#TMI Bexxx Time

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I dunno if guy's understand that saying, "I don't think M' gonna last-" during sex is one of the hottest things they could say.

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Honestly a tongue on my clit, two fingers in my cunt and a plug in my ass is all I want for Christmas this year.

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Thank fuck the roommate warned me he is going to be home tomorrow morning, otherwise he would have been woken up by my usual morning ritual when the apartment is empty, namely me, masturbating loud as fuck.

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So wild to think about now that I have a husband and a boyfriend I am actually living that Two Boys Are Better Than One life.

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It has been a rough day, a very emotional and sad piece I wrote this morning about some grief.

It’s the twelfth of May once again and every year that passes I feel like it sneaks up on me more and more. The first time it came since you went I felt it encroaching on me with obscene heaviness for weeks, a tsunami sized wash of emotion threatening to spill over and colour all my thoughts and interactions with extremely unpleasant and “negative” emotions. 

This is the eighth May twelfth I have faced without you and it does get easier in a lot of ways. I’m not constantly sad like I used to be, the emotions are there, but dulled, swallowing them and sitting with them is not as difficult as it once was. 

There are pieces of me, changes in my life, things you will never get to know about me and in turn growth and new experiences you will never get to have and I mourn that along with your presence. I haven’t cried yet today. I probably will at some point. I’m facing thirty this year without you and that night is going to be hard but it’s still over three months from now so I push it from my mind.

I eventually get out of bed, I put on the sweater you bought at our first concert together, think of you while their music blasts from my phone while I brush my teeth. I linger over good memories while black cherry tea steeps on the countertop and I write this. I love you, I miss you, but it isn’t as hard as it used to be and I think you would like that fact a lot. I have new friends and new people who I take care of and help take care of me and that helps make getting out of bed every day worth it. I do it for them, I do it for you, I try to fill the void that you made in my life by being the kind of person you were because the world needs more people like you. Since you've been gone there is an absence I have decided to take up, since no one else will. I go about my life in the way that makes me the most authentically happy and I know it is what you want. Even though you will never see a new Starkid show, even though we will never scream-sing a song together in a car on our way to the mall again, I still do those things almost because you can’t. I keep living on, doing what I do and having new experiences because I’m still here and hopefully will be for a long time. 

And who knows? Maybe one day your absence will hurt so little I will go to Vegas like you always wanted to and make stupid bet in your honour. Until then I guess I will just re-watch all the FRIENDS Vegas episodes, drink my tea, and think of you.

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People who say holding hands during sex is lame has clearly never laced fingers with someone and used their whole body weight to hold the person you are riding down that way.

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I am back from the foursome weekend with The Core Four (the name of our polycule) and oh my God did I ever need that. I didn't want to leave the hotel room we affectionately named The Fuck Pit. It was such a great fucking time.

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Bexx! What is your favorite sex position to do with the gf?

Great question! I know a lot of people don't get much out of scissoring, but her and I are not among them. We decided to on a whim because neither of us ever had, I was kind of on top and holding her legs, grinding down onto her and yeah, uh, safe to say it was very good and worked very well.

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"Should I voice train doing a good Ghostface impression?" Sentence my husband dropped on me that literally one hit K.O.'d me.

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Since no one else is asking I will ask u. Like a real friend should (/j). What is your dirtiest most out-there sexual fantasy? 👁️

Okay! Let's get this day back on track! First off thank you for asking this Ace!

!It’s the one I want to most live out for sure that is really out there and nasty. I have many fantasies that could be darker but this is one I would like to actually do some day, not one that I am content to let just sit in my head. I wanna breathe it into reality. Let’s get into it under the cut! 

I want to go to a sex club. I want to go with my husband and I want to do what we do in a public space, dedicated to that where people can see, where people who want to view that, can. I want to be on display, I want people to see in real time what he is capable of doing to me, I want to be totally wrecked for an audience. I want people to hear how he talks to me and what he can do to me.

I want to lock eyes with a total stranger while my husband is balls deep in me, to make a moment of connection with someone I will literally never see again, to flat out cum while making said memory with another individual who doesn’t know me and never will outside of this context. The idea of being a living breathing piece of jack off material for some random people, whoever happens to be there and sees me is so, so insanely hot. Living, real life porn, better and bigger, fuck technicolor when I am close enough for you to touch, to hear me gag, see the shine of drool down my chin and neck as I get throat fucked for everyone else’s pleasure and entertainment. 

It is also so intimate to me, the real kicker is thinking about how that act will live not just in my mind but will be in the dark corners of other people’s brains, to recall on, something they share in hushed tones with like minded friends, “I saw this girl get railed so hard she squirted on the hardwood three feet from me, it was so hot-” 

Just legit something so good they think back on it and get off to it. 

The whole thing, getting ready, going to this club, drinking, dancing, flirting, fucking and being seen in that compromising position, all of it is an ultimate fantasy. So absurdly hot I can barely stand it. The humiliation, the degradation, the empowerment, just all of it is perfection to me. And to hear what other people would have to say about me?! God-tier! To hear praise, degradation, compliments about my body, skill, technique in real time? I can hardly stand it. 

How’s that? Dirty enough?

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Me: Man I am really open on here. Maybe I should scale it back some.

Also Me: Who wants to hear my dirtiest and most out there sexual fantasy?!

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(Me after I just finished blasting my clit for an hour with a wall plug in vibe): Anyway the conversation a person engages in with their body via self pleasure can be so personal and so important and the effect it can have should not be understated-

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bex, what is your favorite position with mr. bex and what is your favorite position with your new beau?

i hope this isn't invasive

Anon, this is just the right amount of invasive.

For Mr.Bex it would be him on top, with my legs over his shoulders, he destroys me in that position, last Christmas we had sex, and he got me in that position and manged to pull an over five-minute-long orgasm out of me that showed no signs of stopping, but I had to tap out and then, actually crashed and fell asleep before we got him off. He didn't mind, he was pretty proud of himself.

And as for the Beau, while doing it in the same position listed above was incredible, I think it's a toss up, him having me in doggy style was fantastically overwhelming, made me cum very quick, but riding him for all he was worth was truly something special. He looked so adorably blissed the fuck out, his expression lives in my mind in a big way.

Thank you so much for this ask!

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So I'm someone that also struggles with enjoying penetration but only if I'm on top. I just don't feel anything other than maybe some pressure. And my partner is blessed we're talking almost double digits in inches here so what am I possibly doing wrong. Every other position is wonderful! But when I'm on top I just can't feel anything... am I broken?

Noooo Anon you are not broken! Again, everyone's bodies are different and different positions work better for some people than others, I love riding but also love being folded in half immensely. It is also important to keep in mind that length doesn't mean much, the vaginal canal is more sensitive closer to the entrance and is not as sensitive the deeper you get into it. If he is really long then he is hitting deep AKA the less sensitive parts of you. Try leaning either forward or back and try to hit different spots inside, don't try to take all of him if it feels better to take half while leaning back, leaning forward can also let you grind your clit which should deff help you out too.

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How are you doing today sexyyy bexyyy ???

I rode dick that wasn't my husband's and ate pussy for almost an hour this morning. So I am pretty fucking good.

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I just got railed hard wearing my A Nightmare On Elm Street hoodie, for the unaware it has a biiiig picture of Freddy on the back that says "Follow Your Dreams" under his face. We were in doggy style. My husband might have just given Freddy a facial.