#am i sublimating some of my background existential angst brought to the surface by pms into anakin skywalker again?

[ahsoka-in-a-hood]

I do generally go with the concept that Anakin genuinely liked and wanted to be jedi mostly but I can also fuck with the concept that he didn't quite. This guy has all this sunk cost shit in his character as Vader already.. Anakin can be the guy who isn't satisfied but can't walk away because he left his mother for this, he said he wanted this, Qui Gon wanted this for him, Obi Wan would be gutted if left, Obi Wan threatened to leave the order to get him this opportunity, he can't just. Throw that all away. Can he? He was supposed to want this. He wanted this. He can't betray his mother and Qui Gon and Obi Wan like that. He can't even admit he doesn't feel right.