Something about Lanzas motivations for Sandy Hook i dont see talked about often:
In one of his Cultural Philistine videos Lanza mentions that despite being pro suicide, he doesn't have the discipline to kill himself, and would need to get himself into a situation with "intolerable consequences" to get over his will to live, which he likens to an addiction.
From pages 16-17 here:
"Th-there’s, I, I can think of two ways that you can choose to overcome an addiction. The first is that you can have the self-discipline to recognize that you need to overcome your addiction, and [...] continue to persist in overcoming it, you’ll, that desire will eventually disappear. And I … I don’t have that discipline.
There’s one other way you can choose to overcome an addiction
and that is to allow your addiction to get you into some cir-circumstances such that continuing the addiction would have more, would have much more intolerable consequences than ending the addiction would have. [...] I think that’s the position that I need to be in to overcome [addiction to life]"
Undoubtably, Sandy Hook created those intolerable consequences.
What does eight year old Adam Lanza wants more than anything else?
9-13-2000
What I Want More Then [sic] Anything Else
I want a farm more then anything else. I have a hunger for taking care of animals and planting. I wan [sic] a farm because it will make the animals happy. The plants would be happy and I will be happy. My Mom knows I want a farm. So she let me buy 10 plants and let me have a garden and bought me a cow thing I can stick into the soil. My mom also bought me pots so I could plant them on the porch. Right now I fell [sic] like I own a farm right now.