#This is what happens when you hyperfocus for an hour i don't even like math

[lolli-popples]

Statistical Analysis of Jimmy's Allies

So, I often joke about how Scott did poorly comparatively in 3rd Life because he teamed with Jimmy. But it made me wonder, does this extend to Jimmy's other alliances?

So welcome to a statistical analysis of Jimmy's allies because Lolli got bored and did math.

Alliance Placement Data*:

Scott 10th - 71%

Mumbo 16th -94% (reg. 13th)

Martyn 3rd - 18% (reg. 3rd)

Grian 7th - 41% (reg. 6th)

Impulse 14th - 82% (reg 11th)

Tango 13th - 93%

Joel 12th - 86%

Grian 6th - 43%

*So obviously the inherent problem with averaging number rankings is that there were 17 players in Last Life opposed to the normal 14, so I converted all of the rankings into percentages so that way I could average them together more accurately.

The Average placement of Jimmy's allies is approximately 66%, or 9th place (11th in Last Life). 62.5% of player scores are below the average, and 37.5% are above the average. Grian and Martyn are the only players to score above the average, and Martyn has the highest placement of any of Jimmy's allies.

But I want to go further, so we're going to compare the average score of Jimmy's allies when they weren't on a team with him with the score of when they were. This way we can see if Jimmy is actually having any affect.

Average Placement (without Jimmy):

Scott: 2nd* - 14%

Martyn: 3rd - 24%

Grian: 5th - 39%

Impulse: 4th - 31%

Tango: 9th - 65%

Joel: 8th - 55%

(No Mumbo because he's only played with Jimmy, so there's insufficient evidence)

*The placement averages are using the regular 14 player model.

Comparing Placement with and without Jimmy:

Scott: up 8 places (57% difference)

Grian: down 1 place (3% difference)

Impulse: up 7 places (51% difference)

Martyn: no change

Tango: up 4 places (28% difference)

Joel: up 4 places (31% difference)

So, on average players tend to score about 4 places higher when they are not teamed with Jimmy. 66.6% of players did worse when teamed with Jimmy than when not. 16.6% had no change, and 16.6% of players did better.

Grian is the only player who actively did worse when he WASN'T teamed with Jimmy. Martyn did exactly the same.

What does that mean? Probably nothing, but I bet someone could twist it into a lore theory about the Watchers.

[angelo-the-doctor-of-feelings]

Hiii Angel ^_^🌟🧡

It's moonie >.<🌙🤍

first of all hope you're doing well and you're happy:>

Ummm... How should I force and convince myself that I shouldn't get distracted by every living and non-living thing ????? """))))

It's like I'm super focused on something out of the blue and I'm working on that thing for over 7 hours and then boom 💥 my super focused is gone. And I'm betrayed by my own stupid brain AND you wanna know the funny part? Is there a funny part?...NO absolutely not. It's more like... Painful.

Any.way

Then I can't focus on a single thing and there are so many voices that they are talking to me but they are Actually talking with themselves but I'm commenting on their random rambling... And I'm stuck but at the same time I'm wandering through the subjects they are talking about while I'm also reading an article... And then I realise I am even mumbling the sentences but I'm not the one understanding it.... It's a bit .... Complicated?... And also I can't find the first subject that distracted me from the actual subject...and sometimes the actual subject is totally vanished and disappeared from my mind but I do remember the common points that connected those topics in my mind .... Ummm.... And also.... I'm like.... listening to a person talking to me and when I break the eye contact with them or I take my eyes off from what they are doing and what they are trying to explain to me .... Basically They lost me at the first couple of sentences.... yeah I'm zoned out. AGAIN*

And when I'm back to the real world I feel like that unfortunate and miserable kid who turned his head away from the board for one hundredth of a second in math class.... Confused/Trying to find an explanation for everything that happened in those five seconds(it was clearly more than 5s....) that i was zoned out/ and disappointed of myself because it happend AGAIN and And I can't do anything to help myself........

The worst thing is I was always like this.even when I was a kid (-_-;) And the times when I get stressed more than normal, all this gets worse and it's unbearable....I didn't know exactly what ADHD was until eight months ago, and now I understand that all the problems I have and they really bother me sometimes... are not normal things and don't happen to all people... And I thought that all people would have these confusions... Um..... do you have any advice Angel ")??.... It would be profoundly life changing for me and I would be deeply grateful 🥲🤍🧡🌙🌟🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

Hiiiiiiiiiii, Moonie! 🌙

First: THAT IS A VERY LONG INBOX MESSAGE, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TAKING THE TIME TO WRITE ALL THAT. 🧡

Second: Sounds EXTREMELY EXHAUSTING but also VERY FAMILIAR to me.

💯 ADHD.

How can I answer all of that in a way that is NOT confusing??

I simply have to try.

First a summary of what you expressed & what I gathered from it:

You get distracted easily & you seem to have trouble focusing if you need to

You are able to hyperfocus on things you enjoy for a long period of time but you also loose the ability to do so (afterwards?)

You have a very busy mind, a constant chatter in your brain that is very distracting & hinders you from doing anything

You zone out in conversations (because of boredom, your constant stream of multiple thought-trains, distracting things in your surroundings?)

You happen to feel a lot of guilt around your expressed problems & I can read that you are sad (struggling with your mental health perhaps?)

As an ADHDler I can tell you: You are no burden. You are not stupid. You are not worthless. You are not bad. You are not lazy.

I know it seems that way sometimes & people are not very... understanding when it comes to ADHD. They always say we're lazy or not trying hard enough . Which is not true & I do not want you to believe that.

I am absolutely sure you're trying your best, Moonie.

*gets my googles out*

As Dr. Feelings I can give you the following advice:

If you have access to a medical professional, consider getting medication - it can truly help with focus, but it is not a must & don't feel forced. Some people are happy with medication, some are not. There are always some side effects. But that is also a topic for your health professional.

Work with your strengths. You have a lot of strengths as an ADHDler. Search of them & try to use them to your benefit. You know yourself best. For example, I have found my ways of staying on track with chores. It's not always working which is fine. It's normal to struggle.

Fidgets. They are life-saving for me.

Research. Connect with other ADHDlers, get to know what Neurodiversity is about. (You reached out to me, so yay, congrats!)

*takes googles off*

You are right. Most people do not suffer to the extend we do. They might say 'oh, I experience * ADHD symptom* too', but the intensity & frequency is completely different. They do NOT know what it's like.

I don't want you to feel 'abnormal'. You are normal. You are okay. You are neurodivergent. You are amazing & you have your own kind of normal which is definitely normal among neurodivergent people.

Imagine your mind as a computer.

Neurotypical people run with Windows while we run with IOS. Which is cool when we have our own tech (our own strategies) in our own IT-zone (in a neurodivergent friendly setting), but when we are forced to run our IOS computer (aka brain) in a setting made for Windows...

It is NOT really manageable without problems, is it?

You can try to emulate (mask your struggles, try to blend in) but at what cost (mental health struggles etcetera)?

Just some little food for thought!

🧡☀️🧡☀️🧡☀️

Also: No neurotype is better than the other! This is also true for the given example with IOS & Windows. I chose these programs because they're easy to understand.