#also like! my default username is macwithoutcheese which is a bad move now that its ya know legal

[boyfeminism]

i want to use a different name online but i cannot make it stick bc i like all my names that Arent my legal name so equally and i love none of them as much as i love mac. like all of them are second rate but still beloved. like i tried beau for a bit but tbh i think beau can remain a little in my head name. duck is probably the other most beloved but it feels like an affectionate nickname from my beloved friends more than a name i want to use as an alias basically like its too personal. trout is Good and fun but in a silly way but do i want to commit to it. oswald is good for video games and i only like it bc it its pretty bad. tobias/tobi or cody are both ones that feel more like something id have picked as a kid and like. baby me Would have absolutely gone with those but current me doesnt really want them. lichen is too silly and not nickname-able enough and i dont like the mouth feel. love of my life said heron was a Better bird name than duck and i have grown mildly attached bc im an idiot that loves names. tad Is pretty good im currently leaning towards that. but i am so fickle towards names like. committing to a different one even as just a way to Not use my actual name online is such a pain -_-