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anarkhebringer · 9 months

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I had a nap earlier and have been thinking about how the end of my therapy session ended earlier, and man. I AM gonna give this guy a run for his money.

I even gave a psychiatrist who thought he was all-knowing a run for his money and he said to my face that if he were to train new arrivals to the mental health scene, he'd use ME as their "test run" of having a patient. He said I made him "want chicken soup for his soul".

#half of my issues are a personality disorder issue and the other is untreated ADHD symptoms if I'm being generous #most of it is untreated ADHD I know it is #but I'm genuinely convinced this guy thinks I'm solely just severely depressed and it's my mindset making me doomthink 24/7 #he looked at me like I was nuts when I told him straight up I HATE striving for positivity because it places too many expectations #and that I want to achieve neutrality as a first step at the very least #also that I think about this shit logically I'm not an idealistic and whimsical type of person #and we butt heads about coping mechanisms when I told him I HAVE coping mechanisms that WORK #I just DON'T HAVE THE ENERGY TO COMMIT TO THEM BECAUSE OF MY UNTREATED ADHD #he talked AT me like ALL therapists do and I don't tolerate that shit #if they don't wanna LISTEN then I'll interupt the fuck out of them until they do #I'm happy to work with him and give a bit for this too! As long as he LISTENS TO ME when I say I KNOW what works for me #we just gotta feel each other out like I have to with every one of these goons I'll break him eventually #until it clicks that these muscle relaxation exercises for my anxiety aren't gonna help with the bigger picture of NO BRAIN CHEMICALS

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