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[butchdykekondraki]

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[wuffgang-ameowdeus-moozart]

Robin never really got boys talk.

When Sarah turned 14 she invited all the girls in band for a sleepover. It started out fun. After her parents went to bed they put on a creepy horror movie and watched it in a huge cuddle pile. They braided each other's hair and did each other's nails and squeezed each other during tense scenes and muffled their shrieks after a sudden jumpscare.

After that they watched another one. This time Sarah sneaked her mother's makeup kit down to the living room, and so lipstick and eyeshadow joined the mess of nail polish, hair clips and snacks already on the floor.

The second movie was different. In the first one, the blood was obviously fake and the acting wasn't the best (to say the least). But the second one was tense through and through. The cries of pain were so visceral that Robin shuddered, and in the end everyone was terrified. It was silently and unanimously agreed upon that everyone had had enough TV for the night. It was already 3 in the morning, but tomorrow was the weekend and right now Robin wouldn't be able to sleep even if she wanted to, and thus began Robin's first real boys talk.

It was funny at first. Sarah pretended to die of heartbreak when "the blond hot one" was unfortunately the second to die. Heather said the nerdy one with glasses and abs was cuter, which started a very heated discussion of whether blond or brown is the more attractive hair color. Robin had to defend her correct "redheads" opinion all by herself.

(When the others got into a stalemate Sarah turned to Robin. "C'mon", she pleaded, "you know that the blond one was hotter. Just tell us which one you found prettier! And don't forget that this is my birthday party."

Robin laughed at the ribbing, played a bit hard to get, until she finally admitted. "I actually found the first one who died the prettiest." Sarah was already halfway through her victory dance, when Robin corrected her. "No, I don't mean the dude. I mean the first one. The girl with the pink purse."

Everything was silent for a moment.

Then Emma laughed. "You don't have to be jealous Robin", she consoled, "you are also very pretty."

"Yeah, especially after our makeover!"

Robin laughed and agreed and continued on as if her world just hadn't been turned on its axis. Because she knew that the stirring in her gut and the beating of her heart had nothing to do with jealousy. She didn't find the blond one hot or the brunet one cute. That was the first time she really knew it. She liked the girl.)

It was a bit funny the first time, even though she couldn't really join. It got less funny the more it went on. Suddenly boys was the only thing everyone wanted to talk about. And worse: it wasn't just unreachable famous boys like singers or actors anymore. Suddenly it was all "oh, Steve Harrington is sooooo cute" or "oh my god, Tommy Hagan had suuuuuuch a glowup" and "I want to lick the sweat of his body after basketball practice" (this last one was applicable to multiple different people, including Steve and Tommy. It was not applicable for Chrissy when she exited cheerleading practice or Beth after football.)

She thought it would get better when Emma finally confessed to her crush and they actually got together, but no. It somehow got worse. Because "normal boy talk" turned into "experienced boy talk", and Robin wasn't allowed to admit that the only thing that got wet when she thought of Billy Hargrove was her mouth, because he made her want to throw up.

At first she'd say that she didn't have crushes. After a while of people refusing to believe her (even if she was telling the truth! Sometimes.) she started pretending to be into Steve Harrington. Every girl had a crush on Steve, so it made sense that she'd been embarrassed to admit that she was just like everybody else. He was way too far above her league for her friends to force her to "confess" and she could stare without fear when he passed by in the halls with the beautiful Tammy Thompson in his arms. Truly, it was a brilliant plan. It didn't stop the boys talk, though.

So she became a tomboy. She joined football and she hung out with boys and she cut her long hair into a bob. She lost a bit of touch with Emma and Sarah and the others, but she tried not to think about it too much. Instead she threw herself into sports and started hanging out more and more with Matt, the second trumpet in band.

And that was that. Sometimes she missed wearing dresses, but it was a relief not to have her mother insisting she "do something about that hair" anymore. She and Matt became best friends. She even considered telling him for a while. Until he sat her down and confessed his feelings.

She tried to let him down as gently as possible, and they never talked again. The cycle would repeat for multiple times.

Someone out there is laughing their ass off because who would have thought that the dude she pretended to have a crush on would turn out to be the missing half of her soul?

