#actually smthing that makes me as sad is rodya being mean to sonya. but that also makes me very angry. so .

[jondrettegirls]

no bcuz nothing makes me sadder than raskolnikov and his mom. like their last meeting when she keeps saying that shes not going to ask any questions bcuz even though she doesnt understand everything shes sure that rodya is so smart and so admirable and when he says hes leaving and and “it’s not forever? say it’s not forever? say you’ll come again, come tomorrow?” “yes, yes, i will”…. and then hes gone and no one will tell her where he really is. and so pulcheria alexandrovna goes around st. petersburg showing everyone the only article her son ever got published, telling everyone how smart he is, and about how he helped his university friend and saved kids from a fire. and when she becomes convinced that rodya’s coming back soon and she gets the apartment all ready for his “arrival.” and how one of the only things raskolnikov asks about and worries about is how his mother is doing. and when pulcheria alexandrovna dies and they realize that she actually had more of an idea what was going on than anyone thought, like she had somehow just sensed it….. and then months after her death when they finally tell raskolnikov about it and the news has no effect on him, because he had already guessed at the truth, had somehow sensed it… and and and “enough, rodya. i’m sure everything you do is wonderful.” “don’t be.”