the side and watched Jared, Jensen, and Misha interact together as Sam, Dean, and Cas. You knew Episode 12 was the most intense episode of what they had filmed for Season 13 so far. With the exception of Episode 1, this episode was filled with so much fear, anguish, and distress.

Glancing at Jared, your thoughts reflected on the grief, agony, and misery you had been feeling when you returned to set for Season 13. You were Head Chef of craft services for the set. Over the last few years, you had learned which foods cast members preferred and which foods they were allergic to as well as turn the cast and crew into guinea pigs for new recipes you dreamed up. Before hiatus had begun, you decided you were going to take cooking class over the course of two nights a week, for a total of six weeks.

Because the class and the homework you were assigned took up a lot of your time, your boyfriend, Hunter, had become angry. He felt that you were ignoring him in favor of “feeding those douchebag actors on that moronic tv show”. Before the class, you had expressed to him, in excitement, that you wanted to learn some new recipes to cook for the set. He didn’t quite agree with you. After the third time he showed up at your house unannounced, he had found you cooking, again! The first two times you were also cooking. He made a split decision to break up with you, yelling at you that you had to have gained at least 50 lbs in the last year that you had been dating. All because of the “asinine cooking”, in his words.

Y/N y/e/c teared up as a knot formed in your throat as you continued to remember the break-up. You quickly brushed away the slowly forming tears in your eyes as memories flooded your mind. No one on set had known you had a boyfriend. Hunter didn’t bother ever visiting you on set and you never bothered telling anyone about him. It was easier that way because the relationships never worked out. In fact, all of your boyfriends initiated the break-ups in each relationship. All of your exes had claimed the same reason - that you were too fat, despite the fact that you were fat when they met you. Contrary to popular stereotypical belief, you had, in fact, not gained more than 10 to 15 lbs in the last 5 years. Sighing, you softly chuckled to yourself as you proceed back to Craft Services to start the preparations for the next meal.

Jared quickly glanced up spying Y/N walking back to Craft Services. He was waiting for a scene reset for the next take and noticed you leaning against the farthest wall. Jared had determined that when you needed to relax, watching a scene being shot did it best. His eyebrows furrowed as he thought back to the filming the first episode of the season. For most of the day, you had been watching filming. Several times, he caught you looking at your phone with a sad look on your face. He noticed you frequently rubbed your eyes. At first he thought that something in the air was irritating your allergies but then Jared realized every time you rubbed your eyes it had been after you were looking at your phone.

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Y/N had been working at Craft Services since Season 9.

Jared loved your enthusiasm for cooking. For discovering new recipes to experiment with. The happiness it brought. Both to Y/N and the cast and crew.

Jared was greeted each morning with your wonderful, sunny disposition as his groggy ass dragged himself to get coffee. He was actually worse in the morning before he drank his coffee, not Jensen. The fact that you make a mean cup of joe as well as tasty morning donuts is what kept him alive.

Over the years, the cast and crew became a close knit tight family. Hiatuses were spent grilling, swimming, jet-skiing, laughing, dancing, and going on family vacations. The activities were endless.

As Jared was able to spend more time with you, he realized that you were a stubborn, fierce-loving woman. That you would stand up for your point of view without degrading anyone else’s. That you would defend your friends no matter what. That you didn’t tolerate racism, prejudice, and bigotry in any way, shape or form.

But ultimately, you were an excellent support system for your sister who suffered from bi-polar disorder.

That statement right there is when Jared had realized he had fallen in love with you. He never once questioned the validity of his love. Y/N knew that Jared suffered from clinical depression and severe anxiety. You never treated him with kid gloves. That is what he really liked about you. Because it was familiar territory for you, you could understood how difficult times could be.

Now, Jared’s heart is hurting as he watches the resigned look on Y/N’s face as you leaned against the wall watching them film. He knew something was going on and he didn’t like it at all.

Jensen had urged Jared to tell you about his feelings. Jensen had long ago developed suspicions about your private dating life. Even though you never expressed it, he knew the constant comments about your weight affected you. Only someone like Jensen, who had perfected the “everything is totally fine” look, couldn’t miss the miniscule flinch in your eyes and the grinding of your teeth. He had never discussed any of this with Jared because he was almost positive that Jared was just as observant.

As Jared remembered his conversation with Jensen, he made the spontaneous decision to take the bull by the horns and change his destiny.

“Do you think we can take a five minute break?” Jared asked Jensen apprehensively.

“Why?” Jen questioned as he followed Jared’s gaze. He realized that Jared was watching Y/N walk back to Craft Services.

“I know you can see it. Something is going on with Y/N. Have you noticed how out of sorts and sad she has been over the past few weeks?” Jared answered.

Jensen hesitated in answering him but then quickly nodded his head affirmatively.

“I want to go over and talk with her,” Jared proceeded, “I’m determined to find out what is going on. She is usually so bubbly and happy. Always has a kind word for everyone.”

Jensen patted Jared on the back, “I’ll make sure we get a ten minute break. You go talk to Y/N.”

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You glanced up as you could see movement out of the corner of your eye. Your heart started to pound as you spied Jared walking towards you. You could see the look of concern on his face. Immediately, your mind started to race wondering if you had done something wrong. You took a deep breath as you steeled yourself for the onslaught of what was known as Moose. Every time you talked with Jay, you had to put steel walls around your heart so you never let it known that you were crushing on Jared. If you can even call it that when you are an adult, and not a teenager. Knowing that it wasn’t a probability that Jared wanted to go on a date with you, you continued to look for the next best thing. Except they were all duds. You wondered why you tortured yourself with going out with these men who never appreciated the wonderful person that Jared said you were.

You smiled brightly as Jay stopped in front of you, “Hey, Jared, how’s filming today?”

“It is going well. Jen and I seem to be nailing each scene on the first take. So we would probably be done early today,” He responded.

“Well, that is good to hear,” you said as you smiled up at Jared, “So what are you going to do since you will have an evening to yourself?”

Jared looked at you searching your eyes for the sadness he had seen there earlier. To his surprise, he realized that you were smiling and happy while talking to him. There was no sign of your earlier sadness. He continued to map your face with his eyes gauging your emotions.

“Well, I wanted to invite you over for some pizza and movies since we both have off tomorrow,” He stated as he smiled brightly.

“Oh,” you replied, “With Jensen and Misha too?” There was no way he would invite you over by yourself so you just assumed Jen and Mish were invited as well. You know that they usually do a poker night with the guys working on the set.

Jared stuttered unexpectedly, scaring himself in the process. After he cleared his throat, he began to talk, “No, Jen and Mish have plans with their wives tonight.” lying easily.

“Oh, Dani and Vicki are in town?” You inquired.

“Uh, yes,” Jay replied, “but just for one night.” Considering how nervous he was, Jared was surprised he was able to lie with ease. Jared watched as you contemplated his offer.

“Can I pick the movie?” You pleaded. You didn’t know how you were going to do this. Just being alone with Jared, while on set, was jarring enough but you had no idea how you’d feel once you were in his house watching movies and eating pizza. You figured you had nothing to lose. Once Jared sees you wolfing down the pizza, he will realize what a fat-ass you are. He will question why he even bothered hanging out with you. Besides romantic relationships, your friendships often ended in same way. People seemed to always get tired of your constant need for reassurance. That you were too much to handle, both figuratively and physically.

Jared watched the emotions flitting across your face. He had hoped you would say yes. He was surprised that you asked if you could pick the movie. How could he say no to that, “Most definitely! I have a ton of movies at home, plus On Demand. You can even go to Redbox to rent something else.”

You smiled joyfully as you heard Jared agree that you could pick the movie tonight. Now you just had to think of the right one to choose.

“Bring some pjs and clothes for tomorrow in case you are too tired to drive home tonight. I don’t know what I’d do if something happened to you,” Jared said.

Your E/C eyes widened in shock then narrowed as you searched Jared’s face. There was no way he was interested in you. NO FUCKING WAY but Jay’s next words stupefied you.

“When we are going to talk about this unspoken thing between us?” Jared asked. Before you could address him, he replied, “Tonight,” as he pivoted on his heel and ran back to set not giving you a chance to respond.

You knew with the end of the day shoots and cleaning up the craft services area that you wouldn’t be talking to Jared the rest of the day.

