#also mina could probably have noticed that part of lucy so that's why (consciously or unconsciously) she keeps making references to how

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so if im not mistaken those last two diary entries were the first time we had lucy's unfiltered perception on things. before that we only had her letter correspondence with mina and mina's diary entries about her (both filtered through how lucy wants to present herself to mina and how mina sees lucy accordingly).

so im wondering how much of her initial confident 'gonna have a hot girl summer' persona was actually her and not just how she presents herself to people around her. bc those recent diary entries reveal a person who's anxious and a people pleaser (she wants to 'cheer up' when she is clearly feeling horrible just to avoid making arthur miserable) and a person who just doesn't ask for help even when she very much needs it. (she never asked mina for help, mina pretty much offered it herself bc thats how she is, and now that mina is gone, lucy is pretty much left alone against dracula bc neither her mother nor arthur seem to be aware of what's really happening)