It started out like always. She teased him, he laughed. They suffered through customer service together. He was funny and surprisingly in touch with his emotions and apparently babysat a bunch of middle schoolers, which was equally hilarious and adorable to watch. They both enjoy sports and they both hate Billy Hargrove with a passion and Robin is heartbroken because she knows she can't get attached. She has already been through this too many times to allow it to happen again. She gets close with a guy, they become best friends, he confesses, she can't reciprocate, they never talk again.

This is what is going to happen. She should already be used to it, but it still hurts. It's better for her to keep her distance. To encourage him to flirt with other girls, even if she can see that he mostly does it to amuse her.

And then they uncover an actual real life Russian spy network right beneath their place of work like some fucking blockbuster. And then they are pumped up with drugs and the next thing she knows is that they are both throwing up in a cinema bathroom.

And then it happens. Of course it happens.

He starts his little speech and her heart is already breaking. She surprises herself when she realizes how much she started enjoying Steve's company. He is a dingus, but she is also a dingus and they just fit.

She is already preparing her apology in her head (oh fuck work is going to be so awkward), but what comes out instead is what she wishes she could've said every time this happened. What she wished she could have said every time she got close to another person, every time her parents questioned if she finally found a boyfriend. Something she really tried not to feel ashamed of, but it was so fucking hard when you had to keep it hidden all the time.

(She remembers when she used to train in front of the mirror. She would stare at herself and repeat again and again "I am Robin Buckley and I am a lesbian. I am a lesbian. I am-")

She doesn't breathe as she waits for what she knows what comes next. What has to come next. There is a reason she never told anyone, always kept it hidden and to herself even if she wanted to scream it into the world. He will mock her and he will out her and he will be disgusted and-

"Tammy Thompson?!"

Instead they have girls talk. And Robin finally gets it.

[backtohawkins]

WELCOME BACK TO HAWKINS, TAMMY THOMPSON (meg donnelly fc)

good luck and have a bitchin’ summer!

[MEG DONNELLY, CIS WOMAN, SHE/HER] who’s that? oh it’s [TAMMY THOMPSON]. i hear they’re [TWENTY ONE] and are known as [THE SMALLTOWN STARLET] around [NASHVILLE]. they’re also a [CONCESSION WORKER] at [THE HAWK CINEMA]. they’re known to be [OPTIMISTIC & SELF-CONFIDENT] and [NAIVE & UNREALISTIC]. some people say they remind them of [AN OLD RECORD PLAYER PLAYING DOLLY PARTON, SHOULDER PADS, A SHOEBOX UNDER YOUR BED CONTAINING A SECRET STASH OF HORROR MOVIES & MEMORIES OF CHILDHOOD SUMMERS SPENT IN GEORGIA]. [facie, 22, she/her, n/a, aest]

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  In high school, Tammy knew she was going to be a star. Music brought her a joy that nothing else could, country music especially. Dolly Parton and Loretta Lynn were the most wonderful women to ever grace this earth as far as she was concerned. She auditioned for school plays with songs in hopes they’d put on a musical (they never did) and wrote songs lyrics down in her notebooks during her math classes and saved up to make her way to Nashville the moment she graduated. While she knew her dreams were big, she wasn’t allowing anyone to stand in her way. 

  While Tammy is a lover of country & western, Atlanta summers and fashion magazines; she keeps her biggest love a secret. Horror films. She loved trying to work out how the blood & gore were created and imagining how she would escape. There was nothing like the rush of adrenaline she got from a jumpscare and a man in a creepy mask. Perhaps if she had been paying attention to all that weird stuff that had been going on in Hawkins her Senior Year she would be less inclined to watch all the slashers she does, but alas, Tammy remained blissfully ignorant.

  Tammy had a very typical romantic history for a young woman. She had high school beaux, she took a nice boy to prom, she let him get to second base in his car afterwards. She was also a lesbian. But homosexuality didn’t sell, she knew that, and she wasn’t going to lose her opportunity in Nashville because of something she didn’t even want to be a part of. So, she gave big, warm smiles to boys like Steve Harrington and wrote songs about being in love with men and hoped that no one tried to analyze anything too much.

  After making the move to Nashville following graduation, Tammy was able to find herself regular gigs at a nice lil’ motel alongside an up-and-coming band in need of a singer. Tammy & The Southern Suns were really gonna make it one day! Well, at least Tammy and her parents thought so! But with her manager on maternity leave, Tammy’s back in Hawkins for the time being and selling popcorn at Hawk Cinema four nights a week. Fingers crossed that nothing weird happens!

[maraczeks]

kenan s1 thread pt 2