Jensen walked by quickly, snagging a coffee, as he proceeded to set, “Y/N, are you okay?” He noticed you looked a little stunned. He suspected it was from Jared’s conversation with you. He had to keep the smirk off his face or you would question him.

You sighed deeply, “Yeah, Jen. I just need to figure some things out. No big deal.”

“Well, if you ever need to talk, you know I am here for you,” Jen offered as he lightly squeezed your shoulder in reassurance.

Before you could comprehend, Jensen was out of your line of sight.

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As you stood in front of your closet, you contemplated what to wear. Was this a date? Or was it just friendship? ‘Nah, it definitely isn’t a date,’ you thought to yourself. Jared was just taking pity on you. Everyone probably thought you never dated because you never mentioned anything to anyone on set. Once in awhile, you did go out with the cast to loosen up a little bit but not much since most of your boyfriends, especially Hunter, forbade you. You feigned exhaustion most of the time. Your days on set were just as long as the boys’.

Reaching for your sleeveless black and white summer dress, you slipped it on and slid your feet into a pair of your flip flops. You applied minimal makeup - eyeliner and mascara - and spritzed yourself with body spray. You laughed to yourself wondering why you were even bothering. Most of the men you had dated never noticed the effort you put forward to look beautiful, if you could call yourself that. But with the slow help of your therapist, psychiatrist, and the appropriate medications, you were gradually trying to change the way you think about yourself and your relationships with others. It was an uphill battle but you were determined.

Taking a final deep breath, you grabbed the wine you had bought, your purse, your duffle bag and started the journey to Jared’s house.

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Jared smiled as he fluffed - yes, fluffed - his hair as he stared into the mirror. He was determined to find out what was going with Y/N. He had known Y/N for a little over four years, but started developing feelings for her about two years ago. He had been hesitant to reveal his feelings for Y/N because she never gave any indication of reciprocating them. The least he could do was extend his friendship to her.  A person would have to be blind not to see that something was going on with Y/N.

However, he hoped this night would end up the way he always dreamed - with her in his arms and her lips on his.

Jared grabbed his newest Pearl Jam tee shirt and slipped it over his head. He then slid on a brand new pair of lounge pants.

He figured he would wait to order the pizza when Y/N arrived so he proceeded to the living room where his two dogs, Arlo and Paige, were sleeping. He knew that Y/N loved dogs so he wasn’t worried about how the dogs would react when Y/N arrived. Besides, she had already met his babies several times before.

Jared glanced at the clock realizing that Y/N would be here in a couple of minutes. He nervously bounced his knee up and down while running his fingers through his hair. God, was he so nervous. He was never this nervous with Sandy, his ex-girlfriend. She never made him feel the things that Y/N does.

Hearing the slam of a car door, Jared’s head jerked up. He heard the soft knock on his front door. Swallowing deeply, he sighed and stood up to open the front door.

Y/N stood in front of him in an amazing black and white summer dress that, in his opinion, hugged all her curves in the right places. One thing that Jared loved about you is that you were a curvy, voluptuous woman. You looked up at Jared with a large smile on your face, “Hi, Jar, I brought some wine” as you held up the bottle you were carrying.

Opening the door wider, Jared stepped to the side to let you in his house. He could see that you were carrying a small duffle bag like he had suggested. Arlo and Paige immediately greeted you with wagging tails. After giving them some scratches and kisses, you ordered them to their doggie beds, missing the look on Jared’s face. Oh how he wished you greeted him in the same way you greeted his babies.

“Ready for some fun,” Jared inquired as he gave you one of his signature Padalecki grins. He practically squeezed the life out of you but you didn’t mind. Anything to stay wrapped in his arms was a bonus. You felt a loss of feeling as Jared pulled away.

“I’m going to put this back in the fridge,” Jared said as he began to walk away, “you get comfortable on the couch. Figure out what you would like on your pizza while I grab some drinks and plates.”

You almost blushed as Jared suggested getting comfortable on the couch. Oh how you’d love to get very comfortable with him, on the couch, or the bed, even the floor. Hell, the kitchen counter even.

Slipping your shoes off, you tucked your feet under you and leaned back into the soft, plush couch sighing. ‘Maybe you will get the courage to tell Jared how you feel tonight,’ you thought to yourself.