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#agshddjkdkd
lynxalon
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having a breakdown is. a bit cringe. like.. me?? CRYING??!?!?!? naur.....
#i usually cry pretty silently
#so to cry loudly or visibly is a bit. it freaks me out ig?
#cause i think that surely i will be judged for having noticable human emotions surely the people close to me
#will hate me for expressing myself in a way that isn't positive and perfect
#i sanitize my mental health soooo much that. sometimes i forget i'm not actually doing okay ??? if that makes sense lmao..
#so ya bein told i'm perfect while sobbing like a baby was. a lot. i sobbed more. it meant a lot to hear that honestly
#i didn't know i needed to hear it like that
#i've been trying so hard to earn my place in people's lives that i created all of these convoluted rules i felt i had to abide by
#it's been exhausting
#i have given so much love but struggled to believe maybe i really am loved too
#my head hurts but it's the best feeling rn
#i've cried Really cried for the first time in so long
#i was loud and i made my hurt known
#it's not really easy. it doesn't get better from here. it'll come in waves as always and i will withstand the tides
#hopefully hand in hand with the people i love
#i'll get better at preventing myself from falling into those Mentally Ill traps
#it'll get easier to trust myself and others
#and to. explain the mentally ill . so things don't get this bad again
#well. ohm. hopefully
#agshddjkdkd
#aaaaanyways ohm if you made it this far. i love you i love you i love you
#i promise i do
#we'll be okay and things'll get easier although it doesn't always seem like it
#if your head stuff hurts you and hurts others you're not bad you're not a bad person
#hold the hurt in your hands and then let it fall away so it doesn't stick around to hurt you again
#that's when things get easier
#that's when you feel the love people have poured into you
#i love you i love you i love you
#as you are now and as you will be later and i thank the person you were because you are here now <3